I am so frustrated right now. One: DJ is acting like a spoiled brat and crying LOUDLY to make me mad....Second: My mom called to say that my brother isn't do so hot. He's extremely depressed. The first time six months (since this began for him) that he's having this problem. He won't eat and can't control his bladder. The hospital was suppose to send him home today but my mom isn't able to care for him at the place they are staying and she wants the hospital to find out what they can do for his depression and wetting the bed. I am sure wetting himself is part of the depression. We were suppose to go up there to visit this weekend but after this last surgery I am not going to have two kids running around him making noise when he should rest. Mom isn't happy I am not coming up. It hasn't even been a week since his surgery. I think he needs to heal a bit more before there is a houseful of people and knowing him he wouldn't be up for it. Plus, it's my birthday this Friday and the party we are going to have for it and for my brother and his ending radiation will be next week. So, why would I come up this week only to turn around and go back again. My parents don't drive the 2 1/2 hours to see me and they aren't traveling with children. I don't understand how they don't understand that?? They don't. They think I can drop everything at a moments notice and go see them. I can't even tell you the last time my parents have been here....Maybe July of last year....yet, I have been to their place three times this year alone. This is a problem ( who visits who) that will never be resolved.
Anyway, DH leaves again tonight for Seattle. Seems they need him up there. He should be back by Friday. I hope in time for dinner. If not then I will take the kids some place to eat. I like to go out for dinner on my birthday
Da'rel is getting into DH's work things so, better get and put his crap out of reach!
Happy MAY day everyone! When I was a kid we use to make cones out of paper and stuff them full of flowers or weeds....and knock on our neighbors door and leave them. Most everyone was happy but there were a few grumpy turds who didn't appreciate a 6yr old kids gesture...Poo on you!!
Only one more day and I am a year older!!! Oh, I love May 2nd!! LOL! I do wish my twin was around to celebrate but I am use to it by now!!
Off to enjoy the beautiful weather we are having!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! LOL!
My mom and sister came down and took me to lunch and we went to the mall shopping. It's so awesome outside today. Got to 70 yesterday and I think about the same today. It's hard to believe I am one year older. I feel the same as when I was a kid Not sure if De'Juan will be home early enough for dinner but I don't care. I have had a great time already
Weekend was good. Step-mom still upset with me for not coming up. I am so sorry really I am but we are all sick. After DJ's soccer game on Saturday he spiked a fever. All afternoon I had him drinking water and gave him some meds...it finally broke but I can't imagine taking him to my parents house were it takes an act of congress to turn on the heat. My brother doesn't need sick people around him right now. I promised I would come up next weekend and then realized that it's mother's day and I have a prior commitment at church. So, she's going to be even more pissed. Doesn't it sound a little weird?? I mean the reason she is mad at me seems petty and stupid. She wouldn't even talk to me on my birthday. Ah, **** her! All my life I have been having to tread around her and not hurt her feelings while she stomps on everyone elses.
So, my hair was fixed. Looks good. It's still going to take some getting use to. Now, I have three colors of brown to blend.
De'Juan was home for most of the day. I am glad he's off working I feel like he's watching my every move even when he's doing paper work. I go to my room and watch tv and fold laundry. I am off to chat on the phone
*My Handsome Boy*
Ah, the morning started off very slow. All the running around I did yesterday. I got the wicked witch of the south her mother's day gift.....Um, I mean my mother in laws gift LOL! I am sure she will ***** about it. She always does where I am concerned. ****, I sent out over 60 easter cards with pictures of the boys...the first thing she asks me is if I sent pics to one of her friends. Man, I was beyond pissed. So, had a good day shopping yesterday. DJ had his soccer practice and last week he left his ball on the field due to a thunderstorm and the coach took all the balls home...now the coach is saying he doesn't have the ball. Oh, great! One more thing to buy that dang kid. He doesn't keep track of his things or he tears them apart with in minutes of getting something. He has been doing well in school. No problems this week...maybe I spoke too soon His teacher sent this note home saying there is a field trip to the zoo and the kids can't go unless a family memeber is there to watch the child....every child! So, I have Da'rel and I am going to ask if it's ok if Da'rel is there....I am thinking that it shouldn't matter because we the parents are watching the kids NOT the teachers. I will drive myself up to the zoo while DJ rides the bus...I will pay for Da'rel and I...whatever it takes so ,I can be there. DJ asked me last week if I could go to the zoo with him. I told him I would love to(before I knew I had to be there) but I have Da'rel and they won't let me do anything in class besides wash the tables because I have Da'rel with me. So, he wasn't happy with me...told me it makes him feel sad when I don't get to go on field trips...he says that Da'rel will behave...it's ok to bring him. I felt terrible. I know he wants me to be there and I want to. I dont have babysitters during the day. All my friends work. De'Juan can't take any time off. He's too busy. I hope I hear the answer I want when I talk to his teacher today.
*My Handsome Boy*
Well, I spoke to the teacher and everything is a go for the trip to the Zoo....they know I am bringing Da'rel but said it would be ok. Watch they probably tell me the day of that they changed their minds and then say I can't go. The teacher did say if I was going that possibly I should invite several other parents to car pool with me? WTF??! Nice they just say that with out asking.
Yesterday my best freind came up to visit. I was watching her son and Da'rel while she was getting her hair cut. The salon was EMPTY! The boys were doing great. Da'rel was next to me looking in the full length mirrors ......way out of the way not being loud...when the gal who runs the salon during the day comes up to me or Da'rel rather and says I hope your not putting your little fingers all over my clean mirrors....and then walks away. He's not even two feet tall and he's standing there pointing to his nose and very curly-fro-ish hair....I picked him up and Ethyn and we went to the car while Court go her hair done. She was in there only 15more minutes. I was so pissed. They could have been screaming like wild animals and the place packed BUT they weren't and the place had three people getting their hair done and that includes my best buddy. Ah, I hate the fing place. So tired of the snooty-ness! Then again the prices are so cheap! If I can find another place I would leave there So, my best friends sister put in a complaint.....I hope MELISSA gets *****ed at! HOE!! Get a personality!
Anyway, everyones in bed. Maybe I should think about that. We all have been sick. I have only a cough and nothing else...but the cough hurts my chest and feels like my lungs are going to explode! They boys have runny noses and coughs. DJ has soccer tomorrow and I think my girlfriend is coming to watch. Not sure if there is anything going on this mother's day weekend....besides church.....I did speak with my step-mom and I knew she would be mad....she was! She claims she understands. I am sure just enough to with-hold my birthday card. Whatever! Don't need her damn $$ anyways!
After DJ's soccer game on Saturday we took the boys to lunch and then to this indoor sports place. They have all kinds of indoor play equipment. So, we walk in and the boys run ahead of me and De'Juan is paying. This lady at this table looks at me and asks if those are my kids. I said yes. Then she says are they Milatto! I about ****ing fainted! That word is very offensive to me...not to everyone but it is to me. I said if you mean biracial then Yes, they are. She keeps talking! I knew she was a few brinks short of a load then! She asks if I live in the area? Thankfully I get to say NO! She says oh, I really want my son to play with children of his own kind! I nearl crapped my pants! Never in all my life have I ever had this converstaion with anyone. I always get the stares and the 'what are they' questions but never this. I just smiled and walked away. I wanted to choke her! Just by looking at her she seemed off but when she opened her mouth you KNEW something was wrong. While the boys were playing De'Juan and I were sitting down when she comes over with her boy to the indoor monkey bars and gets on the and hangs upside down...letting EVERYTHING show....not that she had anything to begin with. I turned the other way. I was avoiding her like the plege. I told DH what she said and he was HOT! He said let her come over here talking that mess to me! I said babe no one would ever question 'what' the boys are with you right there. They only do that to me. I realize that folks have questions even I do sometimes but even still I won't ask if a child is a boy or a girl....I defently wouldn't come out and ask if your biracial. Even hearing the word 'mixed' pisses me off. Gosh, folks biracial children aren't circus freaks!
Sunday was better We went off to church and enjoyed a bbq. It was a beautiful day. I called my step-mom and thankfully she didn't answer the phone! I left a message. I also sent her a card. I noticed that I didn't get a card or a call. This is her way of still being pissed at me. I am suppose to go up there this weekend. I am thinking of spending some time at my aunts house. I really don't want to be around them. I do know if I go now I won't have to worry about it until late in the summer. Well, baby just went down and I am going to start some laundry since the GE man just came and fixed my washer
*My Handsome Boy*
Yesterday I went with DJ's class to the zoo. OH, it was just crazy! When I get there I find out that not only do I have to watch DJ but I have two other boys to make a group of four kids to watch. When I signed the paper for DJ to go to the zoo the paper said parents HAD to attend in order for the kids to go to the zoo....that wasn't true. Then we also find out that the two teachers in his class are not watching any kids. They just wandered around the dang place. I hooked up with another mother so, we had 5 boys to keep an eye on. Two of them just wouldn't listen. By the end of the day I was beat. I can only imagine what my parents went through with all of us kids. The weather was awesome.Over 70 and my face and top of my head got a bit red. It was fun to see the boys react to all the animals. Aside from yelling, boys, boys...stop running, watch out for other kids and people, Tyler B. OVER HERE! LOL! I did have a good time. I took DJ and the other boys back to the bus and hopped in my car and went home. Da'rel was a peach. He was so awesome. I didn't have any problems with him or DJ. I know it's hard at 6 years old to listen especially when they are so full of energy and want to run. I sure hope they didn't think I was a hag. I brought snacks and then gave them each a special treat when we were leaving. The little guys did give me a hug and thanked me for watching them. Did make me feel better
I just know I will NEVER do that again! LMAO!!!
*My Handsome Boy*
A sweet poem...I sent it do De'Juan...he'll think I am after something but I am not! Just being nice
Here are my boys! Oh, I just love them! So cute!!
It was taken on Da'rel's first birthday