The Story of My Life
Well, I guess I'll give this journal thing a shot. There's not too much excitement in my life to write about, but it might be fun to look back over this later. So, here goes.
Braden just did not feel like sleeping last night, so I only fell asleep at 6 am! I slept until 9 when he wanted to eat again, then slept again until 1. Now here it is 1:30 am and he's sleeping like a little angel, but I can't sleep because I woke up so late. Bob is snoring away on the couch. He sleeps down here every so often to get an uninterrupted night of sleep. I wish I had that luxury. I do feel bad though, because last night was a particularly tough one for us. I got pretty exasperated and practically screamed. I just don't understand why Braden won't sleep sometimes.
I really need to get more cable channels. I watch tv while I'm up all night, and I only have basic cable. The only thing on there is news and infomercials. Boring!
My day was kinda uneventful. As soon as I got up I had to deal with the fact that our voice mail system wasn't working. We run the office out of our home, so we have a phone system in our house. One of our technicians was over here running wiring for our network system, and ever since he left the voice mail system hasn't worked. I worked on troubleshooting it for a while, but I have no freaking idea what's wrong with it. When Greg comes back over tomorrow, I have a few ideas of things for him to try.
I invited my MIL over for dinner, since my FIL was out of state. I made spaghetti for dinner. She stayed until 10:00, debating things with Bob and I. It was fun.
Bob fell asleep shortly after she left, and I've been browsing this site ever since. Braden is sleeping against my chest right now. He's so precious. I'm so proud of how much he's been smiling lately. He's the most adorable baby ever. I love my baby!
I guess I'll try to write in here quickly while things seem calm upstairs. Last night was just as bad as the night before. We only fell asleep around 6 am again. Braden was just crying and crying and crying. I would rock him to sleep, and as soon as I tried to put him down he'd wake up crying again. I was a mess.
Braden had his one month checkup today, at 5 1/2 weeks. He looked totally healthy to the doctor. He was 10 pounds 4 ounces and 22 inches long. At birth he was 7 pounds 1 ounce and 20 inches long, so he's growing well. The doctor says he's in the 75th percentile for everything. That's much better than the 17th percentile they had me all worried about during my pregnancy. When I explained to the doctor about Braden's recent behavior, he said it sounded like colic. From what I've read on it, that can last for up to 6 months. The doctor seems to think it usually goes away by 3 months though. 3 days is too much as far as I'm concerned.
I stopped over at the IL's house today. I just intended to stay a few minutes, but we got into talking about politics. I tried to convince them that Iraq was a bad move, and that gays should have the same rights as straight people, but they don't believe me. Damn conservative ninnies.
I suppose I should go up and check on my boys. I don't hear any crying coming from up there, so maybe Braden is actually sleeping and he doesn't have colic, just has had a fussy couple of nights. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. If not, at least I got an hour and a half of sleep in so far tonight.
Not a whole lot to report today, but I'd like to keep this updated every day. One major thing is, though, is that Braden slept great last night. He woke up at 1 and 6 to eat, but went right back to sleep. So maybe we were just jumping the gun on the whole colic thing, and he was just having a fussy couple of nights. I sure hope so. Now if only he would start sleeping through the night. I'll take what I can get, though.
I played Star Wars Galaxies most of the day today. Well, at least with what free time I had when I wasn't attending to Braden. It was fun. I hadn't spent much time playing a computer game in a long time. Today I just decided screw it. I need a break, and the work will still be around to do tomorrow.
Other than that the day was pretty much uneventful. Braden is upstairs sleeping in his swing right now. One of our friends is over here right now. We debate with him a lot. He actually shares our views for the most part, but we like to argue minute details. The funny thing is that this guy is actually my ex-bf. We lived together for a year and a half before I fell in love with Bob and we broke up. It is great how we are all still such good friends, because the three of us enjoy hanging out. I guess I'll go join in their conversation now. Maybe I'll have something more exciting to report tomorrow.
Well, since people actually seem to be reading this, I suppose I will post a little bit about myself.
My name is Jackie, and I'm 23 years old. My husband is Bob, who is 36. I know that's a big age difference, but we just get along so well. We are very much in love, and we do almost everything together. We share pretty much all the same interests (computer games, D&D, strategy games, and of course our son!). We have been married since November 16, 2002, after living together for almost 3 years. We are 10 days from our 1 year anniversary! And we will have to find a babysitter because we already have a baby. I pretty much got knocked up a month after we got married. That's what I get for starting my pills a week late that month. Word of advice: they tell you to take those things every day for a reason!
Bob owns his own company. Well, he's partnered with his brother, but his brother is working on a project for the military in Washington DC for a while, so Bob has the run of the place. The business is a communications business. We install network, telephone, and cable tv cabling, along with phone systems, paging systems, security cameras, and probably other stuff I can't think of. I started working for them in May of 2000 as a technician. I used to work in restaurants, and I needed a career. Bob was kinda skeptical of me working as a contractor, but I was determined. I turned out to be the best technician in the company in many ways. I climb up on ladders, use drills, go up 30 feet on lifts, and all that fun stuff. I actually love the work. I'm the only BICSI certified installer in the company. So if I ever needed to find another job, I'd stay in this field. I stopped being able to do technician work since I got pregnant though. Since then I've been doing all of the bookkeeping around the office to help Bob out, and when I have time I work on bidding out projects. We bought a house and moved in 2 weeks before Braden was born, and now we run the office out of there. I'm on partial unemployment and working part time for the office right now. We're hoping that by the time my unemployment runs out the business gets busy enough that they can afford to pay me full time out of the office. Then we won't have to find day care. Things have really been picking up lately. We were really slow for a year and a half, but we've been really busy since the end of the summer. I suppose that's cause the economy is really picking up.
Now, on to my son, Braden. He was born on September 27, 2003. That was also my grandma's birthday, who passed away 2 years ago, so that was nice. Braden will be 6 weeks old on Saturday already. I can hardly believe it! My pregnancy was pretty normal until the third trimester. I found out I had gestational diabetes at 28 weeks. At first they put me on a diet, but that alone wasn't enough to regulate my blood sugars. So I ended up having to give myself 2 shots of insulin a day. That wasn't so bad, though, once I got used to it. I also had to get NST's done once a week starting at 32 weeks. Then, at my 36 week u/s, they decided that I needed to start getting NST's done twice a week, since Braden was only measuring in the 17th percentile. Add that on top of the weekly appointments, and the monthly ultrasounds, and I was in the doctor's office 4 times a week sometimes! That got old pretty quickly.
Then, on September 27, my water broke just one day before my due date. My water broke at 5:45 am, and Braden was born via emergency c-section at 11:40 am. That was pretty scary. It all happened so quickly. His heart rate was dropping with the contractions, so they decided they need to get him out right away. He was perfectly healthy though. He weighed 7 lbs 1 oz, 20 inches when he was born. Now he's 10 pounds 4 ounces, and 22 inches. I just can't believe how quickly he's growing. Other than the fussiness he has when he gets bad gas, he's a good baby. I just love him so much, and I'm so lucky to have him. The road there was stressful at times, but I'd do it all over again to have my healthy baby boy. Of course, I don't think I will do it ever again. Bob and I are not the 2 child household type of people. We just wanna enjoy our son.
Well, I guess that's all the important info about me. I guess I'm not the most exciting person in the world, but I'm me.
So, today's events. Nothing too great. The cable guy came, and I got my cable service upgraded. Yippie! Now I have something to watch other than news and infomercials when Braden decides to stay up all night. We also bought an eliptical machine and put it in our bedroom, so I'm more inclined to exercise if I can watch tv at the same time. I haven't started exercising yet, which I really need to. I'm just trying to get caught up on all the bills and taxes and paperwork for the business. Having a newborn is very time-consuming.
I spent most of the day organizing our files, and started working on some things I'm behind on. That's when I wasn't taking care of Braden or cooking, anyway. Then I took a 2 hour nap on the sofa with Braden. I woke up just in time to watch Friends. Then some friends came over to see Braden, and they are watching Sopranos now. I already saw it, so I'm not paying attention really. Sopranos is a cool show, but I like Six Feet Under better. HBO shows rock.
I had a small relapse on the PPD thing today. I've been feeling so proud of myself, like I've really been pulling it together lately. I've been making meals a lot, and have been working on getting more organized. Then Bob made a joking comment to me on the phone about how I made dinner for his mom the other night, but haven't made anything for us since. I started crying, because I felt like I've been doing so much more for us lately. He didn't mean anything by it, but I'm just extra-sensitive right now. I also flipped out because Braden was having one of his gassy screaming fits, and I was trying to do everything for this baby at once while Bob was sitting at his computer. I yelled, "I need help!" He came and helped me then, so I felt bad about getting upset so quickly. I really am getting much better with things though.
Well, I guess that's about it for today. I think our friend is going home, so maybe Bob and I will spend some time together. Good bye!
Well, let's see. Today's events...
First we went to Ponderosa for lunch. We were there for a couple of hours. I used to work there, so I'm friends with most of the people there. Also, a very good friend of ours works there, so we tend to hang out and talk to him for a while.
After that, we went to Wal Mart and looked at tv's. Then we drove all the way to Best Buy, which is 45 mins away, to get a better look at tv's. We decided we're going to buy a 52" widescreen high definition tv for $1400 I think. If we decide against that, it'll be the regular 35" tv for $450. I think we're both leaning toward the cool one though.
After that it got late, and we went back to Ponderosa for dinner again. Our friends there are having complicated love life issues, so it is interesting to talk to them. So we stayed there until they closed, then came home. I just put Braden to sleep. He fell asleep watching his Baby Einstein video. It's so cool. He actually watches the videos. He's just so aware lately.
I'm starting to get worried about how down I feel. The thing is, I keep thinking that I'm doing better, then the slightest thing will get me beating myself up all over again. Braden was born 6 weeks ago. I'm starting to think I should talk to a doctor. I don't want to be labeled as depressed though. I keep thinking that if I have a positive attitude then I will feel back to normal again, but it just doesn't work out that way. When I get into a "spell" though, it doesn't take me too long to bounce back. If anyone who reads this has any experience with PPD, I'd love to talk to you. Feel free to pm me.
I guess that's all the excitement of the day. I'll try to post tomorrow, but we have D&D tomorrow night, so I might not get a chance. Ta ta for now!
Wow, I haven't done too good of a job on keeping up with my journal. Though there's not too much exciting to report in my life, so it really doesn't matter. Let's see...
Saturday I slept a lot of the day. Well, at least while I wasn't taking care of Braden anyway. I think I made a run to Wal Mart too. Then at night we had our weekly D&D session. It was very fun, as usual.
Sunday we went with a friend of ours to watch the new Matrix movie. I thought it was awesome. Then when we got home I made chicken for dinner for everyone.
I think I slept pretty late on Monday. I don't think I actually did very much. I think that I worked on bills for a bit, then made dinner. Later Bob and I spend time together after Braden fell asleep.
Tuesday we had lunch at a local pizza place, which is also a customer of ours. I worked on bills some more, played Star Wars Galaxies a bit, then we went to Bob's parents' house for dinner. The highlight of Tuesday was it was the longest stretch Braden ever slept for that night. He slept for 6.5 hours straight!
Yesterday I slept late again. I took Braden to Wal Mart with me, then I did laundry at home. I tried going to sleep earlier, but I couldn't sleep. I just watched tv for a long time until I finally fell asleep. Braden slept 7 hours last night.
Today I went shopping with my MIL. First we ate lunch at the Olive Garden, then we went shopping at Kohl's. I got myself a bunch of clothing that was on clearance, and I got a few sleep n plays for Braden. I also got Braden a very cute Christmas outfit. After Kohl's I went to Babies R Us so I could nurse Braden in their Mother's Room while my MIL went to Costco. After Braden was done eating I did a bit of shopping. I bought Braden a $60 activity mat, a winter coat and mittens, and some more towels and washcloths. After that we went home. It is really windy here right now. It's pretty scary. I'm just chilling out now. We're going to go watch Friends, then a friend of Bob's going to come over to hang out with him. I'm really tired, so I'll probably be able to actually sleep tonight. Yippie!
That's about all that I have to report. I told ya my life isn't too exciting.
Well, I haven't been to good at this journal thing, have I? They days just seem to pass by so quickly since Braden's been here. Let's see, what's been going on in my life since November 13...
Well, November 16 was mine and Bob's 1 year anniversary. That year seemed to go by so quickly. I was pregnant for most of it. We went to see "Master and Commander", which was a really good movie, then we went out to eat at my favorite restaurant, the Outback. It was a fun night.
Since then it's pretty much been daily routine. Bob and I have gotten into playing Magic the Gathering again, so we've started buying cards once again. That's been fun, though it's probably not the most responsible way to spend our money. At least we have the money to waste, though. I'm so glad our financial situation, both personally and with the company, seems to be looking up right now.
Braden has slept between 8 and 9 hours the last 3 nights. It's been great. I really hope this is his new pattern.
Tomorrow we're having Thanksgiving at the IL's. It's all because my BIL's wife wants to have her parents at her house on Thanksgiving day, so the whole rest of the family rearranged their Thanksgiving. Now it turns out she's going out tomorrow, so she won't even be there. She really ticks me off. She's so insensitive to the fact that she may be hurting my MIL's feelings, yet everyone bends over backwards to keep her happy. I think I'm about done with that.
The good side, though, is we will get 2 Thanksgivings out of the deal. We have a friend of ours coming over on Thanksgiving day, and I will be cooking. So I guess I can't complain too much.
That's about it for now. Later!
Ok, so obviously I suck at keeping journals. I'm bored tonight, though, so here I go...
Hmm, what's going on in my life? Well, my baby is just being an angel. I love him to pieces. I can't believe how quickly he is getting so big. He was 7 pounds at birth, and is now 16 pounds. He's getting really heavy to hold. And it seems every day he is doing something new. I think he was purposely dropping his toys on the floor today. He would look up at me and dangle his arm over the side of his walker. I would say, "Don't drop that Braden," and then he would let go. It is just so cute.
Bob and I were going to see a movie tonight, since MIL was babysitting, but instead we decided to have dinner at the Olive Garden and then do some shopping. We're considering joining Costco. I'd really love to.
I guess after all this time there's really not much to report. I know, I'm still as boring as I always was. Maybe tomorrow I'll think of more to write about.