I understand why you need to leave. Know I will keep you and your family in my thoughts that your husband improves. You have a lot on your plate, taking care of an ill husband is especially hard when your so young. I am around your age, we don't expect to have to do the things your doing until at least retirement age! Your a strong person, even though the things you have had to deal with don't seem fair or understandable. Just because we know we can make it, doesn't mean we want to!
I know I do not know you, but I was just reading your journal. I'll keep you, your DH and family in my thoughts. Hang in there and take as much time as you need. I'm hear if you ever need someone to talk to. - Di
Sarah-Jean, it's hard getting use to a new baby and all of the changes but with your pain & everything else going on I can only imagine how much more difficult it is. Hang in there and do your best to set aside the time you need to keep yourself healthy (physically and emotionally) and enjoy your new little package.