which way do I go?????

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Joined: 01/27/03
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which way do I go?????

I don't know..... I feel lately as though I have been internalizing way too much maybe it's because my dh seems to get sick of hearing or just all together completely stops listening to things...... issues don't just go away in my life. I feel like he completely does not understad me because there is never a single issue inhis life. I guess I just need to make the point to write here daily if not more just to clense myslef of things. maybe it will help me somewhere along the road of life... I used to write about everything.... I often wish I still did I just need to some how get into a pattern..... how though why though........ Am I truely going where I want or am I doing what I think i should be? my opinion of this varies day to do it's all very confusing...... makes me feel unsettled all the time and thats not really a pleasent way to live....

Joined: 01/27/03
Posts: 3
weird places

I'm in such a weird space lately.... I have goals and dreams and soem days I waann drop them all and just be happy with what I have it's not that bad why do we need to aspire for more more more better better better....... why isn't what i have enough cause it makes me happy...... and one day I'm content the next I'm not....... All iwant is to have a family and that in itself is weird for me i never thought of myself as that person ...... but Iguess we chnage there are days when I still cna't see it and I wonder how I came to that conclusion only a day before......... will we always wonder if the direction we are going in is the right one...... if it is indeed what will make us happy.... becoming a nurse I will make more money be in a profession that i feel I belong in and be bale to give what i want to my children but isnt love enough....... what do I need to give them that a better income will give me? there are many thigns I know that..... freedom from stress more time to spend that qaulity time I know...I go round and round with myself here......... round and round i'll continue to go I guess.......

Joined: 01/27/03
Posts: 3
messed up world....

I don't know where I am...I feel confused but I feel like throwing my hand sup and sayign whatever... I could be pregant it's too early to knwo that would throw a wrench in my plans but I think it would make me happy...go figure.....I don't even know what to say but I want to write more oftne so i guess even when i say nothign it is better right?