I dropped Zoey off at daycare today. She was happy. She layed down and I layed next to her till she started to fall asleep. I said Mommy has to go to work. She said okay and gave me a kiss. The days where she screamed and threw a fit when I left were awful. I longed for the days where she would understand I had to go. Now those are here and they just don't really feel any better. I want to stay home. Ah someday I know.
Well I am home now and off to play with the kiddos.
OKay picked a new title. I think its self explanatory. ANd I thank god its true.
Working out some icky feelings right now. My best friend left to go over seas. It was bad enough only seeing him once in the last 4 mos now I wont even get to talk to him for mos. This sucks. Oh well A friend suggested I write in a journal to give hi when he comes abck so maybe I will do that. I got an email form him today the last one for a while. I am not used ot not being able to talk to him whenever. you don't always realize how much you need people till they aren't around.
Sometimes I wonder whats wrong with people and why they are oblivous. Being proud of something they should be terribly ashamed of. What comes aorund goes around.
I am always amazed at people. This is not a good thing.
Wow I can't believe its almost easter already. I think I have bought enough crap for the easter baskets fiunally. LOL I lvoe buying the kids stuff. I do it in small amounts here and there without realizing how much I bought till its time to make the basket or wrap the bday or xmas presents. Ah well
I screwed up big time today. What a dumb *** I can be. Brad had my checkbook one day so I grabbed a new pack of checks and used two of them. ONe was for the gas bill. UH DUH read the checks Dawn it was off the other account I just use for spending money and it was EMPTY> THey bounced my check to the gas co. Dman. The bank will reverse any charges and I will transfer the money but I bet the gas co charges me. LOL thats what I get for keeping a checking aco**** just because of the account number lol. Brad s going to tease me for a while for this one. My 1st bounced check. I feel so proud. I knew I should have had overdraft protection on that acount as well. teehee
AH to be young and irresponsible again. If only I could live my life and pretend my actions didn't affect or hurt other people. That must be nice. I should make sure and ask around hat thatmust be like.
Sometimes I just want to look at people and say are oyu for freaking real???? GET A LIFE
I am cold why is that?
Zoey keeps peeing her pants. ITs frustrating.
DH wanted to goout this weekend but we have no one to look after Zoey. We wil only leave her with my mom or a couple of my close friends. Or her day care teacher as they are so bonded. BUt no one can watch her this weekend. SO maybe next weekend.
OKay I changed the name again lol I like this one I think I will keep it a while
Bad stuff happened today.
I got to the daycare to drop off Zo this morning and the girl who opens came out witht he phone in her hand waving at me shaking her head. SHe looked freaked. I opened the door and she said DOn't get her out don't bring her in. I said whats wrong??? She said theres a man in here. HEs slepeing in the play room. OMG we were freaked out. HEr kids were hiding around the building where she sent them out a side door.
Well to make a LOOONG Story short, He was a VERY LARGE homeless mentally ill man who broke in and spent the night and ate some browinies and drank milk. They have it all on tape. HE came in Zoeys class. They arrested him and are going to use the tape to try to get him locked up for a while since hes not mentally well. IW as so freaked. This man was like 6 ft 5 and probably 400 pounds. I kept thinking what if Melody had woke him up and scared him and he attacked her or something with ehr kdis there. Iw ould have walked right in on it. Shes only been there for a few minutes when Ig ot there. The police got htere anbout 4 or 5 minutes after me. Anyway the cop took us around and showed us how easy it was to pop the outside doors open. IT was awful. So they changed ALL the locks today and are installig metal strike plates to keep anyone form picking the lock the way he did. I was very unnerved the entire day. I couldn't even eat until I picked up Zoey. I stayed for like an hour this morning with meoldy until someone else got here and she was a bit upset as well. I was late for work but they ere very understanding. That was nice for a change.
I feel like I need to figure out a way to work only when brad is home because I feel so awful about her being somewhere where I can't protect her. I feel like a bad mommy. I wanted so bad all day to be with ehr but i can't afford ot lose my job. I guess I will start looking for soemthing else.