Brad hurt my feelings and now hes watching tv and I am here pouting. Zoeys alseepin his lap he might be asleep as well. We need gorceries and I haven't veen thought about dinner its 7 minutes after 8. Wow what a great sunday night. LOL I guess i should make the first move
BUt first have to chat with alison
Brad clicked on an insta kiss thing on his email DORK he asked me what it was I said its spam dlete it Robin said its like an E card well he clicke don it I guess
Hes in violation of terms of service now LOLit was a password stealer and it sent out 999 emails fomr his name LMAO Luckily thats all it did I went and reste the passwords since we allhad the asme one. What a dork.
He called me when I was at walmart today afetr work and told me not to pick up Zoey he wanted to which is sort of weird that he would take itme out of work since he was still working. He normally would wait till he was done and see if I picked her up. Usually who ever gets doen first picks her up. Wonder why he did that?
IS it friday yet????
WOw I don't think I have posted for 3 or 4 days lol its a record. I spent the weekend at Alison's(strange cat) house. We had a WONDERFUL time. But its late now and I will post all about it later
Thanks for the great weekend guys. SPencer is so sweet
Can't wait to hang out with you all again.
WOW I am tired today and kind of crabby. Maybe let down after such a fun weekend?? Or maybe anxiety over leaving my job this week. I got the other job with my sister. I owe her now. I willbe working onmly when brad is home with Zoey and I willbehome all summer during the day with robin and Zoey and thats SOO awesome. Also I* will be go8ing back to school. I thought I knew what I wanted to do but now am not sure. I was tlaking with Dean and he gave me some good insight so we will see. I think for starters I will take general rt classes and just go from there.
Anyway while I am extra excited I am nervous as well.
Doing some thing new I have enver done before is scary. I also can't shake the feeling I ma stepping down somehow which is totally judgemental and stupid.
I was so excited to find Alison to be everything she seemed to be and so much more. I am so happy to have found such a good caring friend. Someone to trust and FINALLY someone like me. They are so much like uis in thier parenting skills its scary. I see exactly how brad was in the way dena is with Spencer. Its so awesome to see such a greta dad who obviously lives for his child and his wife. They are so happy. I wish they were closer. This si the very first time I have come across a a friend who had the same morals and parenting ideas as Brad and I do. The kids all loved alison and thought dean was awesome as well. We took our 13 yr old nephew with us too and he had a ball. He wore out the dogs though. LOL Spebncer was so sweet and loving. HE gave me lots of kisses and the biggest hug and sweetest kiss beofre we left. I made him a blanket and pillow and saturday night when they put him to bed he asked for his pillow. I fet good.
I can't believe how smart he is. Alison should really brag more. Anytime a barely turned 2 yr old can tell you what letter is what and talk like he does, he should be bragged on lol. I was totally blown away by how mu7ch he knew and how well he could speak. Zoey thought he was great and they had so much fun togehter. We spent alld ay sunday at the zoo and they were both tired near the end but so good becaus ethey were having so much fun.
Anthony and Robin were both dissapointed witht eh sharks at the shedd. I guess the expected 10 ft man eaters lol. I bet they are all babies and before the year is up they will be huge. We will check bakc on them many times.
We took lots of pics and I will get them developed tomorrow and hopefully post some as well
I will be wiorking both jobs this week. I stillhacven't decided to let them kjnow I am leaving or just leave. I know that sounds bad but theres valid reasons for doing os. So we will see. I still don't know when I am starting my new job so I am waiting on that beofre I decide exactly wat I am doing
Pam if your reading this I am going to start your pics otnight WOOHOOOOO
Not sure when I will have time to get back so hey everyone for a while lol
Forgot to add I came home last night and looked up the name artemis since I forgot to ask where you got it lol. I read she was the virginal goddess who ruled the wild animals and the forest they lived in. I bet your artemis is virginal as well LOL
Why are you so quiet sometimes
I keep feeling
LIke theres something you need to say
But it might just all be in my head
It just seems odd sometimes
And I want to ask
But I'm not sure how
Because it doesn't seem as it would do any good to know
And I keept hinking I don't make sense
That it wont mean anything
To anyone else really
If I say it out loud anyway
And no one else could understand
What I am trying to get at
And if they did
It would just hurt
Why bring up something so uncomfortable
With no feasible resolution
When it could just be
My wounded pride
Or my narsissistic nature taking hold
Of my sensibility
And I wonder how I can be so inane at times
Then I think it can't just be me
Because your not the same
And I guess thats to be expected
I guess I know
It would be impossible
To stay how it was before
But it doesn't change the loss I feel at times
The sinking feeling of a broken connecion
And I can't help but be sad
Having to give up one importnace for another
And not even realizing until this moment
Exactly what bothered me so much
And maybe my mind
Is just trying to find
This empty space
Where you used ot be
Just because your gone
And thats too easy to be it
It can't be that simple
All that I need
To hear your voice
Or regretting that I didn't reach out
When you were syaing goodbye
That I didn't hold you
For just that moment
Because it feels sticky sometimes
ANd I hate that I feel unsure
That I think maybe I should feel gilty
And that because I don't
I sort of do
That I'm not sure how to place you
Where oyu belong inmy life
Without anyone getting hurt
Its not really fair
And sometimes I wonder
If you feel it to
If you know
Exactly what i mean
And the fact that your not around at all
Just amplifies the feelings
Because instead of missing the things we gave up
I miss all of it
Instead of noticing what isn't there
All I see is theres nothing there at all
And I feel bad
And I wish it was easy
I wish you were here
Started at Chilis today and I loved it. Everyone was so nice and the energy there is so positive my manager joked around with me and is so sweet. I think I will def like it there.
Well I have to be back at my new job in a couple hours but am very excited. My sister will be there tonight so it should be fun. I am happy all the way around right now
I hope this lasts for a long time
Life is awesome right now
Its about 12 30 am I just got home form work.
I love this new job. I think I am getting the hang of it. I made a couple mistakes tonight nothing major. I think I can be good at this. People like me I am def a people person. I livke to joke and be silly. I know that doesn't usually come off right on the internet but in real life it works great. I helped my sister clear a shit load of tips tonight. I am happy.
I will get to ge tup with my dh and see him off to work. I will be home with my kids all day long and they will both be wqith thier dad at night so no dayacre or wondering what I will do with them when they are sick. Its such a ncie feeling
It also awesome to like so many people that I work with. Not like at the last job I am so excited this rocks. I geet to have fun make lots of money AND get to go back to school in the fall and get my degree.
Sometimes I feel bad for some of the poeple I read about ehre on this site. They seem so sad and I think it sucks. Its obvious that some people need sympathy and want everyone to know every detail of their problems but I can tell others don't bare much and its just obvious they are having pain by the tone of thier wording or what have you. I rememebr being sad and it sucks
I am very thankful for everything I have at this point and even though I worked very hard and have been through a lot of pain myself to get to this point in life, I am thankful and I feel very very lucky to be where I am now to be ablke to say my life is so wonderful.
I couldn't ask for more at this point.
I am knocking on wood and waiting for the world to fall LOL I am not I am just enjoying this as long as I can.
just wanted to show off my Izzy babay on my avatar. Her whole name is Isabella Rosselini. I just love the sound of thatr lol. SHe recently turned 6 yrs old and has been with me since she was a tiny scrawny sick kitten recovering form Pnuemonia afetr her mother was killed and she was left alone outside. She was 5 weeks when I took her home. Shes been my baby ever since.
Well its friday morning and no direct deposit form my old job for my last check. I am hoping its just because it went in late and will show up after 12. I do NOT want to drive all the way out there. I will be pissed.
The new job is going GREAT I love it so much. I am done with training after tonight. I was on my own last night with just a follower and she got to keep all the tips LOL I seem to be getting into the swing of things. I even got off in time to hang out with dh before bed last night so that was cool too.
He said he thinks this is working out very well. I think so too.
OKay guys wish me luck. Tonight is my first night on my own. I finished trainging and get to make my own tips tonight and I am extra excited WOOHOOO!!!!!! Watch me get crappy tips tonight lol
Tomorrow is brads 35 th bday. I am tyring to make him a ncie card. Hes leaving friday morning to go to his dds graduation. She worked so hard to get this hes oging to be there. Work is great I wish I had more time to do stuff but the days are spent playing with the kids and keeping house. Twice a weke we go have lunch with brad and thats fun. We are going tomorrow but I didn't . I bet he figures we will anyway lol
I will miss him so much the three days he'll be gone. Zoey is spending the night with my mom sat while I work and I will be all alone. sniff sniff
I am somewhat out of sorts today and a little sad. Dh is in seattle. HEs so very far away form me. Hes having a rough time. Things went wrong with a few parts of his trip but hes taking control now. It is after all friday the 13th. I blessed his trip so it better turn well! I miss him. I called him and he said his head hurt and I have been fighting a headache all day. I told him I took some exedrine so maybe it will work for him as well lol.
Took the kids and my sisters kids to see Nemo today. Zo got bored a little over half way through and started to cry for her blanket. I calmed her down to finish the movie though. What a cute movie though I didn't like what hapopened with Nemos mom. It made Zoey sad.
We went to dinner tuesday night and Zoey slept in my ap the whole time. I covered her up with my running jacket. When we went to leave I put my jacket on and picked her up. She started crying and cried all the way to target crying about her blanket. She was totally frekaing out. As soon as we pulled into target I realized what was wrong. She felt me pull the jacket off her and thought it was her blanket and was crying becasue she thought we left it there. Well I never travel without a blanket so I grabbed it out of the trunk and she was happy as could be. She thought we left it there and I felt so bad. Luckily shes not attached to anyone blanket. Anyone will do.
Robin finished the school year with straight As well actually he got a B in gym in the 2nd marking period. HE brought it up to an A+ and since hes not very athleticly inclined I wont hold a gym grade against him. HE was awarded best academic boy in the 4th grade. Hes so smart. DH and the kids came to CHilis last night since it was dhs bday and when they left robin stayed while I did my side work. A girl I work with was like HEs SO good. LOL I said yes he is he has good parents. HE hung out with some 18 yr old boys who work there who came in to eat and he had so much fun. He felt very grown up being there by himself while I worked. He said he wants to do it again sometime lol
I love my kids. I am so happy right now I could burst. This is so great to not have anything to worry obsessivley about. Not money not my job n not my love life not anything. Minor things yes but nothing to keep me awake at night. I earned this. I have been workign through so much crap that I deserve this. I no longer have to worry abbout bills sicne we are now keeping in $1000 a month we were putting out. Wethere that makes me selfish to be gald the child support is done or not I don't care. I am. Dh is. HE has taken care of his dd and now shes an adult. If she needs help we can actually finally do for her instead of ehr deadbeat family. She wants dh to buy her a scooter and he wants to and might while hes there but hes afraid what might happen to it when hes gone. He bought her a playstation a few years ago and her dead beat uncle sold it. I think she needs to get her license so he can buy her a car. Do they title scooters? Prob wouldn't matter, someone would prob steal it someone in her family. So anyway I think a car is better. mayeb he can gi8ve her mine NOT lol We are selling my car and I am getting a new toyota matrix. I am extra excited about that.
Well I guess I better finish up for now. The kids aren't exactly getting along. LOL Zoeys trying to hang with the big boys lol
Brad is home brad is home brad is home. Well not tech, hes at work right now but hes home fomr seattle
he had a rough trip
missed flights, his license expiresd and he didn't know and they wouldn't rent him a car. It was def friday the 13th lol But he made it to the graduation and all went well.
Dsd has lost 30 lbs lol thats funny it like we are all losing weight together. He brought her prom pic home she looked so pretty. I talked to ehr friday night and told her what a great job she did. I told ehr how hard she worked showed what kind of a preson she is and what shes capable of.
Of course her gma had to tell brad that the support officer called and told ehr the support stops now and she was pissed. She thought since T'Lyn was enrolled in college classes in the fall it would continue but thats not how it works. I told Brad now if T'Lyn needs soemthing we can help her and not support her gma. Her g ma sucks
I missed brad sooooo much while he was gone. I am so glad hes back and I am never letting him go away form me again.
I got a letter form Steve on sat. Hes doing well. I miss him and can't wait to see him. HOpefully he will be soming home soon. HEs been away for 6 mos and I I have seen him once in that time. Thats a long time to not hang out with my best friend.
Had an awesome night last night I love my new job I have the next couple days off though. I volunteered to take a shift wed though but couldn't find anyone who wanted to give thiers up lol.
Its funny most everyone at work when I started thought i was 20 years old or so. Some of the girls there are. Its funny how oyu don't realize how you act when your that young but when your odler you see how others act and your like omg I DID act immature. Its just obvious whos there to make extra cash and whos there to make a living/ All the girls are nice and I really liek them all but man Some of them are so young. LOL Thank God I am not 20 anymore
Life is stillwonderful Hopefully this never ends.
Took an extra shift tonight since i had three days off this week. I made some extra chas which is way cool.
Theres rioting in my home town which is about 45 minutes fomr home and 10 minutes form work. Its sad. Its a racial problme and it sucks. The town in prodominatley black. A police chase led to the death of the motorcycle driver who was black and being chased by white police men. If he was merely being chased becasue of his color then I sympathize. But its hard to say and hard to know and these folks are putting thier whoel town at risk and is it worth it??
Life is sad sometimes.
I wish everyone was the same color. I wish everyone could see eahc other like my wonderful DS Robin and his bf Andre. They are sitting here playing a video game. Andres spending the night. They are not the same color skinned. Neither of them gives a shit. Neither of them really notices. Andre's family is biracial. My son feels totally comfy with andres family and andres totally comfy with us. Andres mom is a doll and I can't wait to get to know her better. We are having pizza together firdayand going to the harry potter party at the books tore. Trenise and I discussed today how wonderful it is our boys enjoy each other and neither of them have an issue with race. I wish everyone acted like them
HOW much betetr a world we would be in
shessh second page again lol I better keep busy.
We had an awesome weekend. Went to the harry pottter release at B an N and had an awesome time friday. Dh stayed home since he had to work at 6 am sat morning. We went with Andre and his mom. And andres 5 yr old twin sistrs. Too cute. Zoey came too and it was quite an adventure. We didn't get home till 2 30 am.
I worked a lunch shift yetserday which sort of sucked money wise but was good cause I was home by 4 and we went to cook out at my brothers. It was ncie having a sunday afternoon with brad. I am off this sat so we are going to the beahc. That will be fun.
My biological father came into the resteraunt the other night. My sister has a relationship with him and was all pointing me out I was pissed. I haven't seen him in aorund 20 years and i was def not interested now. She said she didn't mean to make me uncomfortable but it did very much so. Hey wait maybe I already wrote about this? Well whatever lol Okay I checked and nope I didn't LOL. What a silly girl I am.
I put on some shorts and went out in public. No one commented on my pale skin lol. I glow in the dark. I am still losing weight and am down to 150. I was 145 whenb brad and I met so hes p[retty happy. Hes lopst 20 lbs and looks so good. With both of us feeling better EVERY aspect of our life is improving LOL We are also still sappy as ever. Next mondya is our 2 yr wedding nniversary. In a week or so will mark 5 years since we met. And we are happier now then ever.
Brad got a letter form WA saying the child support stops with the june 2003 payment. Its like a weight off of us financialy. DH said he finally feels like hes working to get paid and not to pay that. HEs excited about all the things he can do for his daughter now that he couldn't do when we had to support her whole frekaing family. Hes buying her a car when she gets her license. Oh yeah Gma said they didn't have the money for her to take drivers training when she was 16. Hmm I guess $500 a month isn't enough. Thats exactly what that money was supposed to be for. Oh well she can get her license now and Brad can buy her a car.
All for now I am off to have lunch with my sweetie pie!!!!
I miss steve. I am tired of hearing of the soldiers being killed and the dangers. I want him to come home. I have seen him once in 6 mos and this sucks. He betetr get his ass here or I am going to get him.
Got a letter form Steve today so I feel much betetr. Can't wait to see him
I had a stressful night at work last night but willmake up for it today
Life is good
we are going camping tomorrow see you all in a few days!!!!
Zoey has to go to riley hospital for her yes she might need surgery and I am scared. My poor girl.
Wish her luck everyone.
just wanted to test my new siggy
I don't believe you
Get out of my face
I don't need this
Get out of my way
Nothing you say
You know it will never be
Like it was
5 seconds ago
I can't believe you
Standing here like I owe you
All the while
I look at you
You'd would just
5 seconds ago
5 seconds ago
I thought you still loved me
5 seconds ago
I still believed
This shit you spew
5 seconds ago
5 seconds ago
I didn't know
Now that bitch
Has a name
5 seconds agoI felt safe
Is the same
5 seconds ago
Close your mouth
It doesn't matter now
You fucked up
Can't fix it
Theres no way how
I can't forget
I wont forgive
I will hate you now
As long as I live
5 seconds ago
You had a life
5 seconds ago
You had somewhere
To sleep tonight
5 seconds ago
5 seconds ago
I was okay
Now its all gone away
I can't believe
You acted this way
5 seconds ago
5 seconds ago
I didn't want to know
5 seconds ago
5 seconds ago
I feel verry sorry for you
A guy I used to have the hots for PRE-DH saw me today and said your all skinny. I said yeah it happens
I am a patholiogical liar now???
I think someone is jealous of me!!!!!
What am I lyeing about?? MY fabulous glamerous job as a saerver at a resteraunt?? I know those are so hard to get Imust be lying I bet I have never even benn to chilis OMG thats so funny. Well maybe those peopel in my family photos aren't us hmm is that it?? Am I lying about my palatial mansion of a 3 bedroom 1000 sq ft house?? wow did I make everyone jealous that I drive a car that is 13 yyears old???? Man I bet everyone is drolling now
Or maybe I lied about the 3 dogs and a cat??? Oh and I made up the frog too??
Trust me sweetheart with myimagination and intelligence if I was going to embellish I would have way more stuff to show for it.
You can't make me feel bad if thats what your trying to do You can follow me I think its fun to have a hanger on. LOL
Alison...YOU GO GIRL your all that and a bag of chips. ISn't life grand????
lol at my last post.
I don't have to work agfain till saturday WOOHOOO
I am making a roast for dinner tonight and baking some cookies today. My sister is bringing her kids over for a while so she can go to the dr. SO I have a busy day planned. My nephew cameron is 4 so he and ZOey have a good time together. They can play in the cute new pool we bought a couple weeks ago. Its 26 in deep and 8 ft across and it has a little pump and filter Its very cute./ The water comes up to Zoeys chest lol. Shrimpo like her mom.Cute like ehr too lol
I think tomorrow I will see if my mom can watch the kids so dh and I can go to a ncie dinner. Its been a while We didn't even go out for our anniversary last month because we were camping. So maybe.
well back to my regularly scheduled program. Have a picture thats ALMOST done to finish and mail off to someone special here at PO!!
Its late and we are havign an awesome time in chat. LOL
Crusing the boards but nothing too interesting.
Hmm well thats all I got
LOL we had a great day moving shit in the house. Getting stuff done
Dh went to bed he has to work in the am for a hile
the kids are playing in robins brand new room.
LIfe is awesome and I am smiling
well I worked my ass off tonight well okay its still tech there but man I am tired. I made some awesome money though. The other night a guy gave me a fat tip and said here put this in your college fund lol He thought I was YOUNG!!!WOOHOOO
29 days till it happens I am SO not ready for this
Its sad whenyou lose a friend and you don't know why. The reasons given are bs . Theres something more behind it that they don't want to say I guess. I did my best to find out. I have nothing to feel guilty for or regret. But still it makes me sad. Ah well life what can you do.
Now I believe I am down to duhdudhduhduhduh 28 days WOW!!!!
I had soem minor probs at work tonight. Nothing too major but it frustrated me some. I called Brad and he was so sweet. He asked if I wanted him to wait up for me and I was like no it will be one am before I am home. He said I will wait if oyu want. How sweet HE has to be at work by 7 and its a 30 mintue drive. I told him no but I would kiss him when I got home. And then he said no matter what remeber I love you and so does RObin and Zoey. Hes such a sweetie pie. He worries about me all the time. Wants to make sure I like my job and that my caris okay. He and I are totally perfect togehter and it makes me so happy to know I have found my soul mate. I watch people I know in bad relationships that stay amd claim its not that bad or that they worked it out. Its obvious that it is that bad. Why does she saty with someone who is less the respectful She should be with someone who cares about her. Anyman whoo EVER disrespects the woman he supposedly loves EVER is pathetic. I have no respect for men like that. She gives and gives and gives then he tears it all up and tries to make it her fault. God she could do much better. I woudl never settle for less then everything from my husband I wish I could convince her to do the same.
Found this in the closet
Its dated 10 27 97 so a year before I met dh.
The light is only visible
If you open your eyes
ANd tenderness is only recognized
If it can be felt
And emptiness is so comfortably consumed
And bitterness engulfed
Because pain is so effortlessly counted on
And its easy to stumble
And hard to be educated
These demons do not survive
unless they are fed
And this anger, as its consumed
Grows only in the heart of emptiness
Where there is room
And accepting a devotion
Takes away that fufliment of resentment
Leaving only vulnerability
And an openess to the inevitable pain
And fear is the greatest motivation
To stay closed
Because tears are not expected
And they are definatley not accepted
And this you consider to be strong
But being this safe
Only because you are closed
Means you must be empty and alone
And in an effort to feel okay
You feel nothing
So all love is rejected
And anyone who offers too much
Is given up
And the walls stay standing
And your heart is still untouched
And a desire to be wanted
To be loved
But by you
This act goes unrecognized
Because you are blind
Because the light is only visible
If you open your eyes.
heres another withno date
I wont Cry
So hurt and angry
My heart aches to release this
But I will not cry
So desperate and angry
I feel so sad inside
But I just wont cry
I wont cry because I am alone
I wont cry because I am not loved
I wont cry
Now that hes gone
I wont cry
Trying to move on
And I wont cry because it hurts
I just wont cry
Back here again
Its always the same in the end
But I wont cry
Open to this
I set myself up again
Inevitably pain has found me once more
But I swear I wont cry
I wont cry because its too hard
I wont cry because I failed again
I wont cry when I am left
I wont cry when he walks away
I wont cry just because I need to
I just wont cry
And it hurts and it seems so useless
And I get so mad
But I swear I wont
I just wont cry
Zoey stood in line with some other children today and helped hold up a boa constrictor. She is so awesome!! I touched it too Very cool.
I think the frog is going to die. Then I am going to cry
So its late again and Here i am lol
Wonder why I am so tired alot???LMAO having fun with Kath on the basher baord and YIM
ACCCK its late and here I am again. LOL dh came to see me at work tonight. HE stayed till I got done then we went and got a burger. We came home and he started to watch tv while I took a bath and of course he fell asleep before I got done lol
Hes so sweet. When I was cleaning up my seciton at work he said HEy you ever kiss the patrons and I said no but I will make an exception and he gave me the sweetest kiss. I fall more in love with him every day
ON another note, dh hates my hair lol. I told him lots of people said it looks great but ehs not going for it. HE said please fix it lol. Luckily I am not that hot about it so I am going to chunk it dark brown and see how I like it then. Also then I wont have to worry about the roots since my nat hair color is so dark. I knew I wouldn't stay light long simply for that reason. I guess 3 days is enough I will prob fix it tomorrow night.
Robin is spendig the wekeend with his grnadma down in IN and I miss him. HE have gotten to spend so much time together lately. Thast the best part of my new job. I will be working less when school starts though so we have more nights together. ALso this year I get to be a room mohter and go on field trips and stuff. It will be awesome I can't beleive my little guy is going in the 5th grade.
ZOey goes to the dr on monday to talk about ehr seperation anxiety and some phobic behaviour shes been experiencing. I don't like to talk about it much but its a hard hting for us at times. I am hoping shes okay but shes been having panic attack type behaviour in public places. Dh thinks its an attn getter so hopefully shes just manipluating I can't imagin her having these sort of problems this early. Wish her luck everyone
wow I am on page 2 lol its been a few days
the rafters are broken
only two weeks left to go man this sucks
its late and I am home form work eating dinner
a triple play yummy
I had a crappy dream last night that brad and I were fighting and he left and went to a bar. HE called me form the bar and wouldn't come home. IT was awful I woke up feeling sick to my stomach. I told him about it today and he laughed. I said lets never do that.
I hear from peoplle the shit they go through with their bf or dh and I think man I could not deal with that. But I did I used to I mean. I dealt with all kinds of crap and didn't even realize how good a ncie healthy relationship would be. NOw I do and i am so happy I can't believe it smetimes
Zoey met ehr counsler today and she took to ehr right away. She said this could just be a phase Man I hope so. She also said that Zoeys intelligence working against her immautre emotions could be to blame. Liek she picks up more facts and things then other kids her age and understands them when shes not emotioanlly ready to handle them. BUt shes doing better. She walked a block and a hlaf with robin and andre and the twins today to go the andres house and play with the twins. Brad went to pick her up later and she didn't want to go so he let her stay. She stayed for over 3 hours before she started to want her daddy. Shes my big girlk. ( I secretly followed them in the car when they walked there and then called to make sure everyone got in okay lol)
Take my hand
I will never leave you
Life is hard
And always unsure
But I know
I will never leave you
You can be strong
You can be brave
Its breaking me
To see you this way
PLease don't cry
Don't be afriad
Should never be
I'm searching my soul
For ways to make you whole
To make you sure
Looking inside myself
Did I do this to you
Trying too hard
To hold on
Did I make it so you can't let go
PLease don't be afraid
I'll keep you safe
I promise you
You will never be alone
I promise you
I will never leave you.
Just testing something
got into an accident today wiht a semi truck pulling a flatbed. The kids are fine and I am sore and beat up and burnt. I will post some pics of the car tomorrow
okay so I wreck my car and break my cell phone. what does brad do?? he gives me his car and his cell phone. Then he tookme tonight and I bought a new phone and we found a car. Hes trding in his suv so I can have a new car. I don't think theres a better man in the world
wowbeen almost a week since I wrote in ehre
Steve called me yesterday!! It was great I haven't talked to him since april. I miss him and can't wait till he comes home!!
Brad is taking me to the auction tonight to hopefully pick out a car. We decided against buying anything new and having another payment. He will find me something nice and make it even betetr. After ak that $3000 i got form my celica came form us paying only 200 for it so its all cool
Work is going great I am making awesome money and still love it. I have today and tomorrow off so I have to take Robin shopping for school clothes. HE starst next monday. WOw 5th grade I can't beleive how old he is!!!!
Zoey is improiving every day and becoming stronger and more secure! She rocks. She is walking through stores without holding on to anyone now so thats wonderful.
Sometimes I can't beleive the stuff that is allowed to go on on these baords. I guess its okay to be hateful and spew forth negativity. It shouldn't be. People should hold themselves to a higher standard. While management must get to the point where they are like shoudl we or shouldn't we, we as individuals should have mroe respect for ourselves and the toher members to stop this childishness.
driving home tonight I was thinking about Brad.
HE worked all day then came home and installed my stereo in my new car. Its broken. He came and brought Zoey to have dinenr with me ( i work 30 mintues form home) and then took my car back I am sure to try to fix the stereo. HEs so wonderful adn does everythign in the world for me. HEs always bending over backwards to make me happy and telling me how much he loves me and how pretty I am He does the sweetest things like saving our new kitty form the pound. Hes such a wonderful and special person. He does so much around the hosue. All the outside worka nd lots of the inside. Hes silly and funny. HE never yells at me or calls me names. Hes gentle and sweet. Hes sensitive. HEs strong and protective. HE thnks I am wonderful. Hes the most wonderful person I ever met. And he loves me. ANd I could NEVER live without him.
I got a new bf today HEs Mr Wonderful. HEs a cute lttle doll who says things men never say like honey you take the remote I don't care what we watch as long as we are together, LMAO!!! HEs way too cute
OH my gosh thats the funniest thing I have seenin a LOOOONNNGGGG time. I guess it wasn't just allme now was it?? Everyone is finally seeing the light. BAHAHHHAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHA
Edited to add it seems funny to me that whenver you come out looking like an asshole which is often you always try to make it seem like the other person was attcking you or trying to hurt you in some way Why don't you just stop acting this way and maybe you could avoid the whole mess
OKAy back to real life
I am goign to have lunch with heathr today that will be fun. DH brough home a car last night and hopefully everything works out for the payments and he gets it. HEs in lvoe with it. Its a VW passattt. I think he just wants to match me and my jetta. Anyway its the one on the commercial where the guy gets all excited and goes to get his wife to show her puttin the key in rolls allthe windows down. LMAO he actually took my nephew outside last night to show him that. ITs nice though and they are askign trade in price for it so thats cool. BUt if the payments og over x amount he wont get it and then he will be sad so heres crossing my fingers!!!!
Also edited to add happy 100th journal entry to me!