man what a weekend
Had lunch with heather friday and fgelt terrible as it was not so great since dh was calling me every 5 seconds about the car he bought. I didn't want im buyng it but in the end he did. HE got a great deal but he haws to pay taxes when he registers it since he bought it i IN and we live in MI they didn't want to roll the taxes in. So its something like 900$ Ugh On top of the deductable I have to coem up with to fix my roof. And of course all our other bbills for the month. SO sunday I worked a double shift as a favor to my boss. I ended up being on for 12.5 hours. I was so dead. I didn't erealize till I woke up monday morning that I was coming down with a sinus cold or infection SO I had to go back last ngith and close. I am sooooo sick. I closed last night and the best part was we all had a margarita after closing. I had strawberry YUMMY So I got home and my sinuses burned so bad I was up till 4 am and then at 5 dh got up I had barely slept. Everytime I fell asleep I dreamt I needed to wait on tables lol SO he woke me up at 6 and I had to follow him to drop his car off at the dealer so they can fix a few minor problems with it today. Then I had to drive him to work. Its now a bit after 8 and I am debating going back to sleep. Which of course Zoey did on the way home. Robin is with Dan today so ehs taking him to school. I am hungry so maybe I will have some cereal and then go back to bed. I don't know though I am waiting for alison to get on but shes not aorund Hmmm wonder why????
SO dh bought a 99 passat LOL Exact same color as my jetta. We have matching cars now how funny
I guess we are a VW family
I almost forgot after work sat dh and I went out!!! it was so fun. Zoey spent the night with ehr best friends and we went to hear brad's friend's band play Then we went to dennys. So sat I only got about 4 or 5 hours of sleep before that 12 hour shift on sunday Gee wonder why I am sick LOL IT was fun to go out with brad and we went for a long drive and just acted silly and sang along wiht a cd made for him. NOw that we don't have quite as much time together we make sure to enjoy every bit.
Have I said lately how freaking wonderful my husband is????? SOme chick he works with told him she wished he was her dh HMM I might have to put the smack down on her.
Went to have lunch with brad today. I still feel yucky with this sinus cold btu felt I betetr get out of the hosue ro I would lay around all day. I have today off which is great!!! I think we will cook out tonight. I also have sat off which is awesome. Brad and I have had exactly one day off together since i started chilis in may so this is way cool
We take Zoey to see the pediatric specialist monday for ehr eye. I am thinking she will need surgery so everyone cross your fingers for ehr. Her yee is sooo bad.
OKay now for some real life stuff
Zoeys eyes are okay its just the stress of having bad vision I will write mroe tomorrow
BTW Zoey starts preschool tomorrow
I haven't had any time to write or post so i will catch up in the am
Love calls me now
OKay Zoey started school today she was happy as can be to go!! That was awesome!
well something interesting happened today. Its good and I will get to talk to someone about it. I just am really sad it took this long to get htere
MY car is def going to need some work so money will be tighter for a while. But I have brad and he always seesm to come through when things are rough
Well well well MY car is not going to cost anything. Its not broken like brad thought He cnahged the belt and its all better woohoo he deserves a big fat wet kiss and hes gonna get it!!! We have a sex date for friday lol
what a relief I was beginning to stress!!!!
He has bene very sweet letting me drive hi brand new car. I don't liek it though it feels like a tank. LOL its just a passat a midsize sedan but it feels huge. I like small small he wanted a mini van but I begged lol. I don't want to be a soccer mom Oh wait I am!!!
I just wanted to share somethign about robin. Tuesday he had a field trip he wanted me to go on. I was planning on it. Then the preschool called and said they could star Zoey on tuesday and it was the first class of the year ( we were on a waiting list) So I told him and he got sad and quiet( we were on the phone) and then I said I'm sorry are you sad???? He said yeah and then said O its okay you go with Zoey. Is aid are you mad at me and he said no mom its okay Zoey needs oyu to be there for her first day of school. You can come to the next trip. I almost cried. I told him your such a good buy I lvoe you!!! My son rocks.
After everything that was said about my son and how I feel about him all I can say is fuck off because hes the greatest little boy ever and I love him more than anythign in the world. Hes my baby now and forever. to say anythign just proves jealousy
Gosh I am just so happy I could pee myself lol
I am in such a good mood
I wish brad was awake!!!
Well we have a couple hours together tomorrow before work. I miss my man!
Nadine, you rock sweetie and I wish I had the answers for oyu!! HAng in there things have a way of working out! YOu are so sweet and kind and life owes yu so much mroe then your getting right now and karma has a way of working itself out!
I just noticed its sep 11th now
Wow what a day.
I miss Steve. All this shit took my best friend away from me and all I can say is I thank the gods and goddesses that he wasn't taken away forever. And I pray and hope every day for his safety. Its so intangible that hes in Iraq. I can't even imagine what i will do without my best friend. I haven't seen him in mos and I can't even think what it would be like to never see him again. I know in my heart someone is watching over him to bring him home safe where hes needed. My life would never be the same if Ilost him.
just found these on a disk
3 am I need sleep lol
I dorve my car today yay!!! I am so happy it was all better. Brad rocks
I get off work early tomorrow which is SOO exciting We will have time toghetre!!!!!!!
IS it monday already??
I got up with brad this monring. I know he apreciates that and I wanted to get my day started. I am having breakfast with my mom today and then going to pick out some new glasses for Zoey. We got ehr hair cut short saturday and its sooo cute. I will hopefully have a pic to post today.
We are going to see bears show on wed. Front row center and we are so excited!!!
UM guess who was chili head of the month for august
LOL I rock!
OKay so no one congrats me on being chili head of the month. Whatever I know someone is reading my journal oyu big fat skanks cause the numbers keep going up so screw you all for not taking the time to type a general thread post to me Go to heck all of you!!
OKAy so I posted about the trip to se ebar on the anything baord with pics!! We had a blast. And other then that nto much to talk about right now and I don't feel like going on about minor details!
SO have a ncie night everyone MAAHHHAWWW!!!
see next post
In respect and lvoe for you Chels this is all gone and behind us now. You've beeen a good friend to me and those words should have never existed and they are all gone now.
dang it that emote didn't work lol
Having a hard day. I can pinpoint a few little things bothering me but nothing too major. These mood swings are becomine to large and frequent. Maybe its time to talk to someone about it. Maybe I should make cookies.
OKay its so good sometimes to find out truths later JUst wish I would have had the proof before.
Heres to starting anew and not letting petty things get to me
My life is wonderful and I don't need such garbage
I do feel sorry for those who are that sad though
Took Zoey to school today. Everyday the teacher puts their name tag on the tab;e and as theycome in they have to find it and put it in the basket So Zoey is puttinghers in and I see one that says Robbyn. So I say Zoey whats this one say and she looks and says Robin! I was so proud. Her teacher was way impressed. It wasn't even spelled the same but she knew it!! MY little girl rocks!! I bet shes reading her smalll books before she turns 4 in dec. Robin was readng around 4 yrs old too but not quite this early. I remember one time we were at hacienda Robin was about 5. HE said mom I can count to 100 I saidf oyu can? and he said yeah ONe tow skip a few 99 100 LMAO BRad about died. We made him tell the waitress.
WOrk was fun. I closed with Sonya and shes pretty cool. We have alot of fun at work. Its ice to have a place to work that you don't hate going to. Sonya hated work for a while but now I think she has fun cause I am there!!!!!
Steve sent me an email he wont be home till next year. I cried all the way to work monday. I am having a hard time witht hings right now but I know this will pass. Brad i being so sweet about it all. He showed up at chilis last night to suprise me. Itw as wonderful We were slow so i got to hang out and talk to him alot. Friday we are going out alone
I feel good today We are going to have lunch in a bit with brad. Then we have th whole rest of the day for whatever. I will make cookies and a ncie big dinenr I think!!!!
nice ot have po back. thats all I will say I am so not like these "other" ladies all addicted and shit LMAO
dewey heres some love for you right now!!!!
and um like its so cool cause I like got to be like this way cool kid liek havign like oh my god all this fun and like wow remind oyu of anything???
okay so life is life and I am way excited cause Steve will be here dec 5th through the 22 and I can't wait to se ehim!!!!!!! we will have so much fun!!!!
people are messed up
Sounds like you know who is cookie Hmm sounds suspicious admit it fess up
why do people gotta sporead mean and nasty hate?? Life is so great.. *If yourso god damn fraking unhappy go do some fucking thing about it. God stop spewing shit and acting like everyone esle is miserable when its really only you so stop sprreading your hate no one xccares
whew I fele better
DISCLAIMER this was a geeneric post not directed towrard anyone indivudual
Umokay like yeah and stuff
Edited to take out the name calling so no ones feelings will be hurt just left in the truth
I had to edit this one too lol
it was barely even coherent. I would say I was drinkign but someone might call me a bad mother
WOW I had fun last ngiht lol
Back to real life
SOnyas coming over today She wants to see my jeny debut LOL she will laugh er ass off. I told er I would make her some lunch. I think i know what I will make!!!
okay had a great day and a wonderful night at work. life is sweet.
I made good money tonight
Tomorrow I am off and dh is taking me to get my ear pierced.
If we get to actually do it I will take pics and post tomroorw wish me luck
OKay I edited my journal so no one gets a stick up thiers aboutit . LOL I have a open mouth or should I say fingers when I have those margaritas lol
I am off today woohooo!!!
Okay still no ear barbell lol if not by next week my bf Karen will be here and she will go with me. Work was good made some cash We got slammed and I got a bit stressed but all in all not too bad. Still don't hate going there still look forward to work lol Such a good thing
Hmm My journla gets a few hits every so often well alot actually I wonder whos reading?? Who lvoes me?? Or who hates me and wishes they were me lol
LOL life is so great!
wow almost the bottom of the second page.
Everyone seems to be wanting prvate journals. WOnder why that is? I noticed theres a long list of them now. I don't mind anyone reading.
OKay so like I posted on the anythign baord Brad brought me roses thursday it was awesome. HEs so thoughtful. ONe of the younger girls at work said can i be you and have your family? ZOey brought the roses in and all the girls went nuts. They were as big as her head. Eveyrone was like what are those fgor Did brad do something worng for your anniversary ?? I said nope hes just sweet like that.
I ran into an old high school firned on friday which was strange since we hadn't seen each other in 8 years. The strange part is I had found his name on a website for a cath9olic school her ein MI and sent an email to the admin there to find out if it was him. We had been frineds since 7th grade but ost touch. LOw and be hodl I run into him at the liquor store buying margarita stuff lol. First thing he did was look at my hand and check for a ring. I think he was dissapointed. LOL I was like cool.LOL I had the biggest crush on him all through high school. But it was nice seeing him and he said he woul demail me so thats cool. It does however prove I am pshycic. LOL
the construstion co cmae to start the roof today. They are up there banging aorund. In a few days I will have anew roof WOOHOOOO
NO on to the other widows and siding. LOL we replaced one window so far. So about 15 more to go lol
have tomorrow and wed off so thats cool
LIfe is still great!!!
everyone s talking
you can t hear anything
looking for quiet
do you wonder what it looks like
i will hold your hand
while you cry
i wont tell you its okay
or ask you why
cause i know sometimes
its just so damn hard
and its not fair
and the tears are so needed
such a welcomed avenue
in a world lost of emotion
you have a friend
sometimes we need nothing more
then just to feel
just to hurt
i will hold you
so you don't fall
because i love you
and you hold a value to me
i wont question your sincereity
or lack of emotion
or abundance of it
i wont dwell on things that weren't said
or choices that were regretted
nothing matters now
only that i am here
standing next to you
you need me to
Sometimes I forget how he touched me
And I have a hard time remembering the way he smelled
And then I fall asleep
And am hit all over again
And wonder how I keep living through this hell
And if it will ever end
Every imprint his hand made into my flesh
Is seared, burned with his image
But empty and void of love
Crazy with selfishness
Abundant of everything he was empty of
Like hope and faith
And every bit of vagueness he passed on to me
The graveness I now hold dear
As a warning
A reminder of what I can never be safe from
Of all the things that can never be undone
The pain I will never forget
No matter how much I am loved
Or how safe I feel
Becasue the sickness is still there
Still behind me somewhere
Making me fear
For all that I actually do have here
For me and everyone who loves me
And its just not fair
well its been a while since I wrote here.
SO not much new here Zoey is being a handful lately. Shes really doing a number on her dad lol. I told him shes testing her limits. We will get past this positivley like we do everything else.
I should probably stay ou t of the spanking and cio debates. I know how strongly I feel on these thigns and it bugs me when people say stupid shit about how they have to spank thier kids whatever. NO oen ever needs to be spanked. I don't lilke toget hit I bet my kids don't eiher and they never will.
Brad is looking to find another line of work. Somehting mroe fufilling and I stand behind him 100%. I just want him to be happy.
I am off work tomorrow.We are havignlunch with brad in the morning and then going to do some work around here. They are supposed ot finish up our roof these next few days so that willbe cool. Well they will probably be here bright and early in the am so I am off to bed.
I like my new siggy! Robin looks awesome. HEs getting so tall. HEs 5 ft now. Two more inches and he will eb taller then me UGH HEs only ten. LOL
Got a cll fomr Steve on sat. NIce too since I hear dbaout another black hawk going down on friday. I t was good to hear his voice. HE will be here in about 4 weeks and I am looking so forward to it!
I am going to give him a great big hug!
LIfe is going well as always. I am still sometimes in awe that I am so happy now. I see so many people claim to be happy when its so obvious they are trying to make up for somehthng they are lacking. I think mostly people lack respect for eahc other. I think when thats missing in a relationship there is no way to succeed. I have beeen accusedbefore of lying about how goodmy marriage is. WHy anyone would do that seesm stupid and aritificial to me. I pride myself on being honest. I have spent so many years of being in bad relationships that I would never subject myself to any of that again.
UGH I am up much to much tooo late!!
I was just posting a pic of brad and I was looking at him thinking WOW that guy is cute!! LOL what a hottie!!! I wish he didn't have to work in the AM I would go wake him up! GRRRRRRRR
I made a shit load of money tonight which is nice since I have a couple days off now! Work is still great. I won 2nd place in the costume contest for halloween. If I remember it I will upload the pic tomorrow and post it. I was a vampire. Anyway we won dinner for two at a ncie resteraunt. Noprice limits just doesn't cover cocktails which is fine. So we can take the kdis and only pay for them ROCK ON!!!!
Brad had to go to the dr today he has tendenitis(SP) in his arm. Its sore now which sucks cause we have a mojor project going that he needs to be physical with. Right now hes building a dog house then we have to get our woodshop set up to start building xmas crapLOL
I started giving out the invites to Zoeys bday party today. They are so cute they have a box of crayons inside the invitation. The whole party is themed crayons. We have crayon mugs and crayon gum and crayon pic frmaes as a pary favor. Giant crayon bank decorations cryaon decorations for the walls, crayon candles, crayon string lights, wow the list goes on!!!! LOL shes way excited.We are giving her a frog for a gift adn Ia m not sure what else at this point. A real frog that is Maybe a pair. SOmeone tipped me out to a white tree frog so I will def have to check that out.
Robin got his report card and got all As!! YAY will have to def do somehting nice for him now. HEs such a greta kid!!! We are going to a craft night at his school on dec 5th Its called north pole night and we get to nmake all kinds of stuff. I took the night off work to take him We will have a greta time!
WellI am so off to bed now!
GOt an email fomr Steve today. Only 3 more weeks and he will be here!! WOOHOO ZOey will also be 4 3 weeks from today. IS it possible??? UGH
Brad came home early today and we went shopping for the kids for xmas. We didn't buy anythign but we had a nice lunch and had a wonderful time!
I taked to Rhonda the toher day. First time I talked ot her in real life. She seems very nice. And she is so patient with her boys. Also i called DD today and talked to her for only a couple minutes. She very ncie as well!!!! I def will have to call them both back!
OPKay tweo weeks till steve will eb ehre I am so freaking excited. Also two weeks till Zoeys bday party. I am so glad steve can come!!
ugh why am I up at 630?? LOL I woke up about 530 and noticed dh was still asleep. HE has to be at work at 6. He forgot to set his alarm last night UGH! ANdway its a 20 minute drive so i bet he mad eit on time! I think I will go back to bed since i have to work late tonight. I just thought I would check up on the boards and let everyone know i Was still around! So hi everyone! I miss you all!!!
Zoey will be 4 tomorrow. It makes me a bit sad. Shes no longer a toddler and I never get to go back there.
We had Zoeys bday party today and gave her her tree forg. She thinks its her dwarf frogs mommy lol. She loves him though. Or maybe its a her!!!! ANyway I am tired since we staye dup late and got up early to have it all ready!! Now I have ot go help brad pick up the mes. HEs callign me to spend time with him lol. Rare that I take a saturday off!!!The kdis want to go to their friends house so we might get to be alone and cuddle!!!! Woohoo
Steve is home here in town and safe!!!! HE will be ehre till the 22nd. HE called yesterday and Ic an't wait to see him!!!!!
Why am I up so early?? Sheesh. DH woke me up because he couldn't find where I put his keys.
Steve came over last night adn we went to chilis to eat. BEtween brad and steve they had about 9 23 oz beers and a couple shots. Both were pretty toasted. Steve especially. His alcohol tolerance is not what it used to be after being in Iraq for 9 mos. LOL. Anyway I drove home obviously lol. THen they had another beer when we got here. STeve started to feel the effects of the quervo shot they had lmao. HE was falling asleep so I got him a pillow and blanket and he crashed on the couch. He just left when BRad did. He said he was thirsty so i offered him something but he said he had an overwhelming urge to brush his teeth LOL
Its nice to have him home. HEs been telling us what its like over there. I wish he didn't have to go back. Saturday his mom is making a big turkey dinner for all his friends and then we are all going out o the town. Zoey is going to spend the night with her friends. I always feel sad when she goes but its nice to have time alone with BRad.
IS it really only two weeks till xmas?
WOW its been a long time since I have written here.
LIfe has been a bit hard lately. Its not one thing I can pinpoint. I have horrible seasonal depression and i am sure that has a lot to do with it. Also my medical problem makes the cold so hard to take. SO I have been trying to stay up beat.
After xmas we went away for a week. The trip itself sucked (north dakota) but it was nice to spend time with brad and the kids. Brad and I don't get much time together anymore working opposite shifts. BUt its all worthit I know. Eye on the prize.
Steves visit here was great and now I am looking forward ot his oprders ending in april. It will be nice to have him home. He wants me to help him find a house when he gets back so that will be fun for us.
My sister is pregnanat and due in march and doing well. She nad I are close and we work together. That has really brought us closer. Thsi will be her4th child WOW. Shes only one year older then me lol. Her son is 14 and her daughter almost 12 and other son 5. Thsi on ie supposed to be a girl. We'll see lol. My mom and I are throwing her a baby shower sunday since she wasn't planning on having more kids she has nothing for the baby. It will be nice as my sister Diane form Iowa will be here. They moved to iowa about 6 years ago and are in the process of selling thier house and moving back.
Brad and I hit a few VERY hard weeks financaiily and are just coming out of it and doing much much better. Its nice to have that wait lifted. I am going to cut back one day a weke at work to help relive some stress as well. I started excercising to boost up my energy and thats helping. I am soaking up the sun whenever its around too!
Zoey is beggining to read and helpig her is so fun. She tries to read everything! I can't believe how fast shes picking it all up. We are going through papaer and work books like crazy. Without help she is reading books with simple 3 and 4 letetr words that are geared for kindergarteners. I am so proud of her
Robin is growing so big! HEs almost as tall as me. He will be 11 in about a month. We are throwing him a big party and in indoor playland. They have laser tag and mini golf. HEs very excited.
My web sits ie almost done. I have also been asked to do a small gallery show so I am trying top get some things done for that. I am a bit nrevous. Hopefully it goes well and who knows maybe I will sell one of my paintings!
Well not too much new here. Feeling betetr lately though. I will be seeing the dr soon. I might have a problme with my thyroid which could be causing the depression and fatigue. I managed to get the house all clean yesterday but some peopel wrecked it again LOL. DH is off work today and just went to the store to get me some soda! WOOHOOO HE rocks.
Today is friday and every friday I ride into work wit my sister and I only work till 9 and then brad picks me up and we all have diner together. Its very nice. I looke forward to it.Excpt my sister called off last night she wasn't feelign well. Shes pregnant and due march 13 and was having back pain so not sure she will work tonight at all.
Zoey took this pic of me with my new hair new hair do. Think I will post it here!
Rode into work with my sister tongiht and brad picked me up. Brad Zoey and I had dinner with my frined Nicole and ehr new bf Steve and Reyna joined us when she got off work. Reyna is helping me to throw a baby shower for my sister next month for all the girls at work. Then my sister is leaving work for good. She will be staying home doing daycare .I guess the managers at work talked about making me a trainer. I think I would be good at it since I try to go by the book at work. So anyway that would be a promotion of some sort. We'll see!
Tomorrow I gave up my shift and dh and I are going out to see his friends band play. I love going out with dh. He always looks so nice. I see hte girls chekc him out.ONe night a young girl was flirting with him when he went to get out drinks. I feel proud to be with him. I am lookign forward to a night alone.ALL NIGHT!! WOOHOOOOO
I guess someone like s me alot today!
Went out tonight to see a band http://www.sickface.com/ Brads friend jay is the guitar player. I am a bit tipsy lol. I wanted a sickface sticker for my car but jay gave me a pick instead lol. We had a good time. When we got home some rotten drunk ass kids were in front of our house and the dogs went nuts. Dh liek a dufus goes out there. I got mad casue there are 3 teenage full grown guys. Does he think none of these punks carry guns or knives? UGH hes downstairs mad right now cause I yelled at him. What is it with men????????
UGH I smell like smoke!