Hello, my name is Brooke .. put me in the middle!
So I get to work today, and my chef is all crappy, bad mood, and an attitude to match, so i say ok let's hear it .. what is going on?
His reply .. grumble grumble Christen .. grumble grumble Fort Wayne guy.
Seriously? YOU control your level of happiness, YOU make your choices! Gosh!
So Christen shows up, and I tell her .. Nick is :violent2: at you right now. She wants to know why, so I told her .. FORT WAYNE GUY!
History here, Christen was my bar tender .. oh btw I'm putting myself through college working at a 5 star restaurant ..
Anywho .. This battle has been going on for what feels like 500 years .. Nick is in love with Christen, Christen just wants action when she can't find it anywhere else. I love both of these people, they are like family to me
And back to the story ..
Christen in turn gets :violent2: at Nick, he is not her boy friend, and he has no right getting angry, and now she wants to talk to him RIGHT NOW!
I tell him and he says he is busy, so there I am with Christen, and she wants to know why he is mad about this, why could this possibly matter ...
I tell her .. umm he wants to be with you duh!
She sends me in with a message, he sends me out with a message .. and it goes back and forth and FINALLY I say guys I have things to do, you guys talk you guys deal with this! Nothing stated is unknown to either party, nor to ANYONE around them!
Christen yells at Nick, and Nick yells AT ME!
At no point did i say to either of them this "we aren't together but we're doin it" was a good idea, infact I told both of them it was a BAD IDEA! Now here I am stuck in the middle, and I'm not knockin boots with either of them!
Stop killing the messenger people! If they didn't engage in this junk, there wouldn't be any problem, and Nick couldn't blame anything on me.
Yea, I'm Brooke, controller of the universe, the world sits in my hand and I spin it! AHHHH!
Yes I'm venting, and yall are lucky you aren't me!
Who has seen every episode of My Name is Earl?
Laugh if you must, but I have, twice .. THANKS NETFLIX!
That show is really onto something. Do good things, good things happen. Do bad things, bad things happen.
I don't believe in Karma, I'm no pagan. I mean that with sincerity not judgement by the way. I'm a Christ Follower, Do as Jesus did. Now, that isn't to say everything I do is great and right, I'm not Jesus after all, I'm Brooke.
So, I believe I have already said previously, I was indeed one of the meanest people I have ever known. Come to think of it, I probably was the meanest. I used to take the one thing that I knew would hurt you, and I would take it and cram it in your face over and over until you left whatever area I was in and you never came back.
I'm going to share something now, because I feel like I need to. Back before I vanished from pg.org, there were a ton of debate boards. Besides the general debate, there was the abortion debate, and the circumcision debate. Plus a ton more.
I stalked the abortion debate board like a rabid beast, I am, always have been, and always will be prolife. I have a limit, tubal or molar pregnancies, in both situation NO ONE lives, so save the life you can. These are my beliefs, so lets leave it at that.
However, I stepped over the line terribly. And for the last 7 years, it has haunted my mind.
There was a woman that frequented both debate boards I did, I also knew that she had aborted her baby because it had a serious birth defect. The brain stem formed, but the rest of the brain did not, that child wasn't going to live, period. Instead of showing her ANY compassion, I ripped into her, call her a murderer, told her she didn't deserve to ever have a child, I told her she wasn't worthy of being called a mother.
What I did was in fact colder than even the most brutal of murders.
Now I don't know if she still comes and posts, or reads, or even if she is still a member here, and I'm not going to give her name because that wouldn't be right either. However if she reads this she knows who she is.
I just want her to know that I am truly sorry for the pain I caused her. I never had the right to say anything about what you chose, and like all parents it is up to you to decide what is best for your child. It doesn't matter what I think I would have done, I never stood in your shoes, and if I ever had to I may not have chosen the things you did, but that would be because of what I believed was best. I hope where ever you are, whatever you are doing now, you have healed well, and have been able to throw away the heartlessness I showed to you.
I hid a box of ritz crackers!
Really I did, but just so I could have some with my cheese ball .. lol
When I got home from work tonight I found my husband on facebook and My 6 year old and 3 year old playing video games. It was almost 11, and their bedtime is 9! I should ground my husband .. from facebook! I doubt it would work, I'm not home enough to enforce grounding my husband lol! Of course the boys are in bed now .. they weren't too pleased being taken from their video game though.
I bought this movie, Evil Bong, I thought it would be interesting, but it wasn't. It is an independent film, but Tommy Chong is in it .. I let let lead me to believe I should buy and watch this movie! Live and learn!
At the end of the movie they advertised Evil Bong II .. I want to watch it lol! I know some independent film makers, and each new movie they come out with is always better than the last. So maybe the second will be better than the first .. I doubt I will ever know because I am not going to break my neck trying to find a second evil bong movie.
I was on the debate board and someone said they didn't know what Harold and Kumar go to White Castle is .. I didn't want to laugh there .. so I'm laughing here! Not because the lady said anything wrong, but I had no clue anyone had not seen that movie! It's such a funny movie. Basically, if the lady is reading, Harold and Kumar smoke the pot and go looking for a white castle lol! They get into some messes, and funny things happen, but really it might not be your type of movie. I know that debate was just a bunch of squeamish moms worrying about alluding to sex in a television show is bad and they should keep it from teens.
Isn't that silly? I mean my kids know tv is fake. They know elmo is fake, santa is fake, rudolph is fake, there are no dragon balls, and House isn't a real doctor. Some might think I'm bad because I don't give them false idols, and I don't shelter them from television shows, but I'm fine with it, my husband is fine with it, kids are fine with it, friends and family are fine with it, so really what I'm saying is, when it comes to my kids, only I need to be fine with it, well and other persons involved.
I also let my 13 year old play call of duty, and grand theft auto .. I know *gasp* When he grows up, he wants to be a military sniper *double gasp* and I support him in his choice *faint*
My 9 year old wants to be a veterinarian, my 7 year old wants to be a mommy, my 6 year old wants to be a fireman, my 3 year old wants to have big muscles, and my 2 year old wants Mommy to carry him everywhere. I also support their goals .. except I am hoping one day my baby will want to do something other than be carried by me, eventually he is going to be too heavy.
My 9 year old is in the 5th grade.. why? Because she skipped the 4th! Yea that's right, call me bad all you want, I have children skipping grades so my parenting can't be awful, just saying. Most people can maybe say their kid is on the honor roll .. so is my kid and she skipped a grade. Ok I'm just bragging now, but you have to admit that is impressive. All 4 children that are in school are advanced and straight a's across the board, so much for television making kids bad huh. Guess you don't have to be over protective and sheltering for good things to happen hmmm. Maybe though, it's simply the fact that you don't have to approve of my way of parenting for it to be a perfect fit for my family.
Just something to ponder.
I'm shutting up now. I was just really offended by a few statements made to me .. Like my children should be taken away because I let them watch what they choose on the tv.