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How is it that Gods chosen people can't even accept that there is more then their torah? Gosh it drives me insane. What's worse is Jesus makes it clear, there is only one way to God and that is through him, yet they don't accept. Too bad meaning well doesn't prevent you from eternity in the pits of hell.

It has been bugging the crap out of me all week. Jesus is where the Jews were supposed to change, but they didn't. I'm stumped as to why. God comes in the flesh, and they deny him? Why are they so blind that they say they love and worship a God they deny?

It just makes me sad.

I came back to edit this just to say, I'm not making a judgement on any person, I don't know who is or isn't jewish, and I don't need anyone to tell me if they are or aren't. I just put this here because it's something I'm struggling with through my bible study, a concept I am trying to grasp but can't.

Immediately after church, my husband had to go to work, and will remain there until 7 tonight! While I realize radio stations operate 24/7, I also know they can run on the automated system! Ah!

The kids and I are still having a day together. We've been doing a little cleaning. My washer stopped filling with water, and the repair place is closed because it's sunday, so now our laundry is sitting in piles. This is pretty crappy. That washer isn't even a year old yet!

I just don't know what else is going to go wrong! At least when Jared gets home dinner will be ready, first I better pray my stove doesn't take a crap too! More so because it's gas! :eek:

I really don't want to grumble on a Sunday, but gosh really? I guess I could throw a Christmas Carol on the tv and finish hanging stockings, and complete the cleaning .. fun stuff!

Brooke,

I can delete this later for you upon request but wanted to comment on your post # 11 above. I am glad that you found your way back after so many years away and I'm glad that your life has a number of positives going on now.

While we have a lot of great things happening here onsite, there are some things that remain virtually the same as when you were here before... including the Community Guidelines regarding being able to express your belief/point of view, (within posts, signatures, or comment areas), but with the expectation that you may do so without demeaning someone's views or beliefs. Remember - this is a public journal and, as you noted, others are reading that for the most part don't "know" you. They are using this as one way to learn more about you. Putting posts that declare another's personal belief system as "pointless" is targeting a whole (undefined) group of people here. Please remember to watch the blanket statements that do that.

As you stated that you were struggling to gain understanding within your Bible study regarding an aspect of the Jewish beliefs in God... maybe pose your questions on the General Religious Discussion board -- open to those of all faiths/belief systems as a means to learn about one another.

From a personal perspective, I can share that through all my years here at Pregnancy.org, I have found learning about others' belief systems (a wide variety!) has challenged me to grow and be strengthened in my own spiritual journey. This has been particularly true within my interactions (both public and private) of those of the Jewish faith (incl. Mollee's past. :) ) Recognizing that Judaism is the root of Christianity, I've felt extremely privileged to be able to ask questions regarding beliefs, practices, holidays, etc. and be able to pass that along to my own children. Understanding your (general you) history can be paramount to creating a firm foundation to build upon -- kwim?

Seriously - know that I am *NOT* knocking your beliefs at all. Hopefully, you know me better than that. I'm also not suggesting that you ask questions in hopes of changing your own belief system. You are not called to accept someone else's pov as your personal truth at all. Still - you may find that by gaining an understanding of another's faith, that you will be challenged as I was... to deepen your own faith even more which should be a good thing right?

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To Brooke and all reading -- while it is impossible for us to have a "one-size fits all rule" regarding discussing topics initiated on other boards, it typically is a bad idea to drag things from one board to another (and back again) as it simply creates too much drama. I'll post that reminder on the other board as well.

Anyone wishing to respond to this post - feel free to either send me an email or private message.

~Missy (missyj@pregnancy.org)

I am sooo glad Monday is here! In exactly 9 minutes school kids will be heading to the bus stop, and then at 10 A.M. the magic happens, that's right The appliance repair place opens! It's better than sex! I have so much laundry to catch up on, ugh!

I was just told the funniest thing. Ben, my 3 year old, brought me a tissue and told me something was stuck in his nose. Let me begin by saying the boy has some fetish with putting stuff up his nose, his doctor gave me a tweezer 3 months ago so when I can see what he gets stuck in there I can pull it out, and I have used them multiple times. So I go get the tweezers and a flash light and tell him to look up, and for once nothing was up there! LOL! Just boogies!

According to my Aunt, i used to stick things in my nose all the time. I don't remember ever sticking anything in my nose, but I'm 32, and she said I was either 2 or 3 when I did it, so I guess my long term memory wasn't set up yet, and based on the fact that I did it several times my short term memory wasn't getting it either lol!

Little kids can be strange. He can read short words, he can write his name and every letter of the alphabet, he can count to 54, but he still sticks stuff up his nose! By the way because of this I can't buy certain cereal, like kix or cocoa puffs.

Ben also has a special attachment to an electronic candle. He carries it with him everywhere, he knows it won't burn him when it's on, but he thinks its magic fire. He's such a sweet boy, a little awkward though. He will not eat anything but eggs and toast for breakfast, he will however eat cereal for a snack before bed. I think I may have started this when he was a baby. From the time he was oh 10 months old, I made him scrambled eggs and toast for breakfast. Then I would give him his baby cereal before bed. I did this with all of my kids, the rest like cereal just fine and dont have to have eggs and toast for breakfast, but Ben . .I mean it's like trying to take morning coffee from me, don't even THINK about it!

I'm skipping school today .. I took a head butt to the face last night .. my eye and cheek are swollen and I don't think driving with 1 eye is a good option. I've already hit 1 deer, and with no depth perception and partial vision .. uh yea not happening today.

I guess I should go hit the mathlab .. that's all online, and I only have 1 more class until my chapter test, then it's down to the grind for my final.

Praise the Lord for the gift of LIFE!

Got this little piece of eye candy via facebook today ..

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Thank you to everyone for all of the prayers. We are filled with joy and are praising God. He is so good and we just give thanks for this blessing! I have the donor family on my heart as I know that they are in pain. I am lifting them in prayer now and I ask that you join me. We just feel so blessed. They are telling us that surgery probably won't be until early morning so we are going to try and get a little rest. They said Jasmine is more high risk because of all her complications but He has brought us this far and we are placing her in His hands! Through him ALL things are possible! Giving praise and thanks ALWAYS! I will post an update when we have more information to share.

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It might not mean much to any of you, but this baby girl was down to literally her last few days of life! There is a huge celebration in my very own heart right now. Not everyone gets to have perfectly healthy babies, some babies take a long journey before they get to be perfectly healthy, Jasmine just happens to be one of them .. and her journey is coming to a happy end! Finally!!! I knew God wouldn't keep letting her suffer!

Ok so I realize that maybe I posted something that some one didn't agree with. I'm sorry you are offended by my thought, it wasn't what I intended at all. That said, when things like this do happen, I would appreciate that instead of you taking it to other boards if you could go ahead an message me so it can be handled privately, that would be great.

See even though you don't agree with what I think, it doesn't mean you should make me to be some evil monster lurking in the darkness. I'm not a murderer, and I'm not a saint either. Part of being a christian is admitting that you aren't nor can you be perfect. That's the motto of my life. Just because I'm christian doesn't mean I have to be some big beautiful display of loveliness and perfection, and when I am not displaying these preconceived notions you have it also doesn't mean that I'm a "bad" christian. I'm the prime example, I do my best and always fall short. Let's face it, I'm Brooke Frantz, not Jesus Christ.

I went to a board and saw myself being blasted, I was so disappointed that I couldn't even reply. So what, I'm not the Polaroid of perfection, I don't fit your extreme example of great mothering. I'm sorry I didn't get your list of guidelines. I'm not sorry for how I do things with my children because I have awesome kids, they have manners and they listen the first time, without me having to revert to whatever form of punishment you find to be fitting. I only have to say do it and it's done. They have good grades, they don't get sassy, and they go out of their way to be kind to others. Realistically, so do I, which makes it all that more heart breaking to be slammed around like garbage by women I don't know.

Then I see my blog posts go up by more than 100, and why? Maybe you want to find another point to judge me on, maybe another thought I have you don't agree with? Really? Are you so perfect that you absolutely have to come find every last syllable of where I'm not? I just don't think you're being too kind to me, I've judged no one, and as far as I can tell I haven't harmed anyone either. I haven't said anything bad about anyone, I haven't spoken down on anyone. I don't know anyone here enough to think either bad nor good of them. God says I have to love everyone, no matter what, that doesn't mean I have to think everything people do is good, it doesn't mean I have to think with the mind of the world either.

Now I am very sorry that my study on the jews bothered anyone, really I am. I know what the bible says though, and I know what it means, and it should bother me because I have a heart. My religion and my bible study doesn't belong in a debate, neither does anyone else. That's why I didn't make a debate about the reality of Christ, and the purpose of his life, death, and resurrection. Beside that, it was simply something I was struggling with, and I wrote it out to read it later. Formal understanding of MYSELF. Before you can know anyone else, you must truly know yourself.

I'm not defined by who I was 10 years ago, 1 year ago, or even last week. I'm defined by who I am today, and who I will be tomorrow, and by tomorrow who I am today won't define me anymore.

I'm writing this here because I don't know the 100 people who read this are, and even if I did writing the same email 100 times would simply be unrealistic. I simply ask that if you choose to read this, please do it with an open and non-judgmental heart. Realize that I am not perfect, and if something bothers you click my name and throw me a message. It's your own mind that tells you I can't be reasoned with or can't understand, or that I deserve to have bad things said about me ever.

I don't think I have anything else to say now. Thanks for reading.

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Jasmine's new heart is in and beating. PRAISE GOD PRAISE GOD PRAISE GOD!!!! They are waiting for her to warm up, which will be awhile. Thank you so much for your love and prayers. We remain overwhelmed at what God has done. Not done yet, but I can't tell you the peace we feel. We'll keep you posted. A very grateful praising Grandma

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WOOHOO!!! Beat away tiny heart! Also prayers going out to the family who struggles tonight with the loss of their own child. May God shine his mercy and grace on your hearts and lives.

It's been a while since I got an update on Jasmine .. I'm sure everything is fine, but this is some nervous stuff! So I have to do something to keep myself busy.

I've been spreading rumors about my Chef Nick. It's a funny joke we have .. someone told his dream girl that he had been dating all these girls, which wasn't true. So then he decided that every time i went upstairs I was making up rumors about him. I told him I was going home and spreading rumors about him on facebook. So the first one was that he cried as he held a deer he'd just killed, then I said he pretends to be eminem when no one is around. LOL! Good stuff. I haven't figured one out for today yet, and time is running out!

I'm looking at a dog for my husband. I have my dog, Brittany, who doesn't know she's a dog. She's a Boston Terrier. My husband doesn't like her the best because she's a little dog .. and I feed her beneful playful life .. which gives her tons of energy. She jets around like a mad girl! I'm looking at a shepherd husky mix for him. She's 3 years old, so not a puppy I have to house break .. and thank GOD for that! Gosh I really don't like house breaking dogs. Britty was a pia! I wouuld take her out, and we'd be out there for 20 minutes, and the second she'd get inside she'd poop on the floor. She needs a playmate .. if this dog doesn't come through though, I'm getting another boston terrier. It's a puppy too, and I'd have to house break it .. but Britty would love it.

Ok I need to find something else to do ... heart transplants take FOREVER! God is good though, and he is doing his will in his time not mine.

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Latest Update: Grandma just sent me the text and I quote "Jasmine just rolled by with her entourage of medical personnel. She is out of surgery and back on the unit. The doctor came and told us everything went very well and the heart could not be more perfect and fit like a dream. We will get to see her in about 30 minutes or so. I am so ecstatic and grateful to God for this day."

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This is the moment
It’s on the line
Which way you gonna fall?
In the middle between
Wrong and right
But you know after all

(Chorus)
It’s your life
What you gonna do?
The world is watching you
Every day the choices you make
Say what you are and who
Your heart beats for
It’s an open door
It’s your life

Are you who you always said you would be?
With a sinking feeling in your chest
Always waiting for someone else to fix you
Tell me when did you forget

(Chorus)

To live the way that you believe
This is your opportunity
To let your life be one that lights the way

(Chorus)

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The only thing in my world that is absolutely perfect, is my love for Jesus. Good or bad, I turn and there he is, walking beside me, or carrying me, he's always the same.

I love this song, because this IS my life. Watch me, it's all good. My heart beats for my Lord, My God, Jesus Christ, who lived, died, and has risen for me, for my salvation. Through him I am saved, it doesn't matter what anyone thinks of me because I'm his treasure.

Do I want to hurt people? NO WAY! Do I want them to know how much I love Jesus? ABSOLUTELY! It isn't a judgment to say the greater good comes from acceptance of Jesus, it's a truth, and I ONLY want to share, I want everyone to love him as much as he loves them. I'm not the only one he died for, he died for every soul in this world.

I also fully know that what you choose is your choice, because you live your life.

With some of you I didn't have a blind shot anyway. I have spent so much time and energy carrying guilt because some one was offended, for my lack of or refusal to understand why anyone wouldn't open the eyes of their heart. One can assume that I do it to be mean, but the truth is, I just want us all to be with him in the end.

My LOVE for my brothers and sisters is enormous. Your words hurt me not because I can't handle mean people, but because I am a lover. I don't have to know a single thing about you to know how wonderful you are, I know how much I am loved by Christ, and I know he loves you the same, and there is no river I wouldn't drown in to save YOU.

I have thrown myself on top of a woman being beaten, took punches and kicks for her. I did that. Why? Because I didn't want her to be hurt, I'd rather take the blows than see some one else take those blows and feel that pain.

So assume what you will about me, because unless you can open your heart and be accepting of some one that isn't in your tight packed can, then you won't ever know me anyway. You don't know who i am, you don't know my heart, and unless you can hold back your own preconceived notions, this is how your relationship with me will always be. You'll be nasty, hurtful, and judgmental, and you'll blame me for it. I'll continue to sit here with a sickness in my stomach and pain in my heart BECAUSE I CAN'T CHANGE YOU!

Jesus isn't just what I believe, he is who I try to be like. He was hated by many for his love, why should I be any different right? Why should I expect to not be persecuted? Say what you will, hurt me if you feel the need, but do know I still will stand firm in my love for humanity. I belong to Christ, not the world.

I greatly appreciate, and have saved emails from a few of you, just because I appreciate what you had to say, I also am thankful for the support I received via email, that was really nice! If I didn't reply, it's because you couldn't even show a single flicker of kindness, and you know what, I think it's best for me to say nothing outside of this public post to you.

Today I'm thankful and praising GOD for the wonderful gift of life he has returned to little Jasmine, that sweet baby girl, and the gift of 2 amazingly strong and extremely loving parents that sat through the struggle alongside their baby girl! I'm praying for peace and comfort for a family that had to let go of their baby, and still found the love in their hearts to share their loss by giving an amazing gift to other families so that their children may live. God bless those people!

Now I'm going to head off to bed. Much love to each of you, even those whom choose to hate me.