I'm in the mindless phase of reading about reading, and I realize how very important it is for readers to comprehend what exactly they are reading. "Inferences about the writer's intentions appear to be an essential building block - one that readers actively use to construct a meaningful text." (Linda Flower) It makes me wonder, with all those reading my banter, most of which is not researched, biased, personal, and/or strictly opinionated, what exactly is being pulled from any of it.
Your interpretation may be what I have intended, or it may be far off. Information that is relayed may be completely unabsorbed. Is my writing passive, is it aggressive, is it drawing a painting or a cartoon within you mind?
I have been guilty of writing amazing articles and papers, much the same I have been guilty of writing complete garbage. The question really is what, if anything, does it change for the reader. Is a level of understanding reached? Is it offensive? Is it reaching the intended audience?
The problem within this blog is that the audience is wide, all ethnic groups, religions, education levels, ages, genders, everyone can be the audience. Most often you can not have a positive outcome with such a wide audience. Someone will always dislike the writing given, for a multitude of reasons. When reading any text, you have to be an active reader, ask yourself, who is the intended audience? What kind of text is this? If you are offended by a text, first ask yourself why. You can insist that the writer's goal was to offend you, or attack you in some way, but then you need to rationalize why the writer would do such a thing? Find the root, what word caused your feeling of happiness or of anger? Is your reading comprehension at the level of the writer, are you above or below the writer?
I write this here today, because I feel that if you are going to read what I write, you should be actively reading, getting something from it, and making moves within it, even when it's just me, the writer, throwing down some scratched up thought that I have. I never aim to make anyone think too much, but from reactions to previous writings on this particular blog, I see far more over thinking, from a personal stance, it is being read as a personal letter, instead of a simple text. I don't write personal letters on a blog, that would be foolish.
Usually, one would not allow others to post within a blog, however, for the next 15 weeks, feel free. When I post something, it is probably intended for some form of feedback. All subjects (including this one) are text book. This post to be exact is purely informational. It is a request for you to be an active reader, give active feed back, become a product of my words. If you choose to add to what I have written, I simply ask that you not be malicious nor snide in your comments. I also ask that you keep your comments specific to the text, and only reply to a text directly following that text, prior to a new text being entered. You will only be shown rough draft context, and not a finalized paper. Sorry but those writings are reserved for my professors, and they belong to the college when a final draft is submitted. You will be exposed to social service papers, psych essays, and writing essays, I hope over the course of the next 15 weeks, you gain something from what I write.
Thank you to everyone, regardless of your level of involvement, I appreciate your willingness to read.
I'm glad you like writing. I'm a psych major, and I hate writing papers.
writing is 9/10 of a social service job .. good times .. sorta lol
I know, right? lol I just hate all the research papers and the data analyzing. Let's just say I don't plan on being any sort of researcher. I love writing fiction papers and such. :)
Recently I read the article ?The Coming Era of Energy Disasters? by Michael T. Klare, written June 10, 2010. In it he tells of environmental disasters such as the BP Deep Water Horizon Disaster, the sinking of the Ocean Ranger, Unified Quest 2008 A US Army simulation, and other potentially harmful environmental phenomena. He points out in the article that the Deep Horizon Explosion happened not because of corporate oversight, but because oil is being pulled from places it isn?t safe for us to be pulling it from, in his opinion. He also gives his speculation for what he believes could happen on a more destructive level, using what has happened previously as a point of reference. His concerns are those in which all humanity should have; these are situations we as a world have caused to happen, and his scenarios are those situations we are pushing ourselves into. He creates the scenarios of severe environmental damage out of fear with reason behind it. He also speaks of potential for wars over energy resources as countries fight for those sources because their demand for them is so high. A few of the scenarios are so possible, it seems they could happen as early as today, and they are ultimately worth thinking about and planning for.
To get to the bottom of all of this, one must start at the beginning, what once was a great idea, a pivot point in the history of the world, and the beginning of the road to our own destruction. Klare makes a bold statement when he says:
At the onset of the modern industrial era, basic fuels were easy to obtain from large, near-at-hand energy deposits in relatively safe and friendly locations. The rise of the automobile and the spread of suburbia, for example, were made possible by the availability of cheap and abundant oil from large reservoirs in California, Texas and Oklahoma, and from the shallow waters of the Gulf of Mexico.
Now, we have a start, now we should be able to understand how this all began. Oil was easy to access, and we used it, we then came to the point where a little bit not enough, demand and supply were, and remain on the rise. As the easy to reach supply of oil was depleted by our demands, so to the less possible supplies the companies went, as the world looked the other way as if to tell them if we cannot see it, it is not happening.
The Hibernia Oil Platform in Newfoundland seems to be one of the most concerning. It?s a staggering amount of oil, and a large number of people, sitting in severely choppy, glacier filled water. Klare points out ?This mammoth facility, normally manned by 185 crew members, produces about 135,000 barrels of oil per day.? (2010) so should it topple, all that oil, and all those people would simply drift away, washing onto shore wasted and lost for all eternity. The oil would take with it not only human lives, but also marines lives, not to mention the birds and other animals that would be effected, and the land it washed up on being destroyed. Then you have to ask yourself, does it provide any protection for the people working on it, the oil, the rest of the oil? ?Sixteen giant steel ribs protrude from the GBS, positioned in such a way as to absorb the blow of an iceberg and distribute it over the entire structure. However, the GBS itself is hollow, and contains a storage container for 1.3 million barrels of crude oil.? (2010) clearly it does, as well as a reserve of over a million more barrels of oil. Realistically, it is a little protection for the potential of unimaginable amounts of severe damage and destruction. Glacier chunk move freely through that water, it?s the North Atlantic so these are things we expect. The owners of this facility have created ?Titanic Security?. It is unsinkable, nothing can bring it down because we have designed it so well. It?s concerning that it could be brought down by a glacier, and it is completely possible on any given day, spilling 135,000 barrels of oil per day plus over a million gallons of reserve, in an instant.
To get into another risk that needs no scenario, you have to take a bit of a political twist. China and Japan have their mutual boundary set within the East China Sea. Under their mutual boundary lies a natural gas reserve.
Under the United Nations Convention on the Law of the Sea, which both countries have signed, each is allowed to exercise control over an "exclusive economic zone" (EEZ) extending 200 nautical miles (about 230 standard miles) from its coastline. But the East China Sea is only about 360 miles across at its widest point between the two countries. (2010)
We can now see 100 miles of fought over space because of a natural gas reserve. China wants to claim the water nearly to Japan, and Japan wants to cut it at the half way point, and neither side will agree on any term. ?Both sides have deployed military forces in the contested area, seeking to demonstrate their resolve to prevail in the dispute.? (2010) Potential for war as early as today is clear. Once again no scenario is needed; all that is truly needed is a single act by either side that leads the other to assume this means physical war. Gun fire and bombing destroy drilling rigs in place, gas is freely flowing into the China sea, the water turns to fire, ships are sunk, lives are lost, marine life is destroyed, land that gas and oil wash up on is destroyed, and the vicious cycle of destruction continues.
The need and want for natural resources is out of control, and it isn?t a scenario. It?s a daily threat. Knowing and accepting isn?t enough, thinking about it isn?t enough, surely there is something that can be done. This insanity needs to be stopped, and the risk needs to be made more public so that the human race knows what the likely outcomes are. We need lines of defense in place for when these things happen instead of pointing fingers and figuring out how to control it once it has already occurred.
I have spent weeks praying, crying, and searching my soul. I work hard, I take care of my children, I do well in school, I have went far out of my way to try to make my life .. good. Even a few inches closer to acceptable, if you will. All the while, my family life has been literally a living hell.
I have learned to smile even when inside I'm a sobbing mess. I put on one of the most believable fronts anyone has everything. Oh life is great, things are going well, I have never been so happy. I'm a liar, a total fraud.
I love my husband, with every fiber of my being, but he is narcissistic. I'm not saying that in a manner of harshness or cruelty, I'm making an honest statement about his mentality. He truly believes he is Gods very gift to the world. He is wonderful and perfect, and nothing is his fault. I'm a *****, a ****, a *****, stupid, worthless, lazy, bi polar, crazy, a bad mother, a poor excuse for a human being. These are his words, words that he says to me EVERY SINGLE DAY EVERY CHANCE HE GETS.
I don't believe these things to be true. I work a full time job, pay all the bills, go to school full time, carry a 4.0 gpa, spend every spare minute I get with my children. I freely give kindness to everyone, regardless of whether I feel they deserve it. I have put up with being called these names, I have been beaten multiple times, I have pressed charges, and then dropped them, more charges are currently pending and I'm not asking for the latest ones to be dropped.
In his mind, I caused him to strangle me, I caused him to hit me with a bat, I shouldn't have called the police because in his opinion I wasn't hurt badly enough.
I left once, when he was in jail, I had my cousin come, we loaded her trunk with stuff and she took the boys, I loaded my car and I left. For some reason, my own feelings of obligation to this man mostly, I came home. It's a decision I have spent almost 4 months regretting.
I have thought it through, and I am leaving again. I have some friends that are willing to help, and by help I mean spur of the moment I will call them and let them know he will be gone for x amount of hours, and they will come grab my stuff and move me out. This will be happening in about 2 weeks.
I have told him that I am leaving. His response was that if I take the baby, he will hunt me down, and no one will ever find my body. He has also threatened to take off with the baby and I will never see him again. I fully understand and accept the risk I am taking. I am receiving help from victims assistance, they will be helping file my divorce and applying for an emergency restraining order that will HOPEFULLY protect my children and myself. I'm a social services worker, I know that protection orders don't work, and the risk is high with or without one. I'm not allowing myself to be concerned. I know if I worry I won't follow through.
Honestly, from my own mind, I'm at the same risk of serious injury or death, here or gone. However, at least if I'm gone I can create a line of defense. Such as I do not have to allow him to know where I live.
I am putting this here because it needs to be somewhere. Please make no comments. Pray though.
It's always sad when a person doesn't have the ability to be a parent to their child the way those of us with children do. I talk to people regularly that have miscarried, or had a still born baby, their pain is immense, and the same statement is repeated over and over, "It just seems like no one cares, they don't even mention it." When my Dad passed away, I was given so much love and support, people would tell me stories of my dad, they would ask how I'm doing, they openly talked about him. Yet when someone loses their child, it's tucked away, it's undesirable.
I have celebrated with people things that would have been. "Emily would have been 3 today" .. it's sad to a point, but it really helps the healing process. Emily of course is a fictitious name, but the client that chose to celebrate, we went to a really nice local restaurant, even ordered a birthday cake. That baby is so very important, the concerns are that everyone has forgotten her, or simply never cared.
I'm a helper, it's my job to walk with people as they go through their personal feelings and what bothers them. Still, we are all people, and we need to remember grace, love, compassion, and show our fellow humans that we do care. Step out of your own box now and then, it doesn't matter that you aren't comfortable, because these people are hurting so badly, personal comfort should never come before easing pain.
Of course there is a time when this isn't as good to do, like directly following the loss. I just think that some things in life we all need to learn, and one is that even though someone cries doesn't always mean that you have mentioned something they are trying to forget, in these situations its that you have touched on something that will always hurt them but they are grateful you haven't forgotten.
To anyone reading that feels the pain of loss along with the pain of their child being forgotten, God never forgets. Sometimes, you have to tell people that it's ok to talk about your own Emily, let them know it hurts you to live without her, but its so joyous to know people remember her, and have an "Emily would have been" party. Let me know when it is, I'll send her a card! <3
I'm out of here for now, have a blessed day!
On this very site, it was announced that I had my 3rd child, one of the biggest blessings I've ever received, a 7 pound 4 ounce 36 week gestation baby girl, with lots of beautiful thick black hair, with apgar scores of 10 and 10, and also the worlds worst breastfeeder ever .. I briefly nicknamed her razor gums! She has grown up so much in the last 8 years, she is truly one of the most amazing people I know. She still believes that everyone, even the fattest, smelliest, most disgusting person in the world is BEAUTIFUL. She has a kind mind and a huge heart, and don't even get me started on how smart she is! I try not to brag about my children too much, because I think they are all the best in the world, and I don't want to put another child down! Today, however, is a special day, and I am here by bragging about the Amazing Mallory!
My top 10 reasons why MALLORY is the best 8 year old girl in the UNIVERSE!
1. She's sweet to everyone, and knows no boundaries with kindness.
2. She is the best big sister, she loves her little brothers and is a good leader for them.
3. She doesn't believe in ugly, she has won 17 pageants in 6 years and still thinks everyone is as beautiful as she is.
4. She is the best girl scout ever, she loves earning her badges!
5. She has awesome personal values, she doesn't care about what she keeps, she cares about what she can give you to help.
6. She believes being rich is showing grace, mercy, and love to everyone.
7. She is pro life, and she's proud of it, babies are people too.
8. She loves disabled children, and loves to encourage them and believes they can do whatever they put their minds to, even when everyone else says they can't.
9. Her best friends in the whole world are Mommy and big sister Nikki.
10. She's MY daughter! It doesn't get any better than that!
Happy Birthday to the BEST 8 year old daughter a mother could ever ask for! I love you as much as Jesus does!