New Month, New Cycle, New Hope!
Today I am feeling GOOD! I am ready for a new start and I am coming out fighting. My countenances were down for the last couple of days but I really have had some "ME" time and realized that I am going to relax and let God take over. Yes I will BD around EOT (Estimated Ovulation Time), lets not b stupid here, but I am going to release some of the strain of trying to make it happen. I thought that I would b more let down from yet another bfn and an AF that really is treating me like crap...but now that it has settled in, I am going to b fine.
NEW MONTH. I am going to BD every time possible and I pray, o God I pray that DH doesnt have any shows around my EOT this cycle. If I O around the time I think I will, which is between Feb 15-22nd,that would b leaving me with a November baby. October was what I was shooting for since DHs bday is around that time, but Nov sounds perfect too.
NEW CYCLE. I am praying that this cycle will b a lil predictable...meaning that I will not have another 34 day cycle. I dunno if I can keep skipping months like this without peeing on something!
NEW HOPE. I place all of my hope in You O God! Take away my pride and my feelings and substitute them with faith and hope. I have such a hard time hearing and saying the work "Faith" since that is what DH and I named what was supposed to b our bundle of faith. But I am going to have HOPE that FAITH will abound this cycle and in Nov. I will have a LO to have. hold. wash. adore. play with. and travel with to my CTC girlies houses to show him/her off :) I am getting sappy right now...but HOPE is what I will continue to have this time around.