Well yesterday (1 DPO) I had a lot of cramping which I've had early on in all my pregnancies. Now today I have the WORST case of "low blood sugar crabbies" I've had in a long time (also a preg. symptom for me). I also was dead tired yesterday and went to bed around 9 and normally I'm up until at least 11:30. I know its pretty early for those types of symptoms, but just in case I am pregnant, I want to record how I'm feeling and any possible symptoms. That's all, I'm sure I'll update daily. At least this 2ww will be easy, because DH has the week off, and by the time monday workday rolls around, I'll be 10 dpo. And I will test on 11 dpo (july 8th)!
Ok 3 dpo today and I'm feeling pretty crampy down low and in my lower back. I also have been in a very nasty mood in the mornings... pretty similar to how I feel right before AF... a hormonal rage. My CM has also turned thick and creamy which I've had with all my pregnancies. Other than that, I just have a feeling. I woke up this morning with the thought "I'm pregnant" in my head. I even told DH that I'm pretty sure I am pregnant, but he won't get his hopes up until I know for sure. He did say that he hopes I am, which pretty much made me melt I'm going to test in one week (10 dpo), unless I can muster up the energy to wait until the next day. I'll have a pretty good idea by then anyways. I'm taking my prenatals really well, and also one baby aspirin a day. I hope that helps get us our sticky bean and healthy baby. Ok that's all... I keep having to remind myself that I don't know I'm pregnant yet. I could be in for a big disappointment.
And I have no idea why! I tested this morning around 4 am after only holding my pee for 5ish hours, at 10 dpo. I'm not really surprised it was negative, but I really think I'm pregnant. I have really bad pulling/crampy feelings in my uterus area for the last week or so. I squeezed a nice amount of colostrum out of my boob yesterday. I am really sick feeling today, and I threw up last night. I really hope I'm pregnant. I haven't pee'd for about 5 hours and haven't had anything to drink since about 8 this morning. I really hope I get a positive. I'll update in like 10 minutes probably, even though I'm sure it'll be negative. If it is, then I'm going to wait a couple days and use FMU... that should be pretty accurate.
I can't believe it. I mean I can, but wow! The line popped up immediately. It's soooo faint though, so I'm not really counting it until I see it get darker. Assuming the test is still positive in the morning, I'll call the dr. on Wednesday so I can get in for bloodwork on wednesday and friday. I'm so excited. I just know this one will work out... it HAS to! OH YEAH! I'd be due March 20th.
I tested again this morning, and the line popped up immediately and was much darker. No squinting needed! I am really excited, but also nervous... obviously. My due date should be March 20th. I just hope this works out so much. I have a good feeling about it, and I'm already feeling sick, so that gives me a lot of hope that things are at least going well so far. I'm calling the dr. tomorrow and will go in for bloodwork tomorrow and friday and then we'll have a better idea of how things are going. Now I just have to decide if I want to use my last test tomorrow morning for a comparison, or wait until friday morning to see if there is a TON of difference. I think I just will tomorrow and then try to take it easy and just let things come as the come. I have some hope too because with both of my cheri predictions, the first one she said MARCH for conceive, find out in, or birth month. That prediction didn't match up with my last pregnancy at all. So then I got another one, and she said JUNE for all the options. That matches up perfectly because I did conceive in June, and (hopefully) will give birth in March. She also said it would be a boy, which is good because then we wouldn't need to buy anything at all! Except a few little things that I might feel like buying. Well that's all, I'm sure I'll update tomorrow with my bloodwork results... and then about how I'm panicking about Friday's results.
I had my first BETA yesterday (12 dpo) and my HCG was at 54 and progesterone was at 30. I'm very happy with those numbers. I am pretty nervous for tomorrow's results though. Today I took a pregnancy test just to see... I had been up all night peeing and used 2 hour old urine at that, and the line was tons darker than two days ago, so I feel good about that. And I also feel good that I used my last test, so its one less thing to obsess about. I am kinda nervous because I feel pretty good today. Still tired, but not really as bad as yesterday, and barely any nausea. So I guess we'll see what happens tomorrow. I know its still really early for major symptoms, so I'm not going to think about it too much. Just get through the rest of today and tomorrow and I'll know. I sure hope things will turn out alright this time.
My numbers came back REALLY good. 12 dpo was 54 and 14 dpo was 187... that's a doubling time of about 26 hours. CRAZY! I'm pretty excited, but still nervous. Part of me wonders if really fast doubling times can be as bad as slow ones, but I'm not lingering on that thought. I was also thinking that with a doubling time that fast, maybe there's more than one. I really doubt it though. That's pretty rare, and I just don't really FEEL like there's more than one in there. I hope the dr. calls tomorrow so I can get in for an u/s at 6ish weeks to check things out. I might actually be excited for it this time, instead of sooooo terrified!
The doctor called and congratulated me on the great numbers, and also said I can come in around 6 weeks for an ultrasound to check and make sure things are still going well. I of course took her up on her offer, and have one scheduled for July 31st. I will be 6 weeks 6 days at that point, but I'd rather wait the extra week and get a definite answer, than go in right at 6 weeks and see something but not a h/b... the extra week of wondering what if and all that is just too much for me. I have been feeling alright. Just a little nauseous these days, but REALLY tired. I really feel pregnant, so even if I have a day where I feel alright, I am not worrying too much. I still am having some achyness and stuff more on my left side than on my right, but it's not tender to push on it or anything. I am just a little worried about it, but not bad enough to call the dr. Now if the next 2 weeks could fly by... that would be great!
As my U/S date approaches, I'm getting more and more nervous. It's pretty much the same as when I am testing to see if I'm pregnant. I have been feeling pretty good since the weekend. When I say I'm feeling good, I just mean I'm not sick. That really worries me, since I was feeling pretty sick for a couple weeks and now it's tapered off. Food still sounds pretty gross to me though, even though I feel really hungry. I am still really tired and moody, and my boobs are still hurting, so it's not like ALL my symptoms have diappeared... just the one. Oh yeah, and I have been getting pretty bad headaches daily. I know my u/s is just over a week away, but this last week and a half really flew by, so it'll be here before I know it. And then I'll either be really happy, or devastated. I'm just so nervous about it, but trying not to think about it. I've been doing really well just by staying busy and that helps me not to dwell on all the "what ifs". A lot of it is also that I can not possibly fathom going through another miscarriage. I really think I would come out of it a broken person. I think a lot about what will happen if things go badly with this pregnancy, and I kinda scare myself and have to take a step back, because that hasn't even happened yet. It also makes me sad because I can't enjoy my pregnancy like others can. I have a hard time getting involved with the March BB because I can't handle all the women so carelessly happy about everything. It makes me so jealous. I also am having a hard time on the PAAL board because it reminds me of what could happen, and that we're all there because we've had losses. If everything is as it should be in the u/s, then I'll probably really let my guard down. I just hope everything is fine.
DS Jaxon born 10/18/06 ** DS Wesley born 3/22/09 ** DS Henry born 6/11/12 ** 4 angels in heaven
I woke up this morning in analysis mode (as usual), and finally got so sick of it. I called the doc and expressed my concerns (to the receptionist) about my symptoms disappearing and she put a message back to the nurses. I still haven't gotten a call back, but that's ok because now I feel dumb for even calling. I guess maybe I was hoping to get a second opinion. I just need a professional to tell me I'm being paranoid. In all honesty, I am still feeling pregnant, I am just so scared to go to my u/s next week with no idea what is going on. Maybe they'll even let me in for an u/s today or tomorrow. I'll be 6 weeks so I should see a baby with a h/b. Last night I had a dream we had an u/s and it was twins. Then the dr. told us that the twins' h/b's were very slow and they probably wouldn't make it. I was bawling, but then we went back later and their h/b's were perfect.