Well my u/s is today and I'm freaking out... obviously. I really think things will be ok, but you just never know. My appointment is in a few hours, so I'll update later or tomorrow. I sure hope it's not a bad update.
Ok so almost a week later, I remembered I didn't update. Everything is going great! She found the baby and h/b right away. There's only one in there... which i'm perfectly fine with. The baby measures 6 weeks 4 days, which is 2 days behind what I know I was at the time, but I'm not worried about it. It was so early, and on a portable machine, there's no way it would be %100 accurate. So I go back on August 19th for another u/s. She said with patients with a history of m/c, she likes to see them every 2 weeks until I hit 10-12 weeks and then we'll schedule the first prenatal. I guess that makes sense. As of now, I'm not nervous for the next u/s, but I know I will be as the date approaches. At least it's earlier in the week, and day. It'll be here before I know it. If that u/s is great, then I'll really relax. I'll be about 9 weeks 4 days, so if things are going well... the chance of something happening goes down a lot. I've been feeling really tired and having really strong bouts of nausea so I think things are still going well. That's all!
I hate how it happens. I am absolutely dreading my u/s next week. I am so nervous already. My nausea has let up a LOT, and has become very manageable. Which, of course, makes me even more nervous. I'm still sick in the morning if i don't eat, and still gag if i even think about brushing my teeth. And I'm still SUPER tired. I am just having a really hard time imagining myself leaving the dr.'s office next week with good news. I know it's just myself preparing for the worst. I don't have any real reason (except my m/s becoming manageable) to think anything is wrong. And Tuesday will be here so fast, I think that's what is making me scared too. As always... at least I'll know how things are going.
Well I had my 2nd ultrasound yesterday and everything went great. Baby is measuring 2 days AHEAD now, instead of 2 days behind. It was all on the portable machine, so the resolution wasn't the greatest, but we could still see the h/b really clear. And you could see the arms and legs starting. I'll have to scan in a picture. I am excited and just ordered a fetal h/b doppler. I used some of my birthday money for it and prepaid for 3 months and even got overnight shipping. I just realized that I let my guard down and assumed that things are going to be ok. It feels nice. I really am starting to let myself believe that we will come out of this with a healthy baby! Of course, I know things can happen, but I've had my guard up long enough. At this point, it's going to be devastating regardless of me being positive or negative about this pregnancy. Anyways... I have my first official OB appointment next Thursday (8/2, and I'm trying to make a list of things I want for my birth. I want to be as natural as possible and with very few interventions. I don't want details, just a general idea of the midset of the doctor's in the practice and the hospital. Well that's all. I sure hope I can hear the h/b for myself! I'll update if I can.
YAY! I rented a doppler for a few months so I could check in on the baby before I start feeling movement for reassurance. I tried the first day I got it at just under 10 weeks and couldn't find it. Then I tried again a few days later. At first nothing... and then I felt this weird flutter (I know not the baby yet, but it made me think to move the probe up), so I moved the probe up a little higher and found it right away. I tried again this morning and heard super loud. I am so happy! I have my first OB appointment on Thursday where i'll get another ultrasound too. I started feeling better (symptoms wise) for a couple weeks, but now I'm back to feeling like poo again. Super tired and nauseous. I don't really care because it makes me feel like things are still going well. I hope to see the babe really moving around and all that fun stuff in a couple days.
DS Jaxon born 10/18/06 ** DS Wesley born 3/22/09 ** DS Henry born 6/11/12 ** 4 angels in heaven
My first appointment went great. Had all the yucky tests done, and am glad that's over with. Then we got to see baby again. He was really quiet and not moving at first, and then all of a sudden there was a jerk, and he just started bouncing all over the place and stomping his feet. The doc peeked between the legs and thought she saw something there, but its so early it's hard to tell. I thought i saw something too though. So now I'm SUPER convinced it's a boy, which is totally fine by me. So yeah, I've been feeling better and am going to make some spanish rice tonight that i'm so excited about. I've had bad luck today with food. I bought a bunch of produce at the store because I really am craving fruits and salads right now. The grapes, and strawberries so far have been so overripe that i can't eat it. Like mushy and nasty. They looked totally fine though. And then the sour cream I bought today was already OPEN! I've had too many problems with that store and am sad to say that I won't be returning. I just don't have the time to stop and inspect every tiny thing. So yeah, I'll be finding a new store. That's all!
Well my belly has been pretty bloated for a while now, but i would never call it big. I could still wear all my regular pants, just rubber banded. Well for the last couple days, I've been feeling a lot of growing pains. I've also been feeling sick again and horribly tired. The reasons were obvious this morning. GROWTH SPURT! Last night I tried to feel for my uterus and couldn't feel it above my pubic bone, but this morning it is obviously there. So crazy how that happens. My belly has really "pooched" out but i still wouldn't call it big or anything. I feel sooooo heavy in my lower abdomen, and it's pretty uncomfortable. I had a hard time sleeping because of it last night. I was so uncomfortable in my clothes last night, I just wanted to be naked and not have anything touching me. That seems a bit early for that to happen. That was the good part about being big and pregnant in the summer. You didn't have to wear that much clothing. Now, that's obviously not going to work in the winter. I might have to cave this time and actually get maternity clothes. Well I already did actually, I bought 1 pair of pants just in case, and it looks like i'll be needing them already. Anyways, that's my update.
I have my NT screening today and today I'm not so nervous, but yesterday I was horrible. I don't know why. Well actually i do. It's because on Friday, we gave our parent's the go ahead to start telling people we're pregnant (no mass emails allowed though!). DH also told a few of his friends, but the news will be spread pretty quickly. I was just nervous because I'd hate for something to be wrong and discovered today (not down's or anything like that, i mean the baby isn't growing well or something) and then we'll have to go around and tell EVERYONE! I did a heartbeat check this morning, and it was nice and strong so I feel ok about things, but you never know. I'm also scared because I have to go alone. DH just doesn't realize how much I need him there, even though he saw how upset I was yesterday. I know he's excited (sort of), and looking forward to another baby, but I just wish he was more "into it". I mean, I don't have a choice, I have to do these things and take off work for it. But whatever, I can't expect too much. On a much lighter and exciting note! I looked online at some of the hospital policy that I'm delivering at and noticed that they don't require an IV unless the situation requires it. That's BIG for me. They also mentioned patients being able to drink as they want. I didn't see anything about eating, but hopefully they allow that too, just as long as everything is looking healthy. I didn't see anything about constant fetal monitoring being optional, but I think that's up to the "care provider". So far I'm getting a good feeling about my desire for a natural birth in a hospital. This hospital also performs VBAC's and has a natural childbirth class... so yeah, I think they're pretty open. That's all. I will post all my u/s pics when I get back. Hopefully I can convince the tech to check between the legs.
Well everything looks normal according to the u/s tech. The nuchal fold measured about 1.5 and under 3 is normal. She saw all the right parts and even the brain! The heart rate was about 167. Now, I asked her if she ever looks for gender this early, and she gave me some spiel about how it's so early and she would hate to tell me one thing and get my heart set on it and then we find out she was wrong. She said even though people say they don't care, they really do. BUT! I still got her to take a peek and she couldn't tell, but said based off of some theory dr.'s have, she'd say girl. I totally don't believe it, and even if they say girl at our 20 weeks u/s, I won't believe it until i see it at delivery. I looked and really couldn't tell either, but there were no obvious boy parts. I hope I can ask Dr. Dong to look at my next appointment. The grandma's sure would be happy if it was a girl. Next appointment isn't for another couple weeks, so it'll be a nice break.
DS Jaxon born 10/18/06 ** DS Wesley born 3/22/09 ** DS Henry born 6/11/12 ** 4 angels in heaven
Things are still looking good. I check for the heartbeat everyday, and it's always there... thank goodness! I feel like the m/s has finally passed, but just in time for me to come down with a terrible cold I'm super tired and called in sick to work today and still sent DS to the babysitter. I feel so guilty for doing that, but I would have zero patience today and I just need to rest. I have a dr. appointment on Wednesday, and I'm going to try really hard to get the dr. to do an u/s to peek at the gender. I think we'd be able to tell... at least if it's a boy we'd be able to see it. I REALLY want to know, and don't think I can wait another 6 weeks. BUT! I will if i have to.... obviously. I am also excited because DS's birthday is coming up and we are spending 2 nights at a nice hotel in the Dells. That will be so much fun for him, and I just can't believe he's going to be 2 already. My little baby is so grown up. I miss him a lot today, and can't wait until he comes home. Relaxing is still nice though.