I know there are a lot of stories posted here, but I thought I would add one more.
On March 31st I had my first prenatal appointment. My husband and I were absolutely overjoyed. The Dr. told me when I scheduled the appointment she might have time to do an ultrasound because "it was fun to see the baby's heartbeat." When we went to the appointment, the Dr did the pelvic and said the uterus seemed kinda small. She decided to go ahead and do the ultrasound. Needless to say, she did not see a heartbeat. She ordered blood work to confirm, but she was fairly certain I had miscarried.
Three days later I was back in her office. They told me my blood work hinted at a pregnancy loss, and did a repeat ultrasound. The ultrasound confirmed our worst fears. The baby we were so excited to welcome, had died.
This has been the most heartwrenching experience of my entire life. You want to pick up and go on, but there are days when you just feel like you have abandoned all hope. You try to make plans so you have something to look forward to, but they seem very empty.
I really want to TTC again, but I'm fearful of doing this all over again, only to have the same result. I just would love to know if anyone else shares the same fear. I would also like to know if anyone feels like they are on an emotional rollar coaster with the sometimes unbearable emotional pain.
Thoughts would be greatly appreciated.