I guess it is only natural to stress out about the baby after a bfp--I don't think I ever really stop stressing the entire pregnancy. But now that I've had 2 losses in a row, I'm really stressing! A little bit of my background--I usually get pg pretty easily. The first time I was just completely naive to m/c and thought everything was fine and went in for my 12 week visit to find out baby had stopped growing at 8. I went on to have 3 healthy pg, getting pg the first or 2nd try (and with dd not even trying at all-she was a surprise pg).
Then In august I had a chemical pregnancy (I guess that is what it is called when its early?) at 5 weeks. It just seemed like my period was a week late and a little heavier. But I just had this gut feeling to test when I was 1 day late, otherwise I wouldn't even have known about it (as we were not trying).
Then again, we were not trying in November and I got pg again--we had been planning to start trying in december so it was not too big a deal--and I was stressed so I went and did beta tests which showed great numbers. I went in at 6.5 weeks for a dating u/s and had a great u/s with a heartbeat. So I thought I was in the clear and so we told everyone over christmas when I was 10 weeks. I went in for a 12 week visit and the dr could not find a hb with the doppler. She pulled in the u/s machine and found baby--the size for 8 weeks with no h/b. I was so devastated because I thought everything was fine. I went 2 more weeks carrying the pg until I finally m/c on my own at 14 weeks.
Now I'm stressing! I took a FRER yesterday afternoon after holding my pee for 3 hours and got a + . It was not extremely dark, even though AF was due yesterday or today. Only about 1/2 the intensity of the control line. So I used the 2nd FRER from the box this morning, thinking it would be blaring + and its only about the same as yesterday, even with FMU. Before I tested yesterday, I was pretty sure it would be neg as I had the feeling AF was starting, with some period like cramping...but mixed with a bit of nausea, so I decided to test anyway. I don't know if it will do any good to go in for BETA testing though, as last time that didn't matter anyway.
Sorry for the long novel, I guess I just wanted some reassurance that a lighter FRER test doesn't mean its over.
Here's the pic of yesterday's test: (todays looks just the same) Is this a light line for 14 dpo?