Well first ill start with the most important.
Cash: He is doing good, billirubin has stayin the normal range for the past 4 days, he is a great nurser and loves to eat. He got out of the incubator today so im really hoping he is able to keep his temp regulated and the neo said that if he can then he will be home thursday or friday so im really hoping hes able to. I have faith he can cause hes so awesome. I am at the hospital constantly with him until night time when they tell me to leave and get some rest they should be moving him to a ped's room and letting me stay one night with him but im not sure if thats going to happen or not or if he will just come home with me. The only concern now is the weight thing. He eats a lot and sometimes he doesnt know when to stop so he will end up spitting up some so i really need to learn when he is full so he wont have to spit some up. He was born at 5 10, dropped down to 5 2 in a couple days then went up to 5 3 in 12 hours then 12 hours later was an even 5 so he isnt getting enough calories from my breast milk. I asked the LC if there was anything to do to bump up the calories in my milk that may have been a dumb question but i asked anyways. So the answer is no there isnt anything i can do. But she did tell me the hind milk has more calories in it so if i pump an ounce out before i breastfeed then he will just be getting the slightly higher calorie milk so im going to try that. In my opinion I think he lost the weight because they changed his feeding schedule from every 3 hours to every 4 hours and since he is so small i think he needs to be fed every 3 hours again and maybe if he wants snacks inbetween then they should give it to him. The neo wants to supplement with e22 in my breast milk when they feed him from the bottle at night. I rather not have to do that but if thats what best then of course i wouldnt fuss over it.
Me: Im still recovering, pain is a little less but the swelling increased and its hard for me to get around. I love breastfeeding I think its wonderful and im so glad him and I can have that bonding. Im so exhausted after every feeding and I was told that its from the hormones and the breastfeeding that make me feel sedated almost. I have the house clean and his room ready for him. Im just ready to be with my baby again its been so hard for me having to be away from him. Im definitely anxious for thrusday or friday.
DH: Things have been alright. He isnt understanding the way I feel about being seperated from cash. We have been distant with eachother and I can tell hes really hurt by it and last night he confessed his undying love for me and cash and how thats all he wants in this world is to be a family. We will see. I havent been home much and wes doesnt go to the hospital very often. While I was in the hospital he would come once a day for 45 min and there was a day where he just he didnt come at all. After cash gets out of the hospital and cleared from his ped he and I will be going to the west coast for 3 weeks to be with family. There isnt any arguing theres just a lot of distance in between us.