Thanks again ladies. I know it's not good to get all wrapped up in guilt. I've been trying to shift gears into more back positive thinking (which I've been able to do most of the pregnancy). It's just hard to know that we got so lucky with DD hardly having any issues (losing lots of weight in the hospital/not wanting to eat much, jaundice) but those were nothing on what could have happened.
I try to just tell myself that this little guy will be different. I know he'll be just fine whenever he's born, and I'm hoping my intuition is correct in that he'll be bigger then his sister which should make things easier overall.
I can relate to the guilty feelings. I'm sitting here at 32 weeks WISHING baby would just come because I've started having a lot of pain and they don't know what's causing it. I'm having major guilt, because I know my baby isn't ready and she's totally healthy baking. It's a really selfish wish. I feel like a horrible mother. Both to my daughter who I can barely hold now because of the pain and I only get to see for a few hours everyday and to my little girl that's just hanging in there as best she can.
Try not to feel guilty. It's normal to want baby out when you're not doing so hot. I know I need to take a little of my own advice too, I'm struggling with it. But hoping baby comes at full term, but ASAP is definitely not a bad thing.
I'm so sorry you're in pain Cindy. As if you need that on top of the stress of hospital bed rest. I think a lot of my anxieties about giving birth if he came early are surrounding getting DD to my in-laws and all of that. We have a plan in place but when I'm in labor I don't like to be around anyone but my husband and my medical team just so I can focus through the pain. I also can't imagine how hard it must be for you being unable to interact with your oldest DD while you're taking care of your littlest by being on rest. You're doing fantastic and I hope this all goes by quickly for you. Thinking of you!