I was just wondering if anyone here has a fear (phobia) of puking.
I didn't realize how much I do until last Friday when I almost passed out while having a panic attack when the nausea took over and I knew I was going to puke. I couldn't breath because of the panic. The thought of puking scares me to death. I hate it. I hate the act of it. I am scared to leave my house when I think I might be sick. I don't like going anywhere unless there is a toilet in site at all times.
DH doesn't get it and just says, do it and get it over with as you will feel better after. But I'm so scared of doing it that I wait as long as possible hoping it will go away. It was so bad last Friday that I was sitting on the bathroom floor shaking from the panic, just waiting for it to happen, but scared to let it happen at the same time.
I'm having a bad day today. I haven't puked so far (and not since last Friday) but the excessive saliva and nausea is really starting to get the better of me and I'm having a mini-panic attack at my desk. Neither washroom on my floor are near my desk at work. The closer one is more public and I'm afraid of people hearing me throw up. The one that's more empty/private is a little farther down the hall in the other direction but I'm scared if I go that way, I won't make it. When I need to throw up it hits me and I have seconds before it comes up. And I take forever to throw up. My stomach doesn't stop until it's empty, which can include many many heaves to empty it and often quite a bit of dry heaving after. And it always goes up my nose too...and I start crying and shaking uncontrollably after.... not fun.
I broke down and chewed a stick of gum, even though it has aspartame, because I was desperate to get rid of the excessive saliva.
I think the fear comes from being very prone to stomach viruses as a kid. I would get the stomach flu all the time, especially in summer. I would puke for 24 hrs straight, then only after that feel better. It was horrid. I hated it. Throwing up in a bucket on the floor that my mom would leave for me "just in case". I was the only one in my family who ever got sick like that.
It also comes from throwing up in public twice as a child/early teen. Once in a grocery store, right in the meat department, and once was in a Canadian Tire (it's a Home Depot type store) in the tire section. To this day, the smell of tires still makes me sick. It was so embarrassing that I think it's a huge contributor to me being afraid to puke now. And I feel sorry for the staff who had to clean it up....
Because my sister's wedding is Saturday and I'm a bridesmaid, I'm going to ask my GP tomorrow about getting a prescription for something. Just to take the edge off as I will need it the next few days. I don't want to end up puking at the front of the church in front of 50 people!
Asking for a script can't hurt! Zofran or Phenergan may help. Both have a common side effect of drowsiness/sedation, though, so just be aware of that whenever you take it.
Would sucking on hard candy help? Peppermint, lozenge, or even the stuff targeted for pregnant people- preggo pops (or maybe preggie pops?).
As far as the puking phobia.. I'm not sure how to get around that one. You definitely have good cause for your anxiety.. does it pop up in other areas of life? That is, would it be worth talking to the doc about some sort of anxiety med? Just a thought.
Hope you start feeling better so it becomes a non-issue!
preggie pops? i don't have a fear of puking. its more like "well... if you insist on watching" when i was pregnant with #1 i'd stop and puke in the bushes while i walked home if i wasnt going to make it... yeah, it was that bad. my daughter likes to pat my head and tell me i'll feel better while i puke. my son... is a sympathetic puker... so he's not allowed in the bathroom. if he sees me do it, he will do it automatically.
Zofran definitely doesn't knock me out the way that Phenergan does. Zofran is a miracle worker except for the side effect of constipation. I didn't poop for a week last pregnancy. Unfortunately it doesn't work as well this pregnancy... but I try to use it sparingly. I'm sorry you have a total phobia. It does offer some relief though. I feel much better when I actually throw up rather than just feel nauseous. I hate throwing up though and typically cry afterwards.
hang in there
zofran and phenergan work in very different ways. zofran will not knock you out. phenergan will most of the time. the chemicals they are comprised of work on different parts of your system.
I used to be like you - afraid to puke - until I got pregnant the first time and had hypermiesis gravidarium. I learned to welcome puking since it usually meant I would feel better for a little while. I have been so nauseated this time, but not able to actually puke and that looming, dizzy, think you're going to puke stage is FAR worse than just getting it over with. After a week or so I was a puking champ letting it all out 3-6 times a day. It lasted into my 6th month before I was fully done puking.
Reglan worked well for me. It takes a couple of days to start working cause it changes the way your body digests food, but once it kicked in, it was a life saver!
I have the same phobia issues... but it also takes effect if someone else throws up, if I hear someone throw up on TV, or if I even READ that someone is nauseous (with the exception of pregnancy nausea). I get instant diarrhea and upset stomach, and panic attack when the triggers are present.
Reglan is a prescription, it's also a galactagouge (helps increase breast milk supply after baby comes).
I've also heard that Unisom and Vitamin B6 help with MS. I assume you are on vitamins? Maybe need more B6?
Janelle and Brad 8-25-01
Lets see if this works. My phone hasn't been working for posting all week.
At my appt with my GP last week I broke down and asked for something. Diclectin is the only anti-nauseant approved for pregnant women in Canada. It's almost like Unisom. I feel like a new person. It works really well! I can eat real food again and I feel almost back to normal. I notice that as soon as I am late for a dose, I start feeling unwell again so I guess it's working.
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