DH and i recently discussed adding baby #3 to our family. unfortunatly we've had some strange things happen at our house, we have 4 long term "guests" right now.... we bought our house barely 6 months ago, and have several repair projects that need to be completed before next year. His hours at work are at a temporary low, my hours at work are at an all-time high, the head start we send our daughter to is losing funding, we have some sudden new repairs to make to our vehicles..... its all getting really crazy!
and today i saw 2 pink lines. due january 15th, 1 week before our oldest, DD, turns 5.
i'm mostly in shock right now. i don't really "feel" all that pregnant yet. i was nauseus with both the other 2 before i even tested, and i'm nauseus, but not in an "obvious" way like i was with the other 2.
now i'm worried that this one will end in loss, we lost our first pregnancy at 6 weeks, before getting DD. i worry that i will have complications and need to be off work and we will have trouble paying our bills. i worry about the new insurance laws going into effect soon. i worry that people won't get out of my house. i'm worried about my van getting fixed, i'm worried about the crazy-steep stairs at my house! i'm worried about the lack of insulation in the wall by the window on the north side of the upstairs.
and i'm SOOOOO everloving happy too! damn biological clock was ticking away in my head... saying DD would be 5 and DS would be 3 before they got a sibling. wondering if DS would ever be a big brother. wondering if i would be healthy enough to have another if i waited til after 30 (i'm 27).... this is the first one we haven't tried all that hard for! just 2 months of pulling the goalie (we stopped using condoms) and BAM! with the other 2 we tried for 7 months... then finally added vitex and mucinex .... and i started wishing on stars!
not sure to be ecstatic or freaked out, but i'm pretty sure that in about 4 weeks i'll be too nauseus to do either LOL!