2ww stinks!

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megeyre's picture
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2ww stinks!

So the 2ww has been somewhat bearable this month UNTIL I got a phone call today from my RE.

She said my progesterone level was 10 a week after I O'd. So this is good because it means I definitely O'd but my RE likes to see levels of at least 12 so I'm feeling discouraged.

The nurse was so sweet, still saying there is definitely a change I'm preggers, but just talking about the changes they are going to make to my meds next month if I'm not preggers is killing me. Staying pessimistic though our TTC has been relatively easy for me but after today I'm starting to go to the sad place again. I start thinking "What if I can't get pregnant off of just meds and trigger shots? Can we afford IVF? Can I handle the emotional journey of IVF? What if I can't get pregnant at all?" This plain stinks sometimes. Sorry for being a Debbie Downer but we're not sharing our TTC journey with anyone close to us so I had to vent. The witch needs to stay away and Sunday needs to get here fast!

glwolf's picture
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im so sorry that has got to be so hard! i can't even imagine how hard that is and what you must be going through. I wish i had some words of wisdom but i don't. I'm glad that they are monitoring you so close and staying on top of adjusting your meds. it helps at least! you will get pregnant and I will throw you some baby dust that it will be this week! *baby dust to you*!!!!!

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Meg :bigarmhug: I'm totally with you on it, and I know hard it is to keep positive through all this craziness. I've had the same doubts as we've gone through this IUI process about what if it doesn't work? do I really want to do IVF? am I up to that emotionally and physically? will it work anyway? This process (and all the hormones that go with it) can sure make a girl feel depressed and crazy. :confused: This has been a long, hard, frustrating journey, and you absolutely have to vent sometimes (that's what we're all here for!)

All I can say is that we can only take it one day at a time (and I know it's hard when THEY are already talking about the next cycle, when you are focused on THIS one working.) And know that there are lots of people here sending positive, sticky thoughts in your direction! I believe you WILL get that BFP...SOON!

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I'm sorry sweetie! I can't imagine what you're going through but don't lose hope! Tons of baby dust your way and hoping the witch stays away!! Come on BFP!!

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I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through such a rough time. I know how you feel to a point. It's just so frustrating to feel all the things we feel and to put your body through such a rough time only to find out you're not pregnant over and over and over again. I can only imagine how frustrated you must be since you've been trying for so long. I hope that this month is your BFP! I'll be sending lots of baby dust and sticky vibes your way! And feel free to vent all you need to sweetie! We understand the emotional roller coaster that this takes us on and we completely understand the need to vent. It's especially hard when you can't share it with anyone close to you. DH and I are keeping the fact that we're TTC a secret from most of our family and friends so I know how hard it is to not be able to talk to someone about it. Good luck sweetie! I'll be thinking about you and keeping my fingers crossed!

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"Leah261" wrote:

I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through such a rough time. I know how you feel to a point. It's just so frustrating to feel all the things we feel and to put your body through such a rough time only to find out you're not pregnant over and over and over again. I can only imagine how frustrated you must be since you've been trying for so long. I hope that this month is your BFP! I'll be sending lots of baby dust and sticky vibes your way! And feel free to vent all you need to sweetie! We understand the emotional roller coaster that this takes us on and we completely understand the need to vent. It's especially hard when you can't share it with anyone close to you. DH and I are keeping the fact that we're TTC a secret from most of our family and friends so I know how hard it is to not be able to talk to someone about it. Good luck sweetie! I'll be thinking about you and keeping my fingers crossed!

Amen to that! Vent away for sure! I know exactly what you are talking about. We arent telling our family cuz I Know they would give us a hard time about trying for another. We have told some friends but i still can't really talk to them about it cuz they don't really want to hear about it since they aren't going through it. I told 2 people, one who is going through a divorce and the other has a heart defect from birth and is not able to get pregnant so i can't talk to her about it since it's a sore subject with her anyway.

Good luck for this month!!!!! I have a feeling this will be a good month for alot of us :):D

megeyre's picture
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Thanks for all the encouraging words ladies! You all rock! :p:p:p

I had a better day today emotionally. AF hasn't showed yet so that's always a good sign. Smile I'm staying positive and thinking that if this isn't our month then maybe next month will be!

Leah261's picture
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Meg, when are you planning to test? I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you!

megeyre's picture
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I'll be testing on Sunday as long as AF doesn't show. I'm 10 DPO now but I have to wait until 14 DPO since I took a trigger shot that contains HGC and testing now could give me a false positive. I want to test so bad today but I have to be patient! There would be nothing worse than a false positive :confused:

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Good luck sweetie! Yes there's definitely nothing worse than a false positive. It'd be so heartbreaking. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you and praying for you girl! Good luck!