*Copied from September*
So, today Alyssa went in for her checkup, she's 6 weeks old now, where'd time go?? Anyways, she doesn't need to go back for another 2 months, unless we have concerns, my nurse practitioner's pretty easy going in that sense :). She's about 9lbs 15ozs and I forget how long she is lol, but she's growing great and no concerns at all :D.
I asked some questions on myself, because things just didn't seem right. From my middle of my belly to the left side is mild pain, but the right side still hurts pretty good and I have the pinchy/pully feelings, PLUS the pelvic pain came back :eek:. I had it when pregnant with both Hailey and Alyssa but it was gone right after birth - it was because of the pressure they were putting on my pelvis, but I don't gotta really explain that, I remember most of the board having that lol. Anyways, a couple weeks ago the pain came back, well I can assure you there's NOT a baby in there pushing in on my pelvic bones LOL! So she had me get on the bed and she checked me over and yep, got hit with a bombshell :confused:. Looks like I have an ingrown hernia and have to go back in to get cut open "ohhhhhhhh joy!", get it repaired, then start this damn healing process all over again!!!! She was pushing in and it was really sore, and she showed me the space (ie, HOLE) with her fingers, it's quite large actually and she said she should NOT be able to do that :eek:. So now, I need to schedule an ultrasound, then book an appt with a specialist, and go from there, but she's pretty sure I'm going back in because that's what it feels like to her.
Anyone who knows me and how I felt about having to be cut open in the first place and with having so little time to think/prepare for it to have Alyssa knows I didn't cope very well with it, being cut open was one of my biggest fears, and still is, and I was NOT prepared to go back and do it all over again this soon. IF we ever had another baby and if for some reason a VBAC wasn't in our favour, then we could prepare better, kwim? But that choice wouldn't be for a few years kwim (probably not, but we're not doing anything permanent till we're sure, though I"m sure people would really talk about us with 6 kids after going through this hell ), and now I have to do it all over again. I only just started briefly lifting/carrying Hailey - I've been paranoid about doing much, and it's been not so bad, but going up the stairs (did this twice only) didn't go so well, so now I"ve been given orders NOT to lift her at all, or very little if I have to, and she even told me as we were leaving she wasn't sure I should even be carrying Alyssa's carseat so I had to hand her over to Bruce :(.
All I want is to heal up, be pain free, and get over this. I thought for sure by now I would have been pain free etc, but now this, and honestly, it's a bit much :confused:. Hubby is now out of work for at least another 2 months, and while he's entitled to 35 weeks paid parental leave, he was looking forward to getting back to work within the next couple weeks. But, can't have him go to work when I"ve been given orders of no lifting, and we have no one to come and help, so oh well, guess I should enjoy bossing him around some more huh?
Oh and on another note, Alyssa is smiling a little bit now! Hubby got real big smiles from her last night, I got a little one "captured it too" then this morning before we left I got some big ones, but she was done and got fussy by the time I got the camera lol. I also have our pics back from when I took her to get them done, but I will post some later, they're on my laptop at the moment.
Hope all is well with everyone! I try and lurk, but seems I don't have the time to post and reply to everyone. Will try and post more, she's sleeping at the moment so that's why I was able to type so much lol.