So I started off really feeling like I wanted to b.f. with Grace. I only b.f. both my boys for about 6 weeks or so. I thought I was really going to try and like it this time and I did/do(ish).
Well, around 6 weeks or so, I (we) started supplementing with formula here and there. Mostly only if we were out to dinner or at a place I didn't feel comfortable b.f.ing in. Then it slowly progressed to me feeding her more and more formula-even though I had the opportunity to b.f. Grace. (Damn you, free cans of formula!!!) Now it's to the point where I'm only b.f.ing maybe 2-3 times a day. I am feeling overly guilty...mostly b/c d/h is really ALL for b.f.ing... With Cash (d/s 1) He had a way of making me feel super guilty about my decision to switch to formula...I just never felt whatever it is that some people feel about b.f.ing. and now I'm feeling like...I don't know...on the fence. Do I continue and just really up my supply- pumping/strict b.f.ing or do I quit? I just can't make up my mind. I don't want to disappoint my husband and I feel like I'm in a way- giving up on my baby girl- even though I know that's totally irrational thinking. She just doesn't at all seem satisfied with my breastmilk anymore. She eats for a few minutes, then pulls off then back on, then off etc. In a way it's easier on me to formula feed b/c it seems to keep her full longer- which is a Godsend with 2 other very active young children. I just don't know what to do.
I guess I just needed to vent a little...Thanks for reading ladies.
E.T.A : Also- A.F. returned this week...is that normal? Even though I'm still making milk/b.f.ing here and there?