I am sorry I have been so absent since Tanner has been born. I have been somewhat depressed. I do not think it is because of postpartum depression. Just things that have happened. Doctor troubles mostly, but also issues with dehydration.
First of all, my OB dropped me from her practice for having a homebirth I can understand her point of view, but I believe she handled it very unprofessionally, and it had me so down for a while. I am starting to get to the point it doesn't bother me as much now. She knew I was planning a homebirth if I felt I could. We had numerous conversations about it. And the thing that really upset me was that I had to resort to making a visit to her office in order to get them to talk to me. I had been trying to get them to schedule Tanner's circumcision, which she had said she would do as outpatient if I had him at home, yes we had that conversation too! But they had kinda put me off a couple times and then stopped answering my calls!! I mean come on, yes I can understand why you don't want me as a patient anymore, but have a little professionalism, please!
She finally did schedule it, and she seemed fine when I talked to her, so I really REALLY do not understand the whole situation
And then we have our family practitioner, who I was going to take Tanner to, instead of a pediatrician, just because I love my family doctor. I really do despise her office though and I have been reminded why now! I called the Tuesday after Tanner was born (he was born on Memorial Day weekend, remember!) and attempted to make an appt for him. Well, the lady was an IDIOT! Seriously. And I do not call people that lightly. I mean it took her three times of me saying my doctor'sname to get which dr I was wanting. Then she said my dr wasnt taking new patients. Even though my whole family are her patients, and I had already asked her to take Tanner and she had told me she would. Which I tried explaining to that girl, but she would hear none of it and insisted on calling the dr. Which was fine, when she called back she said she would take him (Of course!) and then proceeded to make his first appt for when he was 17!! days old!! WHAT?? I tried to tell her that I thought the dr would really want to see him at least by a week, but she absolutely refused.
So I gave up, and made the appt for last Monday. Well then. The dr office called and CANCELLED THE APPT!!! Grrrrrr.
I immediately made an appt with a ped. that the ladies at WIC had recommended. And we went Tuesday and I LOVE HIM! YAY
Unfortunately, Tanner hasn't gained back up to his birth weight yet.
The reason is because I was severely (at least I think) dehydrated when Tanner was two weeks old. I nearly lost my milk, I think. I know he wasn't getting enough because he was so fussy, and not peeing as much as he had been. So anyhow, I have been working on getting myself hydrated and staying that way (for some reason it has been difficult.) and building my milk supply back up.
I had similar problem after Kela was born. I ended up giving her formula on occasion and she was also a fussy baby for a while.
The dehydration has caused me problems with severe constipation and impacted bowels
I am getting better now. But I hurt my perineum It feels like I may have re-torn it. Luckily it isn't too bad and is already healing, because I obviously cannot go back to my OB now
The midwives had been very helpful, but also unfortunately, they both had vacations and the one's mama died, right in the middle of my crisis
Anyhow, if you read all that, thank you. And please don't be like my family and blame all my problems on me and my choices!! It depresses me!