Everyone warned me about emotional states after having baby but I honestly never thought I'd have to deal with it. Don't get me wrong, I love my baby more than anything, but I've been having a rough time. I find myself having teary breakdowns daily, I can't sleep, I have no appetite. I miss being pregnant. I have terrible jealousy when other people hold Daniel. I went to the store to pick up a father's day cake and had a total panic attack because I was away from my baby. Baby Daniel makes me so unbelievably happy but when I have moments to myself I get so sad and I'm not entirely sure why I feel sadness.
Another issue, I've held my tongue over it, but I'm so tired of having company. People are here constantly, as soon as someone leaves, somebody else shows up and I'm not the type to start confrontation. My family has been outstanding, they know me so well and they know I'm tired and emotional, they atleast limit their visits and call first, they offer to help with chores and running to the store. I love our friends and I love Nick's family, but I need a break! I know everyone's excited and they want to spend time with baby but I'm just not up to entertaining company right now.
All I want is to spend time with Nick and my baby. Alone. As a family.
I think it'd really help me to de-stress and handle my emotions better.