When I start to have irrational fears about something being wrong. I have to get used to the fact that Kong is often very quiet/still when I first wake up... it obviously takes him/her a while to wake up with me, but s/he always ends up kicking around a few minutes after I'm fully awake. But this morning I totally was like, "s/he's too still! Something is wrong!"
And then later, I went shopping and I had DD in a ring sling on my hip for a while, and afterward I had some super weird pains... freaked out again!
Then this afternoon all of a sudden I swear my belly felt smaller. TOTALLY irrational.
I'm not due for another doc appt until the end of next week, but I think I will go early the next week (so like on the 27th) so I can see the doc I like. Honestly, I also am really looking forward to just being back in the States- I will probably feel more settled then, because if something were to happen now here, I'd end up in Bangkok which is not what I want. But I guess, I also feel like I'm just ready for those more frequent appts as well... it's weird- for as much as I'm a low-intervention kind of mamma when it comes to labor and birth, I like having frequent check-ups during pregnancy, even though, rationally, I know that everything is fine, and I don't really have any reason to worry. Maybe I'm also feeling anxious because I still haven't met the midwife that will care for me and baby for the last 1/3 of my pregnancy.
Like I said... mostly irrational... and I hate it! I hate worrying for no good reason.