I really feel like I just have to accept that I'm out. I know it's possible to get a BFP later but I just don't think it's going to happen for me. I think AF is just later because I'm on Clomid this time. I wasn't going to test again until tomorrow but I dreamed about it all night so I woke up and decided to try again today since I didn't test yesterday and another BFN. No sign whatsoever of a line as far as I can tell, and if there is anything there it's way too faint to count. My boobs are really sore and I'm having some more slight cramps so I think AF is probably on the way but just later this time thanks to the Clomid. Being 14DPO I'd be really shocked if I didn't start in the next day or two. I guess if I haven't started by Friday or something I might test again or call the doc. I'm really thinking of calling the doc anyway to get a refill on Clomid for next time but I don't know if they'll let me refill it if I haven't started yet though obviously I wouldn't take it unless I had.
On top of feeling sad about all this crap today my mom had to put one of our childhood pets to sleep today. It was time and he was really really sick and it got to the point that he was starting to suffer so it was absolutely the right thing to do but it made us all really sad of course. And then I thought maybe something yummy for dinner would make me feel the tiniest bit better and when I asked my husband if we could get something he said no and sounded all mad...so I got off the phone with him and just came home from work all sad and crying. Makes me think AF is definitely on the way. Of course I'm sad about my cat but for something my husband says that doesn't relate to trigger it makes me think maybe there's some pms in there after all.
Hopefully it won't be too much longer before we succeed but at least I know if it is I have a great place to talk to people until it does. Thanks for everything ladies.