Seriously, I'm a mess!

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Seriously, I'm a mess!

I've been hit by the hormone truck.... fallen out of the hormone tree, and hit every branch on the way down.... I am NOT coping.

I have cried like 3 times in the last two days, and it's been like SOBBING. I almost TOTALLY lost it on DD last night (bedtime, she was being COMPLETELY unreasonable), and I seriously had to put her down and walk away before I did something I would regret. And then I regretted it even though I didn't even do it, and sat and held her and cried in her hair for like a good 1/2 hour after she fell asleep. Sad

I've never wanted to be anything as much as I wanted to be a mother... but it is totally taking it out of me. And I still wouldn't change anything... I want to continue to be a SAHM, and I want more kids... but these last few days have me stepping back and wondering if I shouldn't be committed and have my tubes tied at the same time. Sad

My DH is out of town right now, but my ILs are here- a total God send. It just worked out this way that he had a school trip during the time they planned to be here. Not so good for them (as they don't get to see their son as much), but wonderful for me, for as much as they are helping me, etc. But I guess I also feel like I have to prove something to them, or can't show them my cracks or something... so it's taking it out of me even more to try to be on good behavior with them, or something.

Is it just me?

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Hmmm....guess it is just me???

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i would say me too but breaking my foot had good reason for going off the deep end. i know how you feel though. granted our situations are different but emotional rollercoaster the last week, my brother was released from prison, havent spoke to him in 5 years, broke my foot but most of all broke down at work the day before.

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I have less patience with my toddler, but in general I'm not experiencing it yet. I'm already an irrational mess to begin with so there isn't much room for pregnancy mess.

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Sorry you are having a hard time! I am not super emotion right now just super crabby! Every little thing makes me angry and annoyed with everyone! I am trying to be extra patient with the kiddos and take it out on everyone else Smile Some times I just need a break but I am with them 24/7.

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I'm not TOO hormonal right now, but I was for a while. I think it comes and goes in waves... I definitely wouldn't make any decisions right now. You seem like a good momma, everyone has their days where it is just overwhelming. Beni is just a toddler too... they know how to push your buttons. More times than I'd like to admit I've had to leave DD in her room and just walk away, or turn her over to her dad because I just COULD NOT handle it anymore.. and I wasn't even pregnant! Huge hugs, it will all be okay.

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I am there with you. The last few weeks have been more than I can handle. School is kicking my butt, I am tired all the time still. Work has been crazy and I have been spotting off and on. I am almost convinced that the DR's office could care less. Many nights I have cried myself to sleep and I am ready for this child to be born.

It will get better!

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"wlillie" wrote:

I have less patience with my toddler, but in general I'm not experiencing it yet. I'm already an irrational mess to begin with so there isn't much room for pregnancy mess.

I think that is part of my problem.... but, it seems to have gotten infinitely worse in the last two days!

I just spent 2 hours on skype with my mom and that helped a lot. I miss my family. Had a good cry, and got some good mamma lovin which nothing else can replace.

I'm glad no one else has it as bad as me! I wouldn't wish this on anyone!

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I've been hit by the hormone truck too. You aren't alone. I have been crying all the time and telling my husband he isn't supportive enough and that I can't cope with his being gone all the time. Ugh. It's embarrassing. Hang in there!

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I was a bigger mess a few weeks back...so in comparison...things seem mild now Smile That being said...I think we all have days when its easy to question everything!! But you will see...you are soo going to do great with as many kids as your heart wants. Really!! I dont even let me mind go to not succeeding as a parent to 9....I mean I might have it cross my mind....but the answer is...I will do it well because there is NO alternative!! My kids are too important! Smile You will be great!!!

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You are most definitely not alone in how you're feeling. I stopped wearing any makeup because of my frequent emotional melt downs about everything. It seems like things come and go, but I'm always feeling overwhelmed about something. During the week, it's school. By the time I get home with the boys, I get 2 hours of crabby/naughty time and they go to bed. It gets really draining! DH goes out of town for 4-5 days, about once per month, and I always have a really tough time with it. Hang in there!

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"wlillie" wrote:

I have less patience with my toddler, but in general I'm not experiencing it yet. I'm already an irrational mess to begin with so there isn't much room for pregnancy mess.

This is me exactly. I not all sappy but rather I can be irrational and grumpy. I don't like it. I actually had to travel this past week for 4 days, it helped to realign my attitude and I came back less pissy. I've realized that I it doesn't help anything when I have little patience with my toddler, so I'm trying to focus on eing a little better!!

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I was a wreck a few weeks ago, but I seem to be going back to my usual self, except for the belly and the achy back. I was pretty impatient with DS for a while and was probably not the most fun mom to have for a while there. Feeling better now I think. It is extra hard now when DH is gone. We just need more breaks and rest time than we used to, and that is impossible with a toddler in the mix! Your daughter knows how much you love her, and kids are resilient...she will get over being grumped at a few times by her crabbier than usual mommy. I have actually talked to DS about it, about how the baby in my tummy sometimes makes me tired and cranky and it isn't his fault. Seems to help him understand a little bit.