Definitely not fun to feel sad, but thanks to you ladies, you make me feel normal
I'm just so easily irritated or sad or whatever right now and it feels like everyone wants me to be "normal". I would really like for them to leave me alone, lol!
Other than DS, he's been so sweet. He gives me kisses and covers me with a special red blanket of his that he says will make mommy feel better. I try not to cry in front of him, but he's caught me a few times. Love that little boy.
Noelle, honestly, hormone wise, I don't know why the last few weeks of pregnancy are never really discussed as a "rough time." It's always been the worst time emotionally for me. First trimester is never particularly different for me, and yes, I'm a little on edge just after the birth for a week or two, but the last few weeks are SOOOOO bad compared to any other time. I guess the good news is that it doesn't mean you will have ppd or anything like that. It simply means that right now things are rough, but recognizing what's going on should at least help some.
There are so many scary things about the last few weeks! How will labor go? What of baby has a health issue the ultrasound didnt detect? What if I can't reach my babysitter for the older kids? What if baby is fussy? How is our family going to change? What if I need an intervention I don't want? What if I want an epidural and can't get one? And on and on and on. It's a wonder we aren't all sobbing and having panic attacks 24/7. It's a pretty intense time. It's all so close to being real and it's all so out of our control. But I remember after Lucas having a big huge cry of relief. And then I was fine.
Tori was a different story but our situation at the time was bad. It was the perfect storm of all the causes of PPD rolled into one. We were so young, only married two years when she was born and basically just out of college. We had no money, we were in a new city and I had no friends. My MIL refused to help me because I quit my job to stay home and that was lazy. With all the health issues I was not able to breast feed, it just wasn't an option and the guilt was awful. And Tori wouldn't stop crying. And I didn't know it at the time but my thyroid was completely out of whack.
But I was never sad during the pregnancy. In fact, I was so sick the whole time, I expected the PP time to be smooth sailing. And it definitely wasn't. So I definitely agree that being sad now doesn't mean you will fall apart after.
But if you DO, it's ok and there's no shame in it. I sure wish someone had told me that!
What Rachelle said about the last weeks is SO true. So many things are out of our control. I'm normally a bit of a planner so it's hard for me to let go. I'm having an easier time this go-round but with DD I was a wreck. Well, once the c-section was planned with her I was less stressed because I had a date...but I still worried about my water breaking EVERY time I left the house. This time I don't much think about it.
Anyways, I hope things start looking up. Just remember, we don't have to figure everything out today and that some of the things you feel you NEED to get done before baby comes can actually wait. Life will go one once the wee one is here.