I'm feeling down again. Ugh. I'd pay any amount of money to not feel this way.
DD has been a brute today. Purposely doing what she's told not to do and then laughing at me when I tell her she is making me sad. She refused to say thank you to hubby when he did 2 nice things for her and still expects a cookie. When we said no cookie she cried and carried on about it for HOURS.
On top of it all I've left the house twice in the last 2+ weeks. Once to go to the hospital and the second time to sneak out to the BBQ I went to. I'm feeling cabin fever. The worse part of it is that I don't even have the energy to do anything if I were allowed. I have an episiotomy. I have hemorrhoids. I have a cracked nipple. I have two aching breasts. I can't feel when I have to pee. Yesterday I developed a cough that makes me episiotomy hurt. I scream in pain when DS latches onto my left breast. The list goes on.
I really feel like I can't catch a break. I know this will pass...but today sucks.
I want to go have my bath in epsom salts but DS has been asleep so long that I know he'll wake the second I get in the tub...but if I wake him now he might not go to sleep and my bath might be totally out. Not like he can fit any of my massive nipples in his mouth anyways when he does wake.
Oh man, I hope tomorrow is a happier day.