Hi yas. I'm Kristine, first time pregnancy. I was told I was infertile with my ex, so this has been quite the emotional roller coaster. I wanted kids, but in the future when I was done traveling and selfishly spending money and using my own time, and I was planning on adopting older more self sufficient kids.
I've only been with my boyfriend 3months and he is supporting me, but he isn't really quite sure how involved he wants to be. We're taking this day by day and emotion by emotion. And he is being very supportive despite his own hesitations.
Please don't judge me... If abortion was even the smallest possibility for me I don't know that I'd follow through on the pregnancy... But it's not for me. I was a runner... I can't really do that bc I get sick when I run, and keep blacking out, plus my pace has slowed by over 2minutes a mile. I feel like there's nothing but a list of foods I can't eat and what I can eat I just feel sick... Except hot pockets. Can't live on them.
I love my nieces, I love kids. But I also love my freedom. I'm a pediatric ICU nurse so all I can imagine is all the defects that my kid can be born with, the complications, the horrors, because frankly its all I see.
.... Venting helped a little.... Keep in mind I'm at work writing this, and crying naturally... And I still haven't told anyone here. Just not ready to tell people when I don't know where I stand on it.
Is this normal? I feel like nothing is normal anymore....