I know I haven't been very active, and I'm not sure if it's cause I had a premonition or just wasn't feeling up to it. I've been thinking about you all recently, but never got around to updating. We were away for Thanksgiving for almost two weeks and I just started a new part-time job last week.
So, I lost the baby. I started bleeding last weekend and didn't have a good feeling about it. I tried not to freak out, it wasn't a ton, but enough to be concerned about. I waited till Monday to call the doctor's office and they had me come in that afternoon. By then, I wasn't bleeding very much, so I was feeling ok about it. Well, the doctor did an ultrasound and I could tell almost immediately there was something wrong. There was no heartbeat. I should have been 10w6d and he said the baby was only measuring 7 weeks.
Monday night was pretty rough, DH and I mourned our loss together. The hardest part for me was trying to decide how to handle it, pills at home or D&C. Luckily, I didn't have to make that decision. Things happened naturally yesterday. I'm feeling fine today. It's still a little emotional, but overall I feel okay with it. As I was researching on the internet, I read a statistic that said 1 in 4 pregnancies end in a miscarriage. This was my 4th pregnancy, so I make a pretty good statistic. I feel so fortunate to have had three pregnancies with no complications. I think DH and I are in a good place. When he got home, I was in tears and said, "So now what?" and he said, "Well, we try again." So there's your answer. We will probably be trying again fairly soon. I'm glad that the only people we told was our immediate family because I am NOT looking forward to having to tell them this.
I wish the rest of you the best of luck!! I will probably be checking back in occasionally to see how you're all doing. Take care. Rachel