I'm reading Ina Mays Guide to Childbirth which I realize is supposed to leave me all empowered and excited but it is stressing me out more and more. I never felt this stressed about Tori or Lucas. You'd think I'd be all confident having done this before but I'm actually getting worse.
Am I approaching this wrong? I have the world's biggest fear of a c/s. you just have no idea how the thought terrifies me. I am a sloooooooow healer. If I were sliced open, it would take so long for me to recover. I can't even fathom. For my gallbladder surgery, I had four incisions, one inch each. I couldn't even take the tape off for eight weeks.
I thought this book would help me find peace but its making everything worse. I know that unless I find a way to regain some peace and confidence, I could very well end up in surgery. Even with the best OB in town who has the lowest c/a rate. My first two were born vaginally without issue so why I am so scared this time???