SO DH is being oh so helpful since he's sick. (yet its ok that IM sick too!) He refuses to go to the dr and is complaining he's been sick for almost a month. I have been tellin ghim to go to the dr for at least 2-3 weeks now. so now Im getting whatever it is he has. AND Im falling farther and farther behind at home and at work. so today when I needed to be working on schoolwork so I DONT have to bring it home He decides to rearrange the living room, needs me to take down my tree that hasnt been touched because its snow and not "christmas' because he wants to rearrange... (and if I had told him to do it I'd have ended up with broken ornaments). All while occupying the incredibly grumpy 3 yr old, and freezing bc DH is keeping hte house at 64. (take your dang sweatshirt off and the rest of us can be warm!) DS ended up wakign me up i the middle of hte night again so I didnt get sleep, however thankfully I did get him to go back to his own bed... but then I had DH snoring in my ear all night. So he kindly let me "sleep in" which I totally could not do because he had the tv BLARING and the 3 yr old was screaming to be heard over it. Did I mention everytime I start working on something he needs me to help with something else. then gets mad when I get irritated. he promised he'd not take his nap until DS was down for one. which I new wasn't going to happen. so I tried to convince DS to nap with me bc I was EXHAUSTED and have been borderline migraine all day and can't take anything bc the OB is being a pain, so I ahve to save what I have left for work days... and that didn't work becasue he was wild and refusing a nap. I finally blew my top when DS refused all afernoon to nap, I woke DH up multiple times for him to help out and he would go right back to sleep. (yes I understand he didndt feel good. but NEITHER DID I! ) and hten DS came up and for no reason just hit me in the back. So I sent him to his room and told him he was to lay down in his bed until I said he could come out. So instead DH went in with him and let him play with his toys! GRRRRR. I was so angry. I hate when DH goes against my punishments. ESP when he was doign nothing to help me out prior to. so I did laundry, made lunch for everyone (and cleaned it up_), fought the child ALL day did NOT get a nap (DH slept for over 6 hours today) then had to fight DS at bedtime since DH let him stay up until 10, and put him to bed then decided to watch tv and put laundry away.... to which DS came BACK out and I had to fight getting him in bed. I then came out to the kitchen to finish working on my schoolwork so I could be in bed before 11 (hahahaha) and DH had left everything out so I had to put all of THAT away. WHile he's already gone to bed. My emotions are so out of control I do not know how many times I broke down and cried today... and I dont know if Im more angry, furious, frustrated, irriated or just completely done. And to top it off DH decided that our grocery store trip could wait until tomorrow... (so no lunch for me) and then later told me I shoulda gone with out him. yet he told me earlier he overpaid on a bill so money is tight (but didnt say how much) and I can't find the checkbook to even be able to figure it out to go while he was asleep... and I was certainly not taking hte misbehaving child with me by myself. Im at my breaking point and I dont know hwat to do. at one point today I literally wanted to leave my phone and jsut get in the car and drive. and I know that is completely irrational but that is how incrdibly overwhelemd I am. Did I mention my sinus congestion is back so I cant breathe on top of it all AND baby boy is giving me serious heartburn all day every day?I am sure I am overreacting but Its just soo much right now and I am exhausted and don't feel good which is making it worse.
Sorry for hte vent I needed to get it out so I can have the chance of sleeping tonight.