I know I posted almost 2 weeks ago about being super emotional and having tons going on with lots of friends. so I figured I would update. to start my emotions are 10 times worse than the last post. DH is convinced this baby is a girl because I was NOT emotional at all with DS.
Friend who had emergency surgery is still struggling, but has finally made the decison that if this is not deemed sucessful she will agree to a partial hystorectomy. She is still trying to find peace with that decision.
DH's friend's father is still in ICU in critical condition after 11 days....
friend who had recent tumors found: ends up it is stage 4 adrenal cancer and a rare type. she goes to a specialist on Thurs since the dr told her chemo won't work, radiation will mask the symptoms and there are too many tumors to do surgery. She is a single mother of two elementary children. If you are the praying kind. please pray hard for her!
Then the whole CT school shooting is hard to deal wiht. I teach first graders ages 6 and 7. and cannot come up with the words to comfort them and assure them that I will keep them safe if we were to ever have something liek that happen at our school. The children are just as aware as we as adults are that our school's set up is a disaster if something were to occur there. we do not have doors that lock on our classrooms, heck, my classroom has 1 door and a big open gap . there is literally NO WHERE to hide in my room. and my kids pointed that out. I need to find a way to make them feel safe and give them the reassurance while trying to keep my emotions in check. (and my classroom has been hit by the fever/puking bug)
Not to mention the sinus and cough issues I have had since Oct are getting worse not better and Im on a full week of the same stupid migraine. I am behind on grading, planning and sleep.....mentally physcially Im beyond my breaking point. I am actually taking off tomorrow so I can manage hte last 2 days before break.
I understand that the whole country is dealing with the shootings, but it's hard when you are emotional to start with and it so could ahve been your classroom and you don't ahve the answers the kids are wanting. I know that things are hard for everyone, I know that life's not easy. I know people get dealt bad hands. so please don't point that out to me. I just needed to vent before I go crazy or my blood pressure sky rockets...
(I apologize for the typeos, between my migraine and my tears I can't see straight enough to fix)
That is a lot to deal with on your plate all at once. I hope things work out for the best with the friends situations.
And maybe the shooting will be something that can light a fire under the butts of your school board to get the issue of not having a proper door and a locking door fixed. Is there a way to maybe get the parents on a letter writing campaign, or maybe even call around to the Home Depot/Lowes/Sears or any other home improvement stores to see if they would be will to donate the items to the school?
It is hard to tell kids to feel safe when we ourselves aren't feeling safe. I have a very strong opinion on the gun laws and "gun free" zones. Maybe having an officer come to the class would help to ease their minds? Like a what to do in the event of emergency lesson.
(((hugehugs))). I'm so sorry you are dealing with so much sadness and heartache right now. I pray you are given strength and comfort to get through it. Venting is always good...glad you came here to get your feelings out. I hope it helps some.
Mary, our schools are older and there are quite a few in our county that are this way. I actually have more walls than some of the rooms in our building. (the new wing is all doors and walls with closets in most rooms) the money is not there in the county. we are a small town area and We meet with the town police and someone from the board on Friday to go over some things, but I just don't see it happening anytime soon. We might be able ot get slide key lock doors (for the outside) but we have been on the back burner for htat for years. there have been no raises for years (they finally got one due from 3 yrs ago effective Jan 15 but only for those who qualify for a certain school year) when teachers have left they have not been replaced. Im sure our county will do whatever they can to make the kids safe I just realistically know its going to be a money issue. maybe they could get a home improvement place to donate (though we dont have anyone local for htat either) we have had police in our building daily this week at least 3 at dismissal time. Friday we have an early dismissal and there will be lots of parents in and out so I am sure they will have more officers there then. We are a quiet nothing happens type town (though we just made the news Monday bc someone murdered their father down the street from the school) but its starting to be those towns....... We will just continue praying every day before the kids come in!
I hope you find comfort soon. We are here for you to vent anytime.
That is definitely a lot for anyone to deal with at a time, let alone an overly emotional preggo. I can't imagine being a teacher for small kids right now, that has to just be incredibly difficult!! *hugs* So sorry to hear about your friends that are not doing well health-wise and that things seem to not be improving for them. How terrible :(
Sorry to hear you're dealing with so much emotionally. Every pregnancy really IS different.
I've been having more emotional moments this pregnancy but my logic center is alive and well in that I normally realize I'm being a bit irrational. That helps me to stay a grounded. That said, you seem to be more emotionally when you're not pregnant...so obviously this is all hitting you really hard.
What helps me in situations like this is trying to think of which situations are within my control and which aren't. So many things happen in life that you have no control over. You can't stop them and worrying won't do any good. Instead of being overwhelmed by worry/sadness, maybe try to think about things you can do to help make the situation better. Maybe you could make a meal or two for your friend with Cancer?
I guess the bottom line is that some people are worriers about things out of their control, and others aren't. I'm not much of a worrier so perhaps my suggestions are crazy. LOL.
I hope this helps you. I read it and so could relate; essentially it says that we are more touched because we know what 6 is. I'm sure being preggo it's harder to deal with the emotions that are already so high. Hugs to you!!
What Six Looks Like! ? My Random Ramblings
that is alot to deal with and it doesnt help when your already emotional, i spent the whole day friday at work crying as i was watching the update on the shooting unfold and then cried my eyes out the whole time at church because our priest mentioned it in church and then came home and balled my eyes out while folding christmas presents knowing those poor parents will have to look at and return everything they bought there poor child that wont be able to open there gifts on christmas morning, see im crying my eyes out now as i type.
im also dealing with sinus issues and migraines, i had to leave work on monday because it was so bad and i woke up with another headache this morning.
vent all you need thats why we are all here