I think I'm pregnant. I'm pretty sure I am, and I'm pretty devastated right now. Even though I've been on bcps faithfully af failed to show last Thurs. I had what looked like implantation spotting on Saturday, have done 3 FRERs since and all were BFPs. Did a Clearblue digi this morning and it was a bfn. The FRERs are quite obvious - definitely 2 pink lines, no squinting required. Maybe it's just too early with the digi, IDK. I'm beyond scared. I'm too old to do this again, especially with the problems I had with both pregnancies. We don't have the room or the money for another baby. I KNOW this would mean another bedrest and how am I supposed to do that with 2 kids at home?? I'm on medications that I definitely can't take if I'm pg and I'm scared to death of what will happen if I have to stop taking them.DH was upset last night when I told him I could be pg. He said we'd lose everything (and that's a knee jerk reaction - we won't lose a thing), but eventually he calmed down enough to say that whatever happens, happens. He knows I won't terminate. I feel like I've let my kids down, and that I'm taking some of their future happiness and financial security away from them. Life's been pretty great with our girl and boy. It seems like lots of stuff in the world is just made for a family of 4 and I felt complete with what we had. Now it feels like I'm destroying all of it. I'm pretty sad, actually.
I posted some pics on the Do You See A Line board, if anyone's interested.
Last edited by Claire'sMommy; 12-28-2011 at 06:25 PM.
I'm sorry you are so sad! Hugs!
I checked out the pics on DYSAL and they do look positive, but I had heard of issues lately with FRER's giving false positives. With the meds you are on I think I'd call the doctor and schedule a blood test ASAP to know one way or the other.
There are lots of 40 something women out there who have had children so it can be done even if it wasn't in your plan. Claire and Ben will never say to you that they felt deprived because they had another sibling. I'm not particularily religous, but I do believe that some things are meant to happen. Maybe there is a reason this is happening to you?
Tons of Hugs!
I can definitely understand how you are feeling right now. If I were to get pregnant any time soon, I would be feeling the exact same way. There would be no room, and financially we would be doomed. So, to that, I offer big hugs! Now, that being said, (and I know this isn't a comforting statement right now), I believe everythinng happens for a reason. I think Ben and Claire would be delighted to have a younger sibling, and things would work out. It would all fall into place as being a family of 5. Good luck!
AF just showed up (or it's an early m/c). Either way I'm not pg! If those were evaps they're about the worst I've ever seen for looking like bfps.
I'm glad you got the answer you were hoping for. And I hope this convinces your DH to get the V now!
I was so sad reading your post, but happy to see that you got the result you were looking for. Phew.
DH Brian 06/06 Furbaby Abe 09/07 m/c @ 5w5d 06/08 DD Mary 6/28/09 DD Bree 12/7/12
Oh Lisa. Sorry I'm just seeing this now and sorry you went through that scare. Glad it worked out ok in the end. How do you feel now?