A Blast From the Past
It's been a loooooooooong time since I've visited this board, or preg.org at all. I see a few familiar names here, and wonder if anyone might remember me.
Anyhow, I'm Lisa, currently mom to 6, and just found out last weekend that I'm pregnant again.
This has been a huge shock. My husband was diagnosed with stage 3 colorectal cancer in February 2009 (when our youngest was only 7 months old), and underwent a year of rigorous cancer treatment, including chemo, radiation, and two surgeries. We really believed that all the radiation had made him sterile, so we didn't think it was even possible to conceive anymore, and we have been fine with that. Six kids is a lot, and we're no spring chickens; I'm 44 now (another reason to think it was highly unlikely we could conceive), and Michael is 45. Fortunately, his cancer is in remission (his last two scans have actually shown no evidence of cancer, but they don't say you're "cured" until I think 5 years has passed), but it's been an incredibly challenging couple of years for us.
Some of you might remember that our last baby, Finnian, was born at home three years ago in July - a planned homebirth - and ended up in the hospital the day after he was born undergoing surgery for an intestinal blockage. He spent two weeks in the NICU, and it was during that time that we learned he has Down syndrome. He is truly a joy - and not because he fits into all the stereotypes of Down syndrome, but because he is who he is and he has opened my heart and eyes so much, and brought so much to our family. That said, it was quite a shock and an adjustment, and then to find out my husband had cancer on the heels of that, and then the pure HELL of a year of cancer treatment. Just this past spring, Michael had complications from the cancer surgery he underwent and ended up back in the hospital with a bowel obstruction and sepsis. He seriously almost died, and had to undergo emergency surgery, and then was hospitalized yet again a few weeks later with pneumonia and severe anemia (from the emergency surgery). Obviously his health is a wild card at this point, and that's scary. He's gone through PTSD and depression because of all this, which has taken quite a toll on our marriage, and we're only recently trying to find our way back to higher ground, and BAM, we find out I'm pregnant.
Since we didn't think it was possible to get pregnant, I wasn't keeping track of my cycles or anything, so I'm not even sure exactly how far along I am, but my best guess is about 6 weeks. Still very early, and I figure my biggest hurdle right now is the fact that at my age the risk of miscarriage is probably fairly high.
Needless to say, we're scared. Scared of miscarriage, scared to have another baby, just scared. Trying to be excited, but really still in shock.
Lisa!!! Wow, it has been so long :) I hope all of your kids are doing well. This baby for us was also a huge surprise. I am finally getting to the point where I can start to get excited about him. It will all work out though, it always does, doesn't it? I hope your husband stays healthy, I am sure that was/is a scary thing to go through. As always, you know we are all here for you and congrats :)
Hi Lisa!!! :) I have followed your blog for years!! It's so nice to have you back!!! Congrats on the new pregnancy!!!
Heidi, I remember you too! mommyin04060809, you'll have to refresh my memory ...
I don't think I was on the large fam board the same time you were but when I came onto the board you just found out you were pregnant with Finn and I started following your blog and still do to this day!
My name is Ashly my husband and I have been married 9 years we have 4 kids with another on the way due in Jan. I stay at home, my husband is in Law School and thats the quick intro!!
It is realllllllly wonderful to see you again! (((((((HUGS))))))) Congratulations on your newest pregnancy. I know right now you are at that point of being taken by surprise. I think most of us here can get that without any condemnation or feeling that you will not be overjoyed to welcome this little one to your family.
You certainly have been having quite a rollercoaster ride though! I am sorry that I did not realize about that latest scare with your dh. You have gone through so much! It is bound to have a toll on both of you, not to mention your relationship! I'm glad that things are rebuilding but please know we are here for you as additional encouragement and support.
I'm so glad to see you again and hope you are able to drop in often!
Thanks so much, Missy, I really appreciate the kind words.
Hi Lisa!!! I too have been following your blog! We met briefly on this board years ago!! Im so happy for you! I really hope you have a hh 9 months! My doc warned me of the high % of mc too!
Lisa!!!! It's great to see you back here again! And although I know you're scared right now, it's fantastic to hear you're expecting again... :) Congratulations!!!
Woohoo!!! You made it back!! So happy to see you here again Lisa!
I am thrilled about your latest announcement, wishing you a HH9M!!!