Hi, it's been awhile since I last checked in here.
I know we all talk about how great it is to have large families, and it is. But don't you ever feel overwhelmed? Like you bit off more than you can chew?
I've been feeling kind of down about it lately. It's really hard raising all these kids, and it's really started to hit me lately how much more we'd be able to give our kids (I'm speaking for my family, personally) if we didn't have so many. I'm starting to feel like we've been really irresponsible to have this many kids. I mean, I adore them all, but it's hard. And expensive. We can never get ahead. Michael has a good job and makes good money, but it all goes to pay expenses (not that we live high on the hog, we don't), and there's virtually nothing left over. We have very little in savings, no retirement (and we're not spring chickens), there's no way we can pay for college for any of our kids (which isn't that far off for our oldest). Kid number 2 has a consultation with the orthodontist this afternoon - he desperately needs braces, and I have no idea how we're going to pay for them, let alone braces for the twins in a couple of years. It's not just money, either - just the practical aspects of being so outnumbered by the kids - it's hard. Sometimes I feel like a hamster running on one of those wheels - running, running, running, and never getting anywhere.
Please tell me I'm not the only one who feels this way sometimes. How do you cope?