I must be on crack

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ambie719's picture
Joined: 10/03/07
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I must be on crack

I want to be pg again! What is the matter with me?!? Lol I've been lurking on TTC boards like crazy, even though we aren't technically TTC (we're NTNP right now mainly because of the BFing.) Isaac is not sleeping well, he's going through super fun separation anxiety, and we can't really afford another right now, and yet I still want one. I'm broken I swear!

I just wanted to get that off my chest. I know that DH knows the risk we are taking with NTNP and using BFing as out form of birth control, but I still think he'd freak a little if he knew just how badly baby fever has set in again already.

Andy1784's picture
Joined: 09/18/08
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I totally understand (surprise) those feelings. I was looking at some newborn pics the other day of both kids and I wanted so badly to do it again right now. I looked at them side by side and even thought "hey, twins would be so cool." I do feel like the hormones are just crazy right now. I swing back and forth on a weekly basis. Right now I just really want to make it through at least part of the summer without being prego. The other part of me knows my family isn't complete and wants to go go go until it is. I do think more and more that we will be done at 3 kids but that just makes me want to do it sooner so I can get the pregnancy part over with.

I don't know when I will be able to get pregnant again anyway. Hailey is going very strong on the BFing and I know my fertility didn't return until Kaelan had been off the boob completely for 2 months last time around. I don't want to start weaning her at all yet so maybe it is for the best.

I just wanted to remind you that you're not alone on the crazy train.

wishing4agirl's picture
Joined: 09/11/03
Posts: 917

I can totally understand. The only reason I am so adament about not having any more is because of Eli's health. I don't think your broken at all. You just love your kiddos and can appreciate them.

ChristaM's picture
Joined: 01/11/04
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I get it! I have baby fever bad -- still tring to get DH on board - he waffles so much -- it's almost a tease!

Joined: 09/05/08
Posts: 392

I have the fever so bad too! When we were at the zoo the other day, seemed like I was the only woman there who WASN'T preggo or had a newbie.

It was driving me crazy! Lol.

On Cooper's b-day Colin texted me and said that it made him teary thinking that Cooper has been with us for 2 years already. I texted him back and said, I know, he's growing up to quick, and that it wasn't too late for #3. He sent back Wink lol.

Maybe I'm getting to him haha!

ambie719's picture
Joined: 10/03/07
Posts: 811

Thanks guys, I just feel like I'm losing it. I'm overwhelmed as it is right now but I just can't help but want another.

Angela, I don't think anyone blames you for sticking with 4. You have a lot on your plate, and 4 kids is a lot to deal with if they're all healthy, but with Eli's health you are one strong mama to be able to handle it all Biggrin

Andrea I hope you wear Colin down soon, I know you've been wanting to try for another for awhile now.

Andy, were we separated at birth or something? Lol I think the fact that we know 3 is our max is a big reason I want to just get this last pg over with (as bad as that sounds.) I think if we're not pg by Isaac's bday I will try to wean him, although I can't see him being too co-operative with that.

I think a lot of this is because of how fast they're growing up. Mason is 2 already, talking up a storm, turning into an actual little boy instead of just being my baby. And Isaac is crawling all over the place and pulling up on everything, got his 2 little bottom teeth now too, he's not my bitty little baby no more either. I also would like to get my body back at some point, sooner rather than later preferably. I have either been pg or bf-iing since aug 08. Thats over 2.5 years of my body not being "mine." At the same time I know this last pg will be bittersweet, I'll be glad not to have to do it again, but also sad that I'll never get to do it again Blum 3

Thanks for listening and understanding! I know I can always count on you ladies Biggrin