i had my weekly midwife appointment this morning. they usually don't do "checks" but she decided to check me because i was having contractions while i was there that were 5 min. apart and intense enough that i had to sort of rock and breathe through them. i was 3cm and 75% effaced, and she said my cervix was very soft and stretchy to the point that she could stretch it to 4cm. baby girl is head down and sort of facing sideways and tending toward being posterior, so she told me to spend 5 min. of every hour on my hands and knees to try to encourage baby to rotate around to anterior. she even offered to let me go from her clinic to the L&D triage area to see if things would progress, but i opted to come home because i just had a feeling it wasn't "the real thing" yet. and sure enough, contractions have died down this afternoon. i'm still having them, but they are less intense and not coming at consistent intervals anymore. my midwife predicted i would have the baby within the next day or two, but i just don't know. i've been having these episodes of intense, regular contractions since sunday. on two occasions, they've gotten down to 3 min. apart and really intense, so i start throwing last minute things in my hospital bag and telling DH we need to leave soon, and then they fizzle out. it's kind of been an emotional rollercoaster and physically exhausting. i feel like i've been in labor for 3 days, but i'm still pregnant.
i'm trying to just keep a positive attitude and accept that she'll come when the time is right! hopefully sooner than later. my MIL is flying in tomorrow evening, so that's good.