Decided to Stay in March

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motorjunkie89's picture
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Decided to Stay in March

There has been so much going on that I just feel more comfortable keeping in touch with people who have already heard the other stuff.

The last two or three weeks have been extraordinarily busy.

I go back to the doctors on Tuesday, hoping that the second weak and barely audible heart beat is there or they can finally give me the official as to whether it is twins something else.

I was just trying to keep my stress level at a low rate because I know it can be dangerous, however, this past Friday, my best friend was killed in a car accident. He was god father to my DD and was the best man in my wedding this past December. I unknowingly put myself in the middle of planning his memorial evening and have been the messenger between his family and everyone else who wants to know what is going on. Plus in order to protect his mother from finding certain things in a trunk I had to reveal other uncomfortable details to his older brother.

And to put icing on the cake I had to take DD to the doctors. They finally, after 7 months have given us a diagnosis for what has been happening with her tiny little body turning colors. I cannot remember the name of the condition because it is an odd term, but the doctor said it is nothing life threatening. They are also carefully watching the cysts that have newly formed in her legs.

I thank everyone for letting me vent and I hope that I can continue to update everyone on this board as my pregnancy continues.

lmh101979's picture
Joined: 07/05/09
Posts: 966

Holy cow that is a lot going on. I am so sorry for the loss of your best friend. I can't imagine what that would do to your stress level for the pregnancy. I'm sorry that I don't remember what was going on with your babies, have they done an u/s to confirm what is going on in there?
And I'm glad your here with us in March. Please try to find some peace during this time I know that is so much easier said than done. And KUP on you!

hopin2bpreggermeggers's picture
Joined: 02/22/10
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First, I'm soooooooooo sorry for your Loss and the fact you're stuck in the middle. My prayers go out to you.

I'm glad they diagnosed the condition! Is it Raynaud's, by any chance? I have it and my hands, feet and lips turn blue and swell up. If so, it's annoying, but does not affect my life at all. I hope it's something that minor!

Youre in my t&p!

natelukesmom's picture
Joined: 02/08/09
Posts: 538

Awe, I am so sorry about your friend and your daughter. Sounds like you have a lot going on. Please keep us updated about your twins too. Hugs!

motorjunkie89's picture
Joined: 06/03/10
Posts: 143

Meg that actually sounds like what the doctor had said. He basically told me it would happen forever but that it wasn't dangerous.

And insurance pays for one ultra sound so we will get the picture proof of how many is there and what they are when I hit 20 weeks...I am currently a few days away from 17. So I still have a ways to go, but I am told the "second heartbeat" because it was weak and very hard to hear (only 70-80 bpm) then it might not have been a heart beat at all. could be other things too. so we are just waiting. I did gain a rediculous amount of weight and have so much shifting in my stomach that my husband is convinced there is more than one. I can sit here and watch my belly do things that it did not do til I was 8 months pregnant with my daughter. So I think I may be slightly further than they thought if it is only one.

Currently I am finding peace in the oddest of ways when it comes to the passing, but thanks for the t&p. When my blood presure spikes (my fingers get throbby and swollen) I just sit back and let myself cry. It helps not to hold it all in some times.