I don't really even know where to start with this but I am really worried about having a third child. This pregnancy came as a complete surprise. I won't go into details but lets just say the big V on a guy isn't always a guarantee. One of the reasons DH and I decided not to have any more kids is one- we have a son and daughter, and two- both of them had complications with their umbilical cords (DS's was wrapped twice around his neck he had bruising for two days after he was born and DD had a tight knot in her cord that it caused some distress in her so I was heavily monitored for the last bit of my pregnancy). My doctor said I was very lucky both of them had the healthy outcomes they did. I kinda feel like I used up all my luck on them. I'm sure it sounds dumb and petty but it's just how I feel. Plus when we made the decision to not have any more kids I was able to start planning my life with two kids. Maybe it is just because I am not feeling good right now and am soooo tired I can't think staight but I'm really worried about handling three kids under 5. Plus I have no idea how to set up sleeping arrangements. I'm guessing my 3 and 1 year old are going to be sharing a room but DD is a great sleeper and always has been but DS still gets up every night. Anyway I do know we are going to love this child. I have already been reading birth stories and tearing up looking at the cute little baby faces. There is something about holding that little bundle of warmth in your arms. I trust everything will work out but right now I am just so overwhelmed! Which is why I need to get myself off the computer and into bed now! If you read this much of my ramblings you deserve an award!