I have been stalking all of you for a couple of weeks now ... probably still in a bit of shock that I am in the MARCH 2012 board .... but now that I've figured out my avatar pic and can show off my cute family with my siggy pics ... I'm coming out and introducing myself! I might warn however, that I have a tendency to share too much information and be a bit long winded -- I blame it on teaching middle school!!
I met this cute red head in August of 2000, my freshman year in college. Fast forward several months -- and I was married *at 19!* in June of 2001.
My name is Jen and having babies is not like ordering pizza for me or my family. My husband and I have never taken any sort of preventative measures and our first surprise pregnancy was in 2006. That one unfortunately ended in heart break shortly after it started. A few years later we changed doctors and was diagnosed with PCOS. With the help of Clomid, Provera, and Metformin ... we conceived and carried to term our beautiful *I mean LOOK at him!!* son Jace. We got another surprise in September of that year that I was pregnant again! WHAT? Unfortunately that one was ended relatively quickly after it started. I went back to my dr to get back on my "fertility cocktail of meds" in Jan of this year. We got pregnant right away -- but miscarried 4 days after getting the positive pregnancy test.
I taught Middle School MATH (and loved every second of it) from 2005 til 2010 when I decided to stay home with my son. In May of this year I started thinking that maybe I would go back to work. That is silly, I'm a SAHM ... so I pushed the thought aside. The thought and prompting to go back never left and in June I started looking for a teaching position. Shortly after I was accepted at a **ROCK STAR** high school not far from where I live. I'm sad to leave Jace in day care -- but truly feel like this is what we need to be doing. ~Side Note Over~
The first week in July I went into my Dr Office to get my hormone levels checked to see if the currant dosage of Clomid was working. They were afraid that it didn't and wanted me to up it to 150 mg a day. *EEK* ... I mentioned to a friend that night that I was a bit grateful that this month wasn't it -- bad timing to be going back to school and having a baby in March.
On July 14th I hadn't gotten my period yet, although it was still a day or two early, but decided to POAS anyway. I took the test into my room and opened it so my husband wouldn't know that I was wasting a $3 test AGAIN (he was in the shower) I snuck back into the bathroom to use the test -- didn't do THAT in my bedroom!! hehe To my surprise ... we are having a March Baby.
So I'm throwing my plans out the window! I'm freaking out about going back to work and being pregnant. I won't be at the job long enough to qualify for FMLA and I don't know what options are out there. I have my babies via c-section ... and know going back to school (with snotty teenagers) 2 weeks after surgery is not something I want to do. I'm WRACKED with the guilt that although I'm dying to have another baby ... I wish it would have been later. Everyone seems so happy all of the time -- and I am torn emotionally on this one. That's the first time I've admitted it "out loud". I have no idea what is going to happen with my little 2 week old if I need to go back that soon -- and even if I can hold out until the baby is 6 weeks ..... what then? Plus ... do I leave the district again after coming back for only one year? I don't know. I guess if I really want to admit it -- I'm 70% excited ... 30% freaking out. Plus I have the fear of another miscarriage. I've already had 3 -- those are the worst.
Thanks for making it to the end. I told you ... long winded! I'm enjoying everyone's stories and just wanted to say ...
HERE I AM!