Crazy Lady Coming Through! (long)

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Crazy Lady Coming Through! (long)

We got back from family vacation two nights ago. The vacation was ok--if a bit disappointing with family stuff.

We went to see the Hoover Dam one day, and get this, I had a panic attack! They basically have airport-style security at the dam's visitor center, where they feed you through this process. So that had me feeling kind of claustrophobic. Then part of the process is that they have you get your picture in front of a green screen (and they don't exactly present it as optional). The problem is that the green on a green screen always makes me sick during pregnancy (I know it's weird, but I just have to live with it). So I was forced to look at this huge expanse of that shade of green for several minutes, while feeling claustrophobic and micro-managed. To top it all off, I worried about whether this pregnancy is going to go all the way. I've had enough disappointments, that it's hard for me to be optimistic.

I thought I was going to puke.

Then I went to the bathroom, and I completely lost it. Turned out I wasn't going to puke, I was panicking. So after a bit, I pulled myself together, but it was too late. Security had been alerted, and they cornered me. Something in me snapped. I think I screamed for about ten minutes straight. I COMPLETELY lost touch with reality.

Dh was sooo sweet, and worked really hard to help me calm down. He talked the manager and security people out of calling the paramedics. They did have some police hang out in a room with us until I calmed down, but they were really nice about it and gave me plenty of space.

Once I calmed down, and the police felt comfortable, we were able to finish walking around at the site.

I am soooooooooooo embarrassed. I feel really bad, because I cursed out the manager of the visitor's center. And dh tells me that he was really nice and accommodating. And I also feel bad because all this was in front of my fil and bil, who got strapped with taking care of the boys while dh was dealing with me--and my in-laws don't even like kids.

Once the whole episode was over with, we still managed to have a good time, but I just can't stop thinking about it. I am so crazy right now, it seems. I could just cry.

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I am sure that was really overwhelming and embarrassing. Pregnancy does bring out the crazy in us. I try to control my emotions and I still get upset sometimes about even nothing. I tend to cry more than anything...like about nothing. So in that situation I can understand how hard it must have been for you. Don't worry about it... and don't worry about what your fil and bil think either if you are. The others you'll never see again probably. Biggrin

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Sorry that happened to you. I had a friend who had a full on panic attack on the highway (she did not know what was wrong with her & called an ambulance & when they came she was panicked but by time she got to hospital she was normal & embarrassed). Look at it this way, your in-laws probably won't do anything to upset you.

Since I had kids & stepped out of work & many social events I often think.......I wish someone would talk about me. lol

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i'm so sorry about the panic attack! i almost had one at the olive garden the other day. i went to my OB appt and they couldn't find a heartbeat so that had me freaked out and in the same day i was offered a job. it was just alot to digest so when we were sitting at dinner i heard a baby crying and it freaked me out a little and i started to wonder how hard it would be to have a baby again and i started to panic. it can happen at any time and we can't control it so don't feel bad.

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Thanks, ladies.

Gina--I'm sorry about Olive Garden. That would be hard--especially after not finding a hb. After my last m/c, I had to be really careful about driving to Walmart, because this local church does a weekly pro-life rally nearby, and driving past it was just too much. I'd always start bawling.

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I had a panic attack yesterday. It was horrible. It's something that happens and then you can move forward. Don't be embarrassed.

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"harper35" wrote:

Thanks, ladies.

Gina--I'm sorry about Olive Garden. That would be hard--especially after not finding a hb. After my last m/c, I had to be really careful about driving to Walmart, because this local church does a weekly pro-life rally nearby, and driving past it was just too much. I'd always start bawling.

Oh man that would be hard! hopefully mine is ok but i won't find out till aug 2nd but it was just so much to digest in one day I think my body just couldn't take anymore. I did alot of deep breathing and then went to the bathroom and by the time I got back i felt much better. we just have to stick together and we will all get through this Smile I didn't have any anxiety problems with my 1st 2 pregnancys I don't know why now that I'm older i have problems with anxiety Sad

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FirenIce I'm sorry to hear about your panic attack! I think right now our hormones are just raging and wrecking havoc in our bodies. I can't wait for the 2nd trimester when all of this should calm down.

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"FirenIce" wrote:

I had a panic attack yesterday. It was horrible. It's something that happens and then you can move forward. Don't be embarrassed.

I'm so sorry, hun. ((Hugs))