Hello ladies I am both happy and sad to be joining here. We lost out precious son Noah at 14 wks gestation and I was induced and he was born sleeping on April 19th, he was due early October. To say that his loss rocked our world is an understatement. I will never fully recover from giving birth to my sleeping child but I am more than ready to move forward as well. Having another baby will not replace him but it will help to heal my heart a bit I know this bc I have had two previous early losses as well in 97 and 05. So thats the sad part. However I am excited and scared poopless about getting pg again and this time getting to take home a healthy baby. I am super anxious already and I havent even O'd yet, Im worried I wont O at all (no basis for that just my crazy brain), or that we wont catch the egg (which is a possibility but why worry over it) and that I will have a loss again which I dont even really want to think about but do of course. So you will have my crazy, anxious, excited, self for company lol. Oh and as youll see in my siggy we have 6 beautiful, healthy, children who are the absolute lights of our lives and we are very blessed to have them and we thank God everyday for them.