So I'm kind of freaking out. I went from doing really good and being pretty patient to being a total nervous wreck! I was exhausted all day yesterday and slept great last night and woke up quickly and all but once I was in the car headed to the doc I was so tired I couldn't stand it. On my way back from the doc office I was so tired I dozed off in the car!!! Thankfully I snapped out of it some and made it to my mom's. I basically walked in the door straight to her couch where I decided to lie down for just a minute thinking I was just sleepy from driving and then woke up and hour and a half later. I completely passed out. I was only going to stay at her house for a few minutes before heading home but I couldn't make it. Geez. I'm having some lower back pain today which could be from sleeping weird on the couch...not sure. I had one super sharp cramp early that made me jump off my seat. I also had a spot of blood last night while trying to use the progesterone applicator. I'm taking all of these as signs even though I'm trying not to. I'm only 7DPO it doesn't seem likely...my telltale sign last time was my BBs being so sore I couldn't stand it and they're a teeny bit tender but nothing significant.
I'm going freaking crazy! The more I think about it the more insane I feel. I think that logically all of this must be from the progesterone, but I thought one of the first things progesterone did was cause sore BBs and they're still not bad. So I don't know what to think. I guess we'll know in about 30 mins if progesterone is a factor. I get my test back then. I feel like I'm going to lose my mind waiting to hear about that. I just want to be pregnant so bad. And putting my body through the hormones and the fertility meds month after month is just so hard. Part of me isn't sure how much longer I can take this if I find out I'm not pregnant.
Man I can't wait to have my answer either way. Also I could get AF as early as Monday and definitely no AF stuff yet. I'm usually an evil biotch by now but that hasn't happened yet either...GRRRRR. I don't get it!