... and Lainey has weaned!
It is bitter sweet.
One one hand, I was ready to be done. I have been ready since she was about 18 months old. The last 3 months we had cut it down to 2x a day. Nap and bedtime. But lately.. she was being so demanding about it, it was causing lots of fits, and she was waking up in the middle of the night again (when she had been SSTN for months) asking to nurse and was very dependant on me to get to sleep. It was time to break that. So about 10 days ago I started just giving her a sippy of water and all but duct taping my shirt down ;), and rocking her a bit. The water was promptly thrown 15 feet across the room and then she would thrash around throwing an awful fit. I was quite worried those first couple days. But I swear by day 3 and 4.. she turned over a new leaf and things are SO EASY NOW! Like, seriously can't believe how easy. The new routine is.. water cup, she picks 2-3 books to take to bed with her..she climbs the stairs and waits at her crib.. hugs kisses and she is HAPPY and smiling when I leave the room. It is a total 180. Nap and bedtime used to be a disaster if I did not nurse and rock her to sleep. She is sleeping 12 hours a night and atleast a 2 hour nap.
And I am not just making this up.. but her general attitude and mood has changed. I think nursing for her (just as an older baby) was a big power struggle. She used it as a way to control me or something.. she used to be so bossy and demanding with me and since weaning her she is this pleasant happy thing all the time. IT IS SO WEIRD!!!! Never experienced anything like it. Anyone else? My other girls self weaned right at 1 year so I never really dealt with these kinds of issues, that I guess may be related to nursing a toddler?
Anyways- like I started out saying - it is bitter sweet. I am going to truly miss it. This is probably my last kiddo.. and nursing was one of my very favorite parts of being a mom. But I know for Lainey, it was time...and am happy to see how happy she is!