Oh Adri, we are always here for you. I just typed something similar on my appt update, only mine is more from anxiety than depression. I am getting to the point too where I feel not being medicated would be more detrimental. If you need the meds, get them. Don't let DH talk you out of it either. I had post-partum pretty bad after DS and my husband thought I was being a baby. Looking back, I seriously needed meds and this time I will not hesitate to get them.
Big HUgs Adri!!! So sorry things are rough now. Wish I knew the right thing to say or do but I'm usually not good at these things. So just know that you were missed this past week, which means that you have made an impact on each one of us, and it makes me so sad to hear that you're in a bad way. Do what you need to do to feel better and be the best you can be so that everything else will start being more positive in your life.
Sending you big hugs!!!! Sorry things are rough
~~ Yaeli ~~
DH since 6/24/04
DS1 - 4/9/06
DS2 - 8/22/08
DD - 5/6/13
And let your hubby know I'll come and kick his bum, too. ( )PPD is real and can be bad if not kept in check..
I love that this board is respecting and so supportive!!
I've always been that girl who people say "I remember you!" even if only having met me once.. I'm a people person.. but even people people struggle with people and being a person. lol..
Glad you're back. Sorry to hear you're suffering. I have never told anyone before, but I've had those same thoughts while driving, even recently. Realistically, I want nothing more than to be here in this life with my children and family, but I think mine has stemmed from some PTSD (self-diagnosed) after two girls I went to high school with were killed in a car wreck like 8, almost 9 years ago (My DS2's birthday is the anniversary of when it happened). They were in the class below mine and weren't close friends of mine, but I had known them since childhood and they were SO nice, just nice to everyone, friends with everyone, you know.. And they were close friends with my cousin who is a year younger. They were killed by some guys in two or maybe three other cars who were racing, crested a hill, and hit them as they were pulling out from a crossroads. Very tragic, and I've been really weird about driving ever since then. Every time I'm in a car or my children are in a car, I can't control it and I just think, "God, I hope we make it home safely.." and when we get home, it's like a giant sigh of relief.
I will say that I've been on an antidepressant twice since then. Well, the most recent time was just this Spring/Summer, but I stopped it when we started TTC. So I was only on it maybe 3 months, and I didn't get the most benefit from it, but some I guess. The first time, though, it was like ground-breaking. I never realized I could feel so normal. I used to lay awake for hours at night worrying about things... Every night since I was a child. And while on the anti-depressant, it all just went away. I was able to lay down for bed at night with a clear head, and just sleep. Like normal people sleep. It was amazing. I don't feel I'm so far off that I can't control it while pregnant/nursing, but I will undoubtedly go back to it afterwards if I feel I need it.
Now that I've typed a novel, hahah... I guess I'm just trying to say I "get" it. I hope you can get a plan in order with your doctor and get back to feeling good again. <3
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Calvin Michael - 2/28/11 @ 7:39pm 6lb 8oz, 18", 37w5d
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May 26, 2010 - 7w1d
Adri, I can't say I can relate bc I've never felt like that. But I do have family members who have been in a deep depression so I understand in that sense. So glad that you realize you can't do it alone and are going to get some help.
Just want to let you know that I'm here to be a listening ear, a shoulder to lean on, etc. I know we all need that sometimes. I know I do! Have miss you girlie.
That goes to all of you ladies, we are all there for each other!!
Mmmm... depression. Something I've struggled with my entire life. I've been on Prozac more years than not. I stopped after leaving DH #1, I thought maybe that was the reason I was depressed. I was open about it with DH #2 and a few times he says if I don't change, he's gonna make me go to the doctor to get back on the pills.
I'm a bit different though, I've always been a pill popper. (I'm talking over the counter, like zantac and ibuprofen)...so any meds that are "approved" for pregnancy, I'd have no problem taking.
And yeah lady, PM me here or on FB your number. I'm always available whenever you need an ear. I've been around some people that like to cope by themselves and that's fine if that's what you choose. But please don't think that's the only way - because sometimes alone isn't the option you need
And I'm ALWAYS available via texting on my phone. Even at work.
I have been on antidepressants over half my life. I have also taken them while pregnant. Like you I would rather not take them but have accepted that I will need to take them probably for the rest of your life. If you have not talked to your doctor please do so.
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"The soul always knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind." Caroline Myss