I guess I'll hang out here(Appt Update)

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I guess I'll hang out here(Appt Update)

I guess I'll hang here. AF showed late last night and picked up enough to officially be day 1 today. It was a horrible cycle with a lot of stress and I have no idea how involved we'll be this cycle but I'll probably hang here anyway. This will be my 7th cycle of infertility meds. I'm not sure how much longer we'll be pursuing this at this rate and while we're still trying we're also looking into adoption. I have an appt. Friday to have an ultrasound and to discuss options with my doc since I don't seem to be respond well at all anymore to Femara. Not sure if I need a higher dose or what...not even sure I want a higher dose since I was INSANE this time! Finally after spending 3 hours crying because I wasn't pregnant we decided it was time to look into other options while deciding how much further we want to go with TTC so we are still TTC but not sure for how much longer. So we'll see what happens. At least I know I have a great place to hang out with wonderful ladies who offer amazing support. Smile I hope everyone is great and I hope there are LOTS of BFPs here this cycle!

**UPDATE**
My appointment today went very well. I was terrified and have been sick to my stomach all day. In the past few days we'd pretty much decided on the type of adoption we'd do and even started looking at some agencies which just goes to show how much I had written this all off. Like I said, I was a mess, and was upset all morning. I was shaking so hard I wasn't sure how I was even going to talk to the doc. He did the u/s and said my lining was fine. I explained to him what happened with the Crinone progesterone last cycle and how I noticed after my u/s and after I O'd that I had all the build up. He said that explains why I didn't get pregnant and why my lining didn't look so good. He said he had quit using it in the past because of that and because if there was build up it was actually toxic to eggs/sperm/embryo. He said it acts as a spermicide really and makes getting pregnant pretty much impossible. He said it wasn't supposed to cause build up anymore and I guess I'm his first patient who has had that since he started prescribing it again since the company claimed they fixed the problem. He apologized and said he wasn't using it anymore and that I could just take prometrium if I needed progesterone at all.

I told him that we felt we were at the end of our rope with all of this and that we were considering adoption. My mom came with me and she told him that it was really bad for both me and DH and that we were struggling emotionally big time. He said that he would support whatever I wanted to do and explained our options. So...this cycle we're doing the standard Femara dose I've been on and I'm also on the estrogen patch so help keep my lining healthy since this is my 3rd cycle of Femara and it tends to thin out over time on it. I'm also starting it a day later than usual so that I don't O too early like last time. I have an u/s schedule CD13 and we should see how things go from there.

If that doesn't work we will do IUI next cycle which I feel pretty good about. My doc says he doesn't believe in doing any kind of infertility treatment longer than 3 cycles without moving to another method. He says in his experience if it doesn't happen in 3 it's not going to so it's time to try something else. If IUI doesn't work we'll consider something that until today I had never head of, embryo adoption. It's WAY cheaper than IVF (which I can't do regardless of price) and WAY cheaper than adoption. I'm not sure if I'm the only person who hasn't heard of it or what but it's when you buy or adopt a frozen embryo and it's transferred to you (just like an IVF transfer but without the horrible first part) and so it's like your baby is adopted because it isn't biologically yours but you carry it like you would if it was. I think that's so cool. And it's not that much more expensive than IUI and my doc says the bank they use has pretty short wait times. How awesome is that?

Anyway sorry this was SO long but I had a lot to say and I am SO relieved to know that we had more options than I thought. I feel much better about everything now. Smile

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I am so sorry Leah:( It sucks that AF showed.I hope this your lucky month. Baby dust to you. Have fun BDing.

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:wavehello: Hello! Welcome to May!

I'm sorry that AF showed up.. I can only imagine the disappointment. Sad The "welcoming committee" in me wants to let you know that we'd love to have you involved with the May 2013 board but completely understand - and support!! - that it's a hard time right now. I'll have you in my thoughts (and prayers) with your upcoming Dr. appointment.

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Thank you ladies. Smile I hope the appointment goes well Friday and we get some answers but I'm not too excited about doing ANOTHER cycle of meds. This time last year I certainly didn't think I'd still be on infertility meds. It's probably a good thing that I didn't know that or I might have quit right there. Ugh! This is probably the worst AF I've ever had...even worse than the first post m/c AF and even worse than the bleeding and cramps after the d&c. I don't know what's going on! Stupid body. Never likes to do anything right. I'm just realizing this post is reading way more bitter than I really am right now. Lol. I am seriously annoyed with it all but knowing that we have other options and exploring them is making me feel less trapped and much much more positive about the future so really I'm okay. I am trying to decide if we want to go all out and do OPKs and everything this cycle or if we want to go with the flow and BD every other day for a week and not pay attention beyond that. That's what we did the cycle I did finally get pregnant so I'm torn. Any thoughts on that?

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Hi Leah, good luck this cycle. I really hope this will be your lucky one.

I think it might do you good to pay a little less attention this cycle so maybe skip the opk's. I'm kinda in that mindset though right now...trying to be laid back about it myself so it could just be where my POV is coming from. Wink I think you should do what feels right for you based on how you're feeling about it right now.

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Sorry it's been such a rollercoaster for you.
Good luck today. I hope you get some decent answers.
Hugs.
Xxxx

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Yes, hope you have a good appointment today Smile Please KUP

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I am so sorry af came and is so rough this cycle. I hope your Appt goes well, and everything goes perfectly this month!!

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Checking in to see if there's an update!