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I'm wishing..

that I was already 4-5 months pregnant. I know it sounds silly but I want to be popped out already.. and feel better about my pregnancy already! To me, the first trimester is the hardest. So much worrying.. anxiety, etc. I know I should enjoy it.. bc I am pretty sure this is my last pregnancy (God willing everything goes well). We only ever wanted 2 children. But I just can't help it!! Then I see my ticker.. and this baby is so tiny.. and I close my eyes and I picture my son and my other baby playing together.. OH the joy and love Smile

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:cry: That's REALLY gonna make me cry today!!!! How beautiful the thought!!

DD has been asking me for years when she can be a big sister... but never understood that I wanted to be married and with the right person before I did it again. All the waiting I KNOW is going to be work it.. it's just time!! Smile

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Adriana, me too.. rereading it.. lol even typing it. I just have always felt that there was something missing and I know it's another child! I really can't wait Smile I can't imagine my son being an only child.. I just can't. I remember growing up.. and even though my brothers got on my nerves a lot I can't imagine life without them!

Is your daughter wanting a sister still or does she not care anymore what the gender is?

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I don't think she cares, honestly. Smile I've gone from the girl who never wanted kids to the mom who just can't wait to add to my family. Smile

But I've always seen myself as the.. well.. have you ever seen the show Rosanne from the 80/90s? I see myself as THAT mom.. sarcastic.. living life to the extreme and only taking things half as seriously as they need to be taken (unless life threatening, of course..) I don't just want a life - I want to live it!

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Yes, I have Blum 3 She was funny! Lol.. I kind of get that from your personality when you type too and that's awesome! You seem like a friendly person.. someone that's always had friends and that everyone really wants to be around!

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Lol I can't say my life has always been that way, but it has the past 15 years or so... I was "that kid" in grade / high school that every one made fun of for being the outcast, fat kid. Sad It hurt. Once college rolled around, I took a new outlook.. I was going to be the person that no one ever was to me! Loving, giving, respectful, uplifting, friendly, supportive etc..

I think I'm living that dream. Wink

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People can be so cruel in HS! That's one era I don't want to relive lol I was a chunky girl in high school too.. I had my own little group of friends. I was in honors classes and a lot of the "popular" kids were too.. so I was always thinking "UGH! shut up!" Lol.. lost all that weight after HS and I can say my life is so much better.. I would've loved to have gone to my HS reunion to see how everyone else was doing.. it was actually this past August. But I'm from Dallas, Texas and was not going to fly from South GA just for a HS reunion!

Anyway, great out look you have girlie Smile For sure! Where are you from?

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Sounds like you and I have a lot more in common every day! Smile Can't say I blame you on the reunion front.. I went but it was HARD!!! I was.. honestly.. scared to face everyone. What if they had come out to be the bigger, better person that I never turned out to be?

I guess my mom hit the nail on the head when she said that the only people who were NOT going were those who were afraid and embarrassed about what they had become in life. I went. Wink She was sooo right! I was only one of two with an MBA and a steady job! CRAZY!!! :shock:

I'm from Kansas City, MO. Biggrin And still here! Home sweet home.. So you're in GA? Biggrin

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You're so right about that!! My class reunion as actually at some type of Grille/Bar thing.. haha.. and I saw pics and they were all drinking of course. I'm in a total different place in life.. I'm a mom and happily married. I think many of my class is probably not married.. maybe has kids.. still doing the party scene. Not me, I went through that in my early 20s and I've been done with that part of life!

Yes, South GA.. I don't love it here.. I'm used to it. Such a quiet place really.. total culture shock when I first moved. I'd move back to Dallas in a heartbeat IF it was the right time in my life.. and if I knew things would be so easy to just pick up and move. Alas, it's not and my husband has been here his whole life.. I'm happy with him though so it's all that matters Smile Is your husband from there originally too?

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Yes!! EXACTLY!!!! WTH is up with the party lifestyle? You're an adult now.. try to act like it! lol.. I'm past all that, too.. I enjoyed it up until I found out I got PG with DD and literally, overnight, ditched that lifestyle! I'm sooooo much happier being a mom!!

OMG what is it with TX!?!?! ROFL DH is from Nebraska.. so not too far away but some miles/hours for sure. But he's lived just about everywhere you can imagine.. and TX is where he just loves.

Sorry you're not where you can drop your heart into being home but I understand.. I'd be the same with anywhere other than KC :comfort: But you have DH and that's what matters - like you said! Smile How did you all meet??

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:lurk: So.. excuse me for intruding, but.. I just wanted to say me too! I want to be like 9 months pregnant...LOL. I also was chunky in HS.. but I'm still chunky..lol. I had no self esteem, but I acted like a bad @ss so no one messed with me. I've never been in a fight - good thing no one tested my attitude..LOL. I went to college...got married after I graduated to the complete wrong man who downed me every second he got. I was a loner in college...I commuted, so I just went to class and came home. My job is what gave me self esteem. I work around ALL men and some of them hit on me when I first started and I was completely thrown. After getting downed all the time, someone actually liked me? To make a long story short - my husband NOW (#2) is the one for me. Is he stubborn? Yes. Does he get mad sometimes? Yes. But he loves me and he shows it and he's always complimenting me. I think we all have to go through the bad to really recognize the good and be able to appreciate it that much more.

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No such thing as intrusion! Join us any time! Smile

I got in one fight in 8th grade.. it wasn't pretty :oops: Never again.. just wasn't worth it to me. Personally, I think as a woman, regardless of where they come from, compliments will increase our self esteem! And that's ok! I got to a point that if you wanted to prey on me and my insecurities well, e'f you and have a nice day. Biggrin

I waited 34 years for DH to come along.. and in God's time, it was right.. We're in NO WAY the perfect relationship.. and have our times.. but we're still learning each other and what will tick. We've vowed never to give up on each other and to keep pushing for what we both know is right by God. Biggrin

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Haha.. who wouldn't love to live in Texas Wink LOL JK But everything is bigger in Texas hehe. Love it.. people have so much pride being from Texas! I'm a HUGE Cowboy fan.. lose or win!

But my best friend and my husband are actually cousins. My best friends grandmother married my husbands grandfather. So that is how they are related. Anyway, I worked with my best friend and she quit after she had her first child... I use to babysit her daughter while she had some night classes. One day, Chase (DH) and my now best friends husband went over there and I was there babysitting.. and it started from there. My husband is also younger than me Wink lol.. my best friend and I are married to best friends.. so we are all 4 best friends. My bestie and I are both married to younger men.. hehe. Cougars.. haha.. kidding!

Jessica, I'm so sorry about your first marriage Sad But I'm glad you've found the perfect man for you!!

How did you both meet your husbands??

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"ILoveMyMiniMe" wrote:

No such thing as intrusion! Join us any time! Smile

I got in one fight in 8th grade.. it wasn't pretty :oops: Never again.. just wasn't worth it to me.

Yes, any time Jessica!

Oh and I got into a fight in 7th grade lol got suspended.. but I actually felt ok about it. I never did it again and the girl started it.. so I just finished it lol

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"nidia" wrote:

Yes, any time Jessica!

Oh and I got into a fight in 7th grade lol got suspended.. but I actually felt ok about it. I never did it again and the girl started it.. so I just finished it lol

lol.. Same here.. I didn't start it! But I sure enough finished it... She got one good hit in for sure, but that was it. The rest was a pummel session. Me on her, her on the floor. :oops:

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LOL!!! Cougerville!! Go girl! Wink lol.. How much younger is DH? From the pic, you guys look both pretty young! Smile

My DH and I met online. Biggrin I got my first email from him on September 5th.. We met that Friday, the 9th and bought our wedding ring on December 19th when we had money saved up. Smile Married June 22nd and the rest is history! I just knew he was for me..

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sorry I missed this conversation, but I just wanted to say that 4-5 months is my favorite time too. i like when i am showing and the m/s is over with! It will be here before you know it!
This might be my last pregnancy too, kinda sad to think about!

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Adriana, 3.5 years difference Blum 3 I don't feel my age at all for sure lol

Aww, I actually dated someone I found online in high school too.. I could say he was my first true love. I still talk to him every so often on a friendship level and I realize how lucky I am that it never worked out with us bc he's always wanted something totally different than I did. My hubby is everything I've ever wanted/dreamt of and more!

Samantha, it is sad.. to think you'll never again be pregnant and feel those kicks.. to get so close to a baby while they are in utero, to hold a tiny baby for as long as we want, etc. But one day they will give us grandkids and we will have those babies in our arms again!

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OMG I just woke up from an unexpected nap! I was mid-type, too! LOL!! Just in case no one figured it out, I called in sick to work today.. I couldn't get out of bed this morning so I told the boss I was not coming in. I need this sleep so bad!

Ya know, ladies, it's been so long since I've been pregnant, I've forgotten what it's like. I remember I popped out overnight in my 5th month but that's about as much as I remember.. other than my overall labor and delivery was exceptionally easy! Which I'll be happy to have again. Lol

ONLY 3.5 years?? Lol That's cute!!! There's a littt-tttle less than DH and I :oops: But when we're adults age is nothing but a number, in my opinion.

So what does everyone usually do during the day? Work? School?

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Hehe.. yeah, it's just a number for sure Smile

Wish I could nap right now.. and it's about to storm too! ZzzzZzzZzz..

I work for a housing authority.. have been for 5 years.. it can be very amusing at times. I do enjoy my job and my coworkers most of the time.. haha. I'm in an office with two males which are the directors so we don't see them as much as I see the other 4 ladies in here. You know what an office full of women can mean.. plus, I am the youngest!!

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Let's see. I met my husband in 10th grade. He was a grade below me, but older than me by a few months. Which means, obviously, he got "held back" a year. I was always super smart, so...I used to wonder what it was that made him fail, but I never did ask. ANYWAY, he lived in the same neighborhood as this girl I was friends with - she used to drive to school and she would take him and then she'd pick me up on the way. I'd see him in school every now and then. Summer time came rolling around and he showed up at my house totally unexpected! He said he wanted to ask me to go to Busch Gardens with him. (I live near Busch Gardens, so it's not like a vacation lol). I told him I had to go to my dads that weekend...then thought about it, cancelled with my dad and called Tim back and said I could go. I don't remember Busch Gardens at ALL but I DO remember driving up to his house and thinking, seriously? What kind of rednecks live here? LOL I also remember falling asleep on the way home - he wanted me to lean up against him, but his whole family was in the car and I fell asleep against the window. He said i didn't show enough interest and that was that. THEN (sorry, this is way long), I found out he was marrying this girl that I knew from HS and she was all wrong for him and she was ALREADY cheating on him. She cheated on him throughout their marriage. He found out, gave her another chance, then walked in on her and another guy. Whoopsie! So they got divorced. I never did like that *$*...haha! I had gotten married to Mr. Wrong by then and was sick of the insults and being put down and then he hit me. Oh HELL NO. I told my mom, she threatened him..lol, but it was only a matter of time after that. I was so totally done. I hated him. In the middle of the divorce, I looked tim up on FB. He offered to do some maintenance on my car... he kissed me the first time I was there and ... that's all she wrote. I've been in his arms ever since. He's a great guy. I couldn't ask for anyone better for me.

Adriana - I went home early today. I felt like utter crap at work.. I tried to get most everything done and then I went home... and crashed. I think I took a small nap... for about 3 hours. LOL

And about the "last pregnancy" thing, we don't have any other kids. DH wants like 4. I am kinda through ...growing a baby is rough business!

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Lol I think we all have some pretty good stories about how we met our loves!

Jessica, I hope you feel better for sure!

Adriana, did you fall back asleep? Hehe.

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Nope, nope.. I'm awake for the moment.. licking some peanut butter off a spoon, trying to kill some nausea.. and just talked to my mom.. After almost 37 years, she's *thinking* about moving up here to be by us (about 45 minutes north of where she currently lives). :shock: That would ROCK!!! She's not "that mom" that's overly invasive by any means.. but the main thing is that where she lives now has gone SOOOOO down hill and it's a VERY scary neighborhood for an older, single woman.

I went downstairs to work more on going to through baby clothes that I started going through almost 5 weeks ago ROFL And set up the pack and play from (gulp!!) 10 YEARS ago!!! Only one little hanging star (velcro) has come detatched but other than that it looks GREAT! I like to take care of my stuff. Smile

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Looks like you girls have been busy today Smile Feel like I'm intruding Wink
But yes... bring on the 2nd trimester! Haven't told a soul about this yet and really wanting to! And this feeling permanently crappy aint a walk in the park either. I actually looked at some maternity clothes last night online but couldn't bring myself to buy any yet - can't wait!

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Yaeli - I haven't bought anything either. I REALLY REALLY want to buy a pacifier. LOL I haven't bought any maternity clothes, I wouldn't even know how to buy them. I mean, do I wear the same size as I do now or are they different sizes ..or what?

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"sox79" wrote:

Looks like you girls have been busy today Smile Feel like I'm intruding Wink
But yes... bring on the 2nd trimester! Haven't told a soul about this yet and really wanting to! And this feeling permanently crappy aint a walk in the park either. I actually looked at some maternity clothes last night online but couldn't bring myself to buy any yet - can't wait!

Stop with that nonsense talk about intruding!!!!!! :grouphug:

The good thing is that you'll have plenty of time to buy stuff in the VERY near future! I'm just kind of an antsy person.. and this is DH's first so he's ok-ing all the buys! LOL!! Lol

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"babywings1" wrote:

Yaeli - I haven't bought anything either. I REALLY REALLY want to buy a pacifier. LOL I haven't bought any maternity clothes, I wouldn't even know how to buy them. I mean, do I wear the same size as I do now or are they different sizes ..or what?

Get you're butt to KC and let's go shopping!!!! :woohoo:

Just remember in the maternity sizing thing.. try it on. Obviously the belly is going to have room to grow but look at all the other areas.. how does it fit on your shoulders? Bum? Arms? If it fits NOW, go up one size. Just to be safe. Smile

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Yaeli, you're not intruding at all!

I can't wait to get out my maternity clothes and go shopping for more lol I'm also pretty excited about not being pregnant during the summer this time Biggrin

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I just ordered some maternity clothes for my bloat belly! haha. Old Navy has maternity clothes on sale, and i dont have many winter clothes to wear, It;s already getting cold here in IN.

Anyone know of any good shoes to wear this winter? Last time I was PG I had horrible hip pain and it was hard to walk, so I need some good comfy shoes to wear this time.

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Wow... I've been away for a few days and you girls have been chatty! I loved reading about how everyone met their men, hahah. My DH and I met in our first year of college. I had made some friends who lived in his dorm. Well, they were actually mutual friends.. So freshman year, we did a lot of stuff together in the group setting. Our second year, we lived in the same dorm, almost right across the hall from each other. It was a coed dorm, split down the middle by male and female. My roomie and I lived right at the edge of the girls' part and he lived with two roomies at the edge of the guys' part. We started spending a LOT of time together then, went on our first official date on November 1st, 2002 (I post the date because it was 10 years ago this year!) and we've been attached at the hip since, haha. We got married on September 27th, 2008 (omg, our anniversary is in a week, hahaha... I'd better get moving on some plans). We got pregnant with our DS1 on our honeymoon in Cabo san Lucas. Biggrin

And YES... I really, really, really am wishing for the 2nd trimester. I feel like crap all.the.time. The nausea really started kicking in today. I'm exhausted constantly. And of course, after having a loss, I really just hope to safely make it to the next trimester. I'll take the nausea, exhaustion, etc. any day if it means a healthy bean. Please be a healthy bean!!

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Samantha, I will have to check out old navy Smile

Mary, I know what you mean.. that's exactly how I feel. I just want a healthy little bean. Please, oh please!! It's so scary.. and it sucks that women that have been through a mc are constantly nervous/scared/anxious about a pregnancy!