Well, I had my CD13 ultrasound today and it didn't go so well. I had no follicles that could be seen. It's possible that I O'd this morning because there was some free fluid around my ovary but it's not certain. We DTD CD10 and last night and this morning so if I did we're covered but honestly I'd be surprised if I did. I've had cramping but not like the typical O cramps. The doc also said that he saw calcifications around my left ovary and that it was too high...like it wasn't sitting in the right place leading him to believe that I do have endometriosis after all. I'm not really surprised or upset because I've been wondering this all along. He did say at my first appointment that he wondered if I had endo and that we would cross that bridge when we came to it. He said it'd probably only be stage 1 which is good but he also said I'd probably need surgery at this point. I'm not willing at all to have surgery right now. It would be my 3rd surgery in a year and that's an awful lot for anyone and even more for someone who's immune compromised. It can be downright dangerous when you're immune compromised and I got a post op infection after the last surgery so...that's just not an option right now. I do think that eventually we'll go that route but my body is completely exhausted after 7 rounds of fertility drugs and a miscarriage and a surgery in there too.
We were going to do IUI next cycle but have decided not to. We don't want to spend money on a procedure that probably won't even work considering I probably need surgery at this point. So we've decided to pursue adoption and give my body a serious break. I'm in the 2WW now so it's always possible I guess that I'll end up pregnant but I seriously doubt it. I'm totally okay with this decision though and I've been leaning in this direction the last two months anyway. Just wanted to update. I hope all of you ladies get your BFPs soon and I'm sure I'll be here stalking anyway. At least for the next two weeks if not longer. Thanks so much for your support through all of this. I couldn't have survived it without you all!
There are no words, beautiful. It give me great peace to know you're comfortable (as comfortable as one can be) with the roads you and DH have and will be walking. Please know that you're seen as such a strong woman to face the things you do and face them with not one but TWO smiles!! One in your post.. one in your heart!
As a faith-filled woman, I will have you in my thoughts and most certainly in my prayers. I know that even though this time is challenging, you WILL see that your "end of the road" is really just a fork to something more beautiful and bright!!
All my best, sweetie...
These ladies have already said everything I am thinking so eloquently. Also, I pray you and your hubby are able to maintain a positive and hopeful attitude as you walk the path to parenthood. I hope you find your child in your arms in the best possible time. So many best wishes and big hugs to you.
I will be watching hopefully for a BFP in the next few weeks for you but if not I do hope you will come around the boards and KUP about how you are doing.
Huge huge hugs to you.
I think anything I add now will just pale next to all the other ladies words.
TTC 2 Years +
Leah, I am so very sorry to hear what you are going through! Adoption is an amazing thing though! My sister and her husband were unable to conceieve on their own and now have an amazing 1 yr old daughter from adoption! Keeping you and your DH in my thoughts and prayers!
Leah I'm so sorry for what you are going through, but admire your positive outlook. I hope that you get that BFP this cycle, if not, that the adoption process is simple and you will be holding a beautiful baby real soon! You are in my thoughts!!
Oh Leah - I so wished for a healthy pregnancy for you. Over and over and over again. I have pulled for you every step of the way and now I am crying at my computer because it's not working out. You are so sweet and deserve the very best. I hope adoption brings you the little one that you can share all your and DH's love with (but I still hope you get a + in 2 weeks) Good luck.